LIVE
       LIFE
             TO
                THE
                      FULLEST

                                     LIVE TO LOVE
                                                              OR
                                                                  LOVE TO LIVE

                                                                                        DON'T WAIT
                                                                                                              TO
                                                                                                                 THE
                                                                                                                      END

In life we all make mistakes
No one is perfect

The harder you try
The harder you fall
Regardless of the circumstance
You hear that saying a lot because it's true

You either make it or fail
If wrong please tell me

Have you ever been hurt by the simple things.  A word, a look

Do you talk down to people or inspire them.

Do you have a passion or a goal

Do you believe in a reason for everything or live for the moment.

What are your symptoms for life.

Do you react or accept

Do you know the difference between feelings and emotions, pain and hurt.

What is your true meaning, your purpose in life

What is your will

Lonely hearts that bleed through the night
that fight their battles all alone
no one to cry to, no place to call home

Their gift is only travesty and rage  
with repeating in their head
thinking they may be better off dead

Lost souls drifting in a foggy night
with eye's only filled with darkness
and a mind that only knows

That they want someone too

In times of sorrow
In times of pain
In times of forgiveness

Who does one turn to

In times of happiness
In time of joy
In times of greatness

Who does one turn to

How our thoughts change with our emotions
With every thought we look to a different person

Is there just one we can turn to
Could there actually be just one

One, who can resolve all problems, good or bad
Good is not a problem, yet good, can always be better

Turn to who we say
Turn away if you like

But someone is always there

I want you to remember

The things that came between us
From these games that we played

You were the lying one
I played your game

These things we have between us
Is what drives us apart

You squeezed my heart
And your the passion one

I'll make the break
You'll see the sun

I'll play your hand
You'll be the lonely one

These feelings we have between us
Are now far apart

As I pray to my master
That I made a big mistake

It was what controlled me
That led me to my own misery

Soul searching for a life there after
Same old trip that held my hand

Drifting endlessly in darkness
Flying not wise to notion,
to get my own way

This darkness I must leave behind and find the light
But i am frighten to not know what i might find
I try so hard not up get upset and to find this new life

Looking into the future to find a life that I recognize
Being empty in the past does not tell me what tomorrow brings
As I only cry for yesterday and tomorrow i will learn to survey

To sell your life....
To fear, to hate...
To live a lie.....

To love a God....
To fear a flame...
To burn in a crowd that has no name...

To right or wrong...
To meek or strong...
It is known, to just scream at the wall....

I've willed....
I've walked...
I've read....
I've talked...

I've punched the walls...
I've cried the tears...

I know, been there....
I've lived in drama before...

The words that hurt...
The love, the pain...
The games of shame...

It's the sun that burns...
It's the wheel that turns...
It's the way we fulfill dreams...

To Christ on the cross...
To me on my knees...
To kneel and earn the love from above...

I will not live in drama...
I will not be scarred like that...

Do we distract or react
To or from a situation

When things become unclear
Control your mind and be sincere

Hold your emotions be real
Think things through
No ones out to get you

These are not poems
They are writings

Writings about real life
That you may already know

But a refresher course
Is always good to know

This is the springtime of my loving,
the second season I am to know

You are the sunlight in my growing,
so little warmth I've felt before

It isn't hard to feel me glowing,
I watched the fire that grew so low

It is the summer of my smiles,
flee from me Keepers of the Gloom

Speak to me only with your eyes,
It is to you I give this tune

Ain't so hard to recognize,
These things that are clear from time to time.

I've felt the coldness of my winter,
I never thought it would ever go

I cursed the gloom that set upon us,.
but I know that I love you so

These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds they rise and fall

This is the wonder of devotion,
I see the torch we all must hold

This is the mystery of the quotient,
upon us all a little rain must fall

We sometimes all say
That we are prisoners of our mind

Is it our mind or our thoughs
Is it our life or ourself

Is there a definition of this
Do we react this way from
Situations in life or do we know

My definition is no longer prisoner
Of my mind.

It was my one way thinking
My way of thinking was my enemy

My way of  thinking
landed me in a real prison

You want to feel the feeling
Of a prisoner of your mind

Be behind bars without
Pen and paper to express

Express your thoughts
And relieve your anger

Instead of taking it out on others

As I feed the fire
of the undesirables...

I find myself,
drenched in water....

With only a life preserver,
to grasp on to...

I find the water beneath me,
to be laced with time...

The time I find stagnate,
that holds no truth..

As the air I breathe,
has me looking for the next...

I find it only to be,
a figment of my imagination..

I must first hold my breath,
to appreciate the air I breathe..

The body is a natural machine,
that changes in time...

Time which we cannot hold on to....
Yet time is the only thing we have...

