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174 · Dec 2021
More Precious Than Gold
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
The script of experience,
endorsing our wills
banking our choices,
paying our bills

Crediting our memory
for what lies ahead
debentures of faith
the black and the red

A ledger retallied,
both columns in sync
the plus and the minus,
indelible ink

Its summary left open,
all errors erased
with loans to push forward
—new funding in place

(Rosemont College: December, 2021)
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2018
My days and nights
  death in between
  trouble in front—behind

The devil hijacking my
  fondest dream
  trouble in front—behind

She said she loved me
  then said it twice
  trouble in front—behind

The day I got fired
  she turned to ice
  trouble in front—behind

I pass out ******
  and wake up hard
  trouble in front—behind

With time my warden
  and sentence scarred
  trouble in front—behind

My children’s names
  now others call
  trouble in front—behind

The doctor warns…
  “Not one more fall”
  trouble in front—behind

Excuses inked
  across my chest
  trouble in front—behind

The good got better
  but the worst got best
  trouble in front—behind

My eyes stay swollen
  my mojo light
  trouble in front—behind

The river rolling
  the falls in sight
  trouble in front—behind

(Villanova Pennsylvania: August, 2018)
174 · Dec 2018
Forever Marked
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2018
Waiting to seize a moment
  I knew would never come

The visions passed like storm clouds
  deception on the run

The light was all around me
  as I stood there in the dark

The shadows of misguided fear
  —my path forever marked

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2018)
174 · Jul 2017
Hope Never Rests
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2017
While looking for a bridge
  to cross over tonight

Connecting time honored values
  to internet blight

I thought and I pondered,
  as I surfed on the net

But the things that it offers
  are sadly abject

Where is the laughter
  the thrill of the chase

Through forest and meadow
  with all of your mates

Gone is the connection
  looking eye into eye

Replaced now with distance
  and its virtual lie

The children are programmed
  their bits and their bytes

With screens the new playgrounds
  their couches—their life

Where all of this leads,
  I’m fearful to know

As I look for that bridge
  where our youth can still go

To return from the chaos
  to a welcoming time

Where friendships were made
  in a tree you just climbed

But the harder I search
  the dimmer it gets

Quicksand reinvented
  their souls it collects

Though cards stack against me,
  I remain on my quest

The young are still worth it
 —and hope never rests

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2017)
174 · Jul 2021
Illuminata
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2021
Dawn spoke to the darkness
in its language of light

Delivering tomorrow
—from the deafening night

(Bryn Mawr College: July, 2021)
174 · Jun 2017
Blues Poem #10
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2017
Living hard,
  the writing comes easy

Living easy,
  the writing comes hard

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)
Kurt Philip Behm May 2024
Day #6: Salmon Idaho to Vernal Utah

I was the first motorcyclist to leave the next morning from an overly full parking lot.  It was 6:45 a.m., and you couldn’t fit even one more bike anywhere on the normally empty lot. Some late arrivals were now parked on the apron just across the road.  

After two cups of coffee and a biscuit in the hotel’s complimentary breakfast area, I said goodbye to Gene at the front desk and was on my way.  I had plenty of gas to make Mud Lake and decided I would stop at the ranger station there and see if Marie was still working the desk.  Marie had been a wealth of information over the last twenty years and had saved me countless hours of waiting in road construction delays by suggesting alternative routes.  

The ride on Rt#28 along the Western edge of the Beaverhead Mountains was both beautiful and isolated, and I had been riding it alone.  I counted only five cars during the entire length of its 121 miles.  I was once again amazed at what life had granted me to see, as I looked out toward Scott Peak (11,393 ft.) far off to the East.

I was not quite running on fumes but in need of gas as I pulled into Mud Lake.  I had my second mid-morning breakfast, an egg-salad sandwich and coffee, as I filled the bikes tank. Another meal that I pulled straight out of the cold chest at the gas station before turning left on highway Rt.#33 toward Rexburg and Driggs.  If I had to, I knew I could live forever on what these cold chests had inside. Some of my fondest memories had been while sharing a sandwich and a story with a fellow traveler who was also stopped for gas and some food.  Those accidental meetings were no accident and when the wind was at your back and your heart was open, your spirit could refill with all that was new.

After going through the beautiful Swan Valley and over Teton Pass to Jackson, I parked the bike and stopped for a real lunch.  The Eastern side of the Tetons has always been their most beautiful profile to me, and today did nothing to change that perception.  The view of Grand Teton as I passed through Victor and Driggs was as majestic as any time in my memory. The Swan Valley held proudly, in its rolling hills and Eastern perspective, what in many ways Jackson, because of overdevelopment, had lost looking West.

The ride over Teton Pass was more crowded than I expected. At almost 8500 feet, it was deceptive in the impression it gave as you climbed to the top. Although not high by Rocky Mountain standards, the view from its summit rivaled all but the mighty Glacier and Galena for majesty of landscape. It was late on a Monday morning, and there was a constant stream of cars and trucks headed both East and West.  It was another reminder of why I often bypassed Jackson even with its immense beauty.  It had become yet another example of what money tried to buy, and then control, when it reached beyond its borders. After another stop for gas, and a quick lunch at the Pearl Street Deli, I planned to be on my way.

Town was crowded as always with another day’s allotment of the two million people who would enter Yellowstone through the South entrance this year. The boardwalk surrounding the square in the center of town was full, as the patrons pushed and shoved to get their mountain souvenirs. They searched in desperation for something that they could take home, while at the same time leaving nothing of themselves behind.  So much of store-bought travel was like that with only the stain of trespassing footsteps to mark the places where they thought they had been.

                                           A Pity, Really

The tuna at The Pearl Street Deli was as good as I had remembered, and it was not quite 3:00 pm when I remounted the bike and headed south on Rt. #89 toward Hoback Junction.  Thank God my travels today would take me East at the split where Rt.#89 went West and Rt.#191 headed to the southeast. There had been road construction all the way from Jackson, and it would continue on Rt.#89 for at least another twenty miles.  I enthusiastically headed the other way on Rt.#191.

Once I veered left on Rt. #191, the road opened up, and I was again traveling alone.  My thoughts reached out to the Flaming Gorge basin and the road along its Western edge.  This was a new road for me, as before I had always stayed on Rt.#191 along its Eastern shore.  Today, I took a short ride West on interstate #80 before getting on Rt.#530, which connected Green River with Manila. Many times, I had heard of the beauty of this road, but once there, nothing could have prepared me for the things that I saw.

Where the eastern route was straight, and cut right through the canyon, the western side was a continuous series of turns dropping over two thousand feet, as it wound through one of the most beautiful gorges I had ever seen.  If you can only do it once, take the western route.  Just say a quick prayer of thanks for safe travel as you look across its depths.  It will remain in the memory of that day and what in your mind it will always be.

Where two state routes converged, #43 & #44, Manila was the seat of Daggett County Utah and the gateway to Kings Peak, the highest mountain in the state at 13,528 ft.  As much as people raved and boasted about the canyons further South, I had always believed that northeastern Utah’s canyons were special and unique.  The Uinta Mountains never left me unchanged as they disappeared into the Wasatch.

Through their power, my mind and soul came together in the union of all they taught me. For that I have been thankful knowing that these mountains bestowed blessings only when all homage had been paid. I looked to the West, as I reconnected with Rt.#191 and headed toward the old Utah town of Vernal where I would stop for the night.

It was a sportsman’s paradise and one of the only towns of its size in the country without a railroad.  Not founded by Mormons, like most of the state, it had regional air service to Denver but not Salt Lake.  The implied meaning here was that Salt Lake was not the center of the universe, and intention would always trump direction and bend it to its will. The Mormons were not going to control this remote Utah town, as it looked toward Denver and the east for what it could not find looking west.

Vernal was another of those hidden jewels attached to my charm bracelet of the West.  It was a place that I could live happily in and would be proud to do so. Maybe in this life —but most probably not. Either way, I had vicariously left big parts of myself there over the years, and it now sheltered and claimed those things as its own.

Vicarious, Being The Lasting Attribute Of All Important Travel

The sun was drifting behind the Ouray Indian Reservation to my West, as I pulled into town for the night.  Peaceful and quiet on a Monday evening, Vernal was not in a hurry to do what you expected but brought out more of what was expected in you.  The town had within it a great symmetry of purpose and a grace in its quiet undertaking of the things that made life worthwhile — and your place in it secure.  

I remembered a friend of mine, Walt Mullen, who told me years ago that he could get lost in the northern hills of Vernal and stay forever. Walt was a bear hunter, but he was just as happy when he had nothing to show after a week in the high-country. He truly understood the magic that existed along these trails and ancient beachheads where the dinosaurs once roamed.  

He told me he still felt their presence when he was alone with himself in the mountains while at the same time maintaining his connection to everything else. Inside its landscape, with the power to change all that you were before, thoughts weighed heavier in the Uinta Mountains. With every message you cried out into the canyons and rivers, the echo’s they sent back were ominous and large.