It was once a seed
Looking for a home
It's always found making love

Always disfigured as it grow
Always in darkness without forgotness

Surrounded by water
Eating through a cord

Nine months later
my homes then emptied

I hear people talking
Is this a dream

I pop out into lightness
With a whip to my ***
I cry out and scream

Everyone Cry's
Tears of love
For this bundle of joy

The one that holds me
Is my first love
I suckle her breast
I then start to grow

My mom and dad
They love me so
Just as I need them most

Never knowing how to speak
They always know what I need

I jump with joy and just can't talk
To say I love you and we shall never part

For those
Who think and feel
The majotity of them
Are not even real
Superficial they are
They sterio type everything
This is our world
So **** them I'll say
We show our feelings
Because we are real

The fears in my life are so many

The fear of being alone all your life, not finding anyone
The fear of being in a relationship because of a break up
The fear of falling in love because of the thoughts of hurt

Fear, why do we always keep it near

Fear of not succeeding keeps us from trying
The fear of trying frightens us at times

Does fear ever end, is it embedded in our head
or do we use fear as an excuse

in times of darkness, in times of pain
i then think of this lonely game
with a life without another

so my mind blows like the wind
shimmering through the leaves of time
the times of sorrow within my mind

i start to cry tears of forever lonleyness
one tear drop at a time

again i speak, only to myself
only to think of when i was young
i shined on like the sun

i now look to the skies and see nothing
but fragments of pain

as i cry out to the moon
trapped by the shodow at night
exposed by the light

i've worn out my welcome
by my own pressure
of wanting a life

Distractions should not change one's focus in life.

Yes one's moods may change but that's emotions

Emotions that make you cry, hurt, laugh and sigh

Emotions that sometimes causes pain.
Pain that really hurts within. It causes sorry, grief, depression and death.

Life

Life is somewhat strange from time to time.

Things will always change to the better and to the worst

How can one deal with this.
It only comes one way

With life experience and God

half my life i was stuck in the middle
now these in my face are getting clearer
the past is gone

isn't that the way we have to pay our dues

easy come, easy go
dusk till dawn
anyway the wind blows

nobody knows when it comes
and where it goes

half my life i was stuck with fools and angels
living for laughter, living for tears

please good lord, take me away from here

Lord,
Please bleed me from my own misery.

Lord,
Creed is what they tell me

Lord,
Are you the one, the only one, that can save me

Lord,
How do you see me

Lord,
Lead me to place I need to be

Lord,
What can you tell me

Lord,
Please don't forsake me

Lord,
Can you lead me from this life of misery

I can't tell you baby what went wrong
I can't make you feel what you felt

So long ago, I'll let it show
I can't give you back what's been hurt

Heartaches come and go and
all that's left are the words I can't let go
If we take some time to think it over baby

Take some time let me know
If you really wanna go

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong

Now I know what I got
It's just this song

And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

I can't feel the things that cause you pain
I can't clear my heart of your love

It falls like rain, ain't the same
I hear you calling far away
Tearing through my soul I just can't

Take another day, who's to blame
If we take some time to think it over baby

Take some time let me know
If you really wanna go

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong

Now I know what I got
It's just this song

And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

Do you wanna see me beggin' baby
Can't you give me just one more day

Can't you see my heart's been draggin' lately
I've been lookin' for the words to say

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong

Now I know what I got
It's just this song

And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

Should I            change              I Should
Could I             change              I Could
Would I            change              I Would

Old                  change                New

Mentality      ­  change                Mentality

  Why              change                   When

  Past               change                   Present

A hard thing   change               To the Future

 EVERYTHING CHANGES

Can’t this be a fantasy
Caught in a landslide
Why can’t I escape reality

You’ve took my feelings inside
And turned them upside down
As I thought of my life without you

Remember the past
It went so fast
Is this because I loved you

The times I made you cry
Hurt me deep down inside
But do I don’t want to be without you

If I can’t keep you by my side
I can't live my life without you
Your the only thing that matters to me

Didn't mean to make you cry
As i look up to the skies to see
Sending shivers down my spine
My body's aching all the time

I hope it's not to late
To put this past behind

If I pull this trigger I’ll be dead
So love me or just leave me to dead
With these feelings inside

Why do you do this to me
Anyone can see
That nothing else matters to me

I'm bad
I did it
It's my fault
Blame me
Sorry
What can I say
I forgot
I wasn't thinking
I should know better
It slipped my mind
OK tomorrow
Remind me

i try to love my self more then you
but it can't be done and I don't complain

i try to recognize these familiar feeling
trying to light my candle of thoughts

memories are like finger prints
as yours are stuck upon the shelf

hearts and thoughts will fade away
but the meaning i try to hold onto

I met a man so gifted
Meek in his loving ways

He'll capture your heart
And he'll teach you God's ways

He's funny and slick
He lives by God's ways

He's an emotional creature
That hates hurting ways

His name is P. C.
And I love him so

He's one of God's mouthpieces
And he preaches LOVE

God be with you
Live by his ways

God is his daddy
And he loves his ways

one time a thing occurred to me
what's real, and what's for sale?
blew a kiss and tried to take it home

it isn't you, isn't me
search for things you can't see
going blind, out of reach
somewhere in the Vasoline

two times and it has rendered me
punch drunk and without bail
think I'd be safer all alone
flys in the vasoline we are
sometimes it blows my mind
keep getting stuck here all the time

you'll see the look and you'll see the lies
you'll eat the lies, and you will.

it isn't you, isn't me
search for things you can't see
going blind, out of reach
somewhere in the vasoline.