I thought about Walt, as I sat outside my motel room in Vernal reading Mari Sandoz’s, seminal work, ‘Crazy Horse — Strange Man of The Oglala.’  I wondered if Crazy Horse had ever been this far west.  I like to think that maybe he and the great Chief Joseph, of the Nez Perce, had ‘counseled’ here, trying to preserve a way of life, that in our attempted destruction, we never understood.

After dinner, I fell asleep thinking about what it would take to get my wife Kathryn to relocate here.  I knew she would fall in love with this town once she got a chance to know it. As I woke up, I realized again that to get a true city girl to leave her friends and family, just to live out a lifelong wish of her husband, would again be realized only in my dreams.  She understood my dreams, and she loved me for them — but she had dreams of her own.

It’s funny how two people, so much in love, could have entirely different dreams.  After 37 years of marriage, our understanding of who we were as a couple only increased with the respect and independence that we allowed each other.  Kathy truly understood my feelings for the West.  

Understood yes, but her feelings for the things that were important in her life were hers and hers alone.  I tried to respect that, as we lived in a shared appreciation of what we had accomplished together.   I thought about her constantly and wished that she were here with me tonight like she had been so many times before.

       Kathryn Loved The West — But Only To Visit
173 · Jun 2022
Destiny's Union
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2022
Brothers by birth
brothers in arms
Blood running deepest
  unity warns

Brothers in life
brothers in death
Destiny’s union
—sharing one breath

(Dreamsleep: June, 2022)
173 · Oct 2022
Wishes On Fire
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2022
Nothing leaves a footprint
like a memory burned
Deep into the consciousness
of those unlearned

Nothing grows more deadly
than the force of will
It powers every weapon
it vanquishes with skill

Nothing braves tomorrow
like a wish on fire
Its light forever’s beacon
to each soul aspired

Nothing is more final
than a dying breath
Words exiting their prison
—eternity’s rosette


(Dreamsleep: October, 2022)
173 · Apr 2023
Calling Us Home
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2023
With only twelve notes
the music commands
Some white and some black
their harmony grand

Scoring the melody
eternal and free
Whether Quincy or Frank,
Prince, Peggy, or me

Heaven the audience
Angels out front
Truth for a drummer
Sandalphon conducts

All time in abeyance
the chorus in song
Both gates swinging open
—the silence is gone  

(The New Room: April, 2023)
173 · Dec 2016
Tomorrow's Dream
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2016
A pound of silver,
  will never buy
  an ounce of hope

Its invoice blank,
  in memory
  of tomorrows dream

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2016)
173 · Feb 2019
Ancient Voices
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2019
All bareness forgiven
  the razors gone dry

The excuses all shaven
  no more asking why

A soul once abundant
  my face starts to fill

No sentence redundant
  no lines to go shrill

New destiny chosen
  man’s burden unsung

The look becomes learned
  masculinity sum

All chains have unshackled
  a face that goes deep

A beard now awakens
  —ancient voices that sleep

(Villanova Pennsylvania: October, 2015)
173 · Sep 2016
Treasure The Silence
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2016
Let the thoughts simmer,
  let the words breathe

Excesses slimmer,
passions reprieve

Leave the ink arid,
  keep the page clear

Treasure the silence,
—that only you hear

(Villanova Pennsylvania: September, 2016)
173 · Dec 2021
Life Sentence
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
After the diagnosis,
each moment a dream
of years and then months
and days in between

After the surgery,
the dream became real
time again captured
—the sentence repealed

(The New Room: December, 2021)
173 · Jan 2018
Fallback
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2018
When you run out of smarts
—you better have guts

(Villanova Pennsylvania: January, 2018)
173 · Mar 2021
Equus Pallidus
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2021
The horse was pale,
paler than the light off the mountain
that reflected back in memories long abandoned

Its mane was long,
longer than the struggle to save what
fortune had vehemently denied me twice

The time was short,
shorter than the flashes of history
that hoofprints trampled in the disappearing snow

The trail was closing,
closing on one last intrepid promise
crying out for life amidst a stampede of death


(Valley Forge Stables: March, 2021)
173 · Mar 2017
From Year To Year
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
To catch you in my rhythm,
  ensnare you in my rhyme

To make the meter come alive,
  and pull you out of time

With lines that end so sweetly,
  words pleasant to your ear

For you to carry past today,
  and sing from year to year

(Villanova Pennsylvania: March, 2017)
173 · Aug 2021
Between The Lines
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2021
Is reason the straightest road
to percipience
Or is truth intuition
—memory’s black hole

(Dreamsleep: August, 2021)
172 · Feb 2024
The Universe Prime
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2024
Adding together
numbers and colors
red + 7 sku’d

Living in another
event horizon
yellow + 1 = Q

Orange + 31
sweetness defined
Euclidian paradox

Counting + feeling
the universe prime
— nth truth outside the box

(Villanova University: February, 2024)


Sands Of Time

Memories in the hourglass
  tumble and fall
  feelings receding
— meaning recalled  

(The New Room: February, 2024)
172 · Mar 2022
Heaven's Ear
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2022
When the spirit listens
—the heart forgives

(1st Book Of Prayers: December, 2011)
172 · Jun 2022
Memory Lost
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2022
The narrow hall of mourning
pathway to my grief
Darkened by each memory lost
—there in stark relief

(Dreamsleep: May, 2022)
172 · Mar 14
According To Wyatt
Affable people
are likeable fools
Divorced from the moment
their banter unspools

Affable people
in search of a creed
Amusing examples
— of folly indeed

(Dreamsleep: March, 2025)
172 · Feb 2019
Another Look
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2019
Another day with a voice
  —one more glimpse into forever

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2016)
172 · Nov 2017
A New Moment
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2017
The music’s the same,
  as a different bell rings

The feelings in tune,
  as the chanting begins

The score freshly written,
  a new moment alive

The harmony timeless
  —its voice yours and mine

(Villanova Pennsylvania: November, 2017)
172 · May 2017
Forever Wet
Kurt Philip Behm May 2017
If no man is an island,
  what can one man be

If no man stands alone,
  to write the words, himself to free

If never beats that distant drum,
  one marching out of step

Who will swim against the tide,
—their ink forever wet

(Villanova Pennsylvania: May, 2017)
172 · Oct 2023
Smelling The Coffee
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2023
Reality doesn’t come
with perfection
Its paradigm rooted
and flawed
To love an ideal
its fantasy sealed
The truth found in mores
—not law

(Dreamsleep: September, 2023)
172 · Feb 2017
The Warrior Poet
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2017
Deadly to his enemies,
  confusing to his friends

While faithful to his writing,
 —all justified intent

Furious in times of war,
  in peace his vision burns

But past the fray inside his words,
  a gentler spirit yearns

Salvation long then sacrificed,
  a fate he can’t deny

A cross that’s left for him to bear,
  but still his spirit cries

Through battles mostly heaven sent,
  and victories sealed with death

This guilt the price he’s had to pay,
  now felt with every breath

One wish at last he prays out loud,
  one cry is sent above

“My spear, my pen, my will to live,
   I trade all back for love”

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2017)
172 · May 2019
A Melody Of Sages
Kurt Philip Behm May 2019
Prose and Poetry
  came together

In a marriage of
  infusion

—each wanting from the other
     what they could not bring

—each vowing to the other
    words they longed to sing

Birthing a new music
  of epic proportion

In an infant now timeless
  beyond simple refrain

—with a message for the ages
    wrapped in lyrical rhyme

—in a melody of sages
    defying space and time

(Villanova Pennsylvania: September, 2016)
172 · Feb 2021
To My Children
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2021
For now, I want to see your face,
and gaze into your eyes

To hear your voice within my ears
—I’ll text you when I die

(Rosemont Pennsylvania: February, 2021)
172 · Aug 2022
Calling My Name
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2022
In the sandbox of my memory
reasons come and go
Castles worn in corners scorned
left without a moat

Granulated laughter
idle unreleased
Waiting for a last return
covered over deep

The jungle gym sits dormant
a mass of rusted links
One ring missing ladder gone
the rope swing short and kinked

The teeter totter frozen
its pivot rusted tight
The sliding board a one-way trip
fading into night

The sandbox of my memory
where feelings go to die
My childhood friends whose echo’s rend
timeless bye and bye

Still one last voice is buried
deep within the grains
The one I shunted until now
—calling out my name

(The New Room: August, 2022)
172 · Apr 2017
My Heart Not To Bleed
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2017
Gripping the meteor,
  both hands for dear life

Expelling, compelling,
  less heat and more light

Afraid to let go,
  knowing what it will mean

My pen to go dry,
—my heart not to bleed

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
172 · Sep 2019
First & Last
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2019
Truth…
the first casualty
of war

Love…
the last casualty
of truth

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
172 · May 15
Too Little — Too Late
Not so much
a lie
with little
truth to tell

Not so much
goodbye
with greetings
gone to hell

Not so much
romance
with feelings
dead or pawned

Not so much
to dream
with sleep
— bereft and gone

(Bryn Mawr College: May, 2025)
172 · Jul 2017
Peter Pan Aglow
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2017
Unlike an opera Diva,
  a writer hides his age

Scores to bear eternal youth,
  a Contralto dies on stage

Ink reclaims the Land of Oz,
  Dorothy to know

Toto barks—old lyrics march
  Peter Pan aglow

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2019
The past is left in mourning,
the future still unknown

The present disavows them both,
not borrowed—never loaned

(Dreamsleep: August, 2019)
171 · Sep 2019
Fraternal Melee
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2019
Christians killing Christians,
politics trumping God

The Axis dared, the Allies fared
—shared lineage facade

(Villanova Pennsylvania: September, 2019)
171 · Apr 2017
Gabriel's Horn
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2017
A captive of your ontology,
  a tiger in a cage

Doomed to look with borrowed eyes,
  your life played out on stage

You pace the floor incessant,
  as anger builds within

And hear the distance calling,
  feeling trapped, an alien

Will that trumpet ever reach you,
  by whose Archangel you’re reborn

Will redemption come to free you,
—if Saint Gabriel blows his horn

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
171 · Mar 2017
All Emptiness Gone
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
The hour has come,
  no word left unspoken

The reasons have vanished,
—all emptiness gone

(Las Vegas Nevada: January, 2011)
171 · Dec 2016
If Not For The Poet
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2016
Where have all the
  Poets gone

Where are all the
  songs unsung

Where does the mystery
  unravel sublime

Where does the majesty
  reach the Divine

Where does tomorrow
  turn into today

If not for the Poet,
  we've all lost our way

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2016)
171 · Feb 2021
Another
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2021
Leave me alone,
I’m deaf to your pleading

Leave me alone,
I can’t feel what you feel

Leave me alone,
my time not for owning

Leave me alone,
our history repealed

Leave me alone,
the bridges are burning

Leave me alone,
the entrance has closed

Leave me alone,
the pages are turning

Leave me alone
—another I’ve chose

(Dreamsleep: February, 2021)
171 · Feb 2021
Each Memory
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2021
The shape of my spirit,
the weight of my soul

To measure the longing
of wishes unsold

Tomorrow the color
of yesterday’s stain

The taste of each memory
—this moment retains

(University Of Pennsylvania: February, 2021)
170 · Aug 2019
Disavowed
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2019
Neither left wing nor right
conservative or liberal,
he goes about his day

Living outside the parameters
of deception,
hell in heavens way

While living as dead
he vanquishes time,
each moment present now

Defying your judgment
refusing to choose
—all limits disavowed

(Dreamsleep: August, 2019)
170 · Apr 2022
Invenire Vitam
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2022
Until your forgiveness
marries your passion
—everything else is lost

(Dreamsleep: April, 2022)
170 · Jan 2024
In The Ashes
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2024
Baiting
a feeling

Passion
is tracked

Luring
the moment

Setting
the trap

Eyes
look upon you

Cage
set on fire

Death
in the ashes

Preying
— desire

(The New Room: January, 2024)
170 · Dec 2021
Heaven's Imprint
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
Though happy when wealthy
I’m happy when poor
my happiness fluid
and flows from the core

The riches inside me
their bounty implied
with love as the constant
rejection denied

All queens in their castles
each king on his throne
their gentry in waiting
court jesters bemoan

True joy in the notion
not fashioned by whim
That our souls were imbued
—and sainted within

(The First Book Of Prayers: December, 2021)
170 · Jul 2017
Lying There Alone
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2017
Death arrives late,
  but the dying begins early

You sense it in your motion,
  —feel it in your bones

Life becomes compressed,
  before ending abruptly

Memory all that’s left
  —you lying there alone

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)
170 · Dec 2023
Forging The Ask
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2023
The tension between
two disparate answers

Reinvents the question
—rebirthing the truth

(Dreamsleep: December, 2023)
170 · Nov 2024
Sunchaser
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2024
Trapped in a
ditch
on the highway
of life
Comings
were going
all motion
had gone

Till fates
saving whisper
in the ear
of tomorrow
Granted me
traction
in search
— of the dawn

(Dreamsleep: November, 2024)
170 · Jul 2019
Adieu
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2019
Deposit after deposit, memory is stored,
interest compounding anew

To transfer its balance of riches and gains
—avarice must first bid adieu

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2017)
169 · Mar 2017
This Present Mine To Own
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
The day now split
drifts off unpromised,
the dream remains with me

Our words as jewels
now treasured pawn,
their tickets burning free

The nights by measure
mornings fled,
those times you woke and lied

My heart remains
my own to wed,
your wound still deep inside

From spells you cast
upon our gift,
and quarried into stone

The past is black,
the future gone,
—this present mine to own

(Villanova Pennsylvania: January, 2017)
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