she called me last night
to wish me for dead

she called me the next day crying
saying she loves me instead

she then came to me house mad

i said, what the hell is your problem,
just leave instead

she said, baby I love you
can we make love instead

i said you really got problems
becaouse i don't love you instead

LOSE
Resentment
Animosity
Jealousy
Sadness
Hatred
Anger
Envy
Satin
Fear
??
?


­FIND*
Thankfulness
Gratefulness
Forgiveness
Happiness
Hope
Faith
Love
God*
!!!
!!
!

immaculate dreams of you
made of breathe and skin

i've been waiting for you
with your name tattoo across my heart

can you forgive me
from falling apart

i cannot believe
you're taking my heart

it will take a little time
it might take a little crime

i will try to stay blind
to my fear's in life without you

when i stand in the wind
it blows me to tears

words of  deja vu remind me of you
like a radio tune that I've heard before

is it something that's real
was it your magic touche

lost in a snow filled sky
i can make it without you

Until I come undone

What can one say about their life

I had a great day
or
I killed a man today

I had a great meal
or
I went hungry

I found love
or
I know no one

I got a new car
or
I walk everywhere

Life is great
or
Life *****

Some are trapped in a prison
Some are not

What's the difference
Does it even matter

Most people in this world
Only think of one

Remember we do change our shoes

as night falls upon me
with signs of no hope
is it the drugs
or
is it just me

why can't i think of nothing else
hoping and praying
the next day will come

do i want to be clean
or
do i want to be high

why can't i think
or
why can't i die

caught in this grip
of this little bag (H)
only to know it makes me sad

so why did i take
thats not me
only to know
that GOD watches me

when i pray and cry
to my heavenly GOD
only to know
he doesn't want me sad

he will do his work
and he only cares

your everything you are
your my wish
your my falling star

your my everlasting love
your my world of desire

your my creature bliss
your my little *****

your attitude attracts me
your heart attaches me

your light i will follow
your life i will grab

your love i will hold on to

you mold me
you make me

you take me
you complete me

your everything to me

Oh life, it's bigger
It's bigger than you

And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to

The distance in your eyes
I've said too much
I've said enough

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour
I'm choosing my confessions

Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool

Consider this
the hint of the century

Consider this, the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed

What if all these fantasies come
Flailing around

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight

I've said too much
I haven't said enough

But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try
That was just a dream

Losing my religion

The times were great
When we shared our love

The times we cared
The times we shared

Who do you think I am
Who do you think you are

It was all about you
Never about us

All you want to do
Is make a fuss

Why can’t you care
Why can’t you love

Look at you know
And I only cared

Think of our children
Think of their LOVE

It’s not about us
It’s all about them

Can you ever change
Or will you ever will

Always remember
I was the one who was there

Why can't I think ?
Why can't I run ?
Why can't I hide ?
Why am I caught ?

In this Everlasting Dream

Why is it there ?
Why can't I sleep ?
Why won't it go ?
Why do I live ?

In this Everlasting Dream

Why won't it stop ?
Why am I sad ?
Why do I hurt ?
Why does this happen ?

Why can't I figure out
This Everlasting Dream

why can't they be forgotten
the bad times in my life

the thoughts, the sounds
of the times i hated

these things in my head
just keep racing

why are they there
why won't they go

is this my punishment
or
is this my crime

will this go away
in a matter of time

Love needs no validation
it is already approved

Wouldn't you know
My love had to go

Don't know why
But I saw her cry

Was it my lack affection
I thought material things made up for that

When she left all she said was
I just don't understand

I never cheated on her
I was always there

What does she want!

Years later we talked
She finally told me why

She said that I no longer

Talk to her like I use to
Look at her like I use to
Care for her like I use to
Hold her like I use to
Kiss her like I use to
Love her like I use to

I was left bewildered

Welcome to your life
There is no turn back

It my own desires
That helps me to decide

Indecision's are part of me
Which makes me feel stuck in life

Time passe and life goes on
Another cycle of life is evolving

I know nothing last forever
So I no longer count time

I can only be
Between the first and the last

There a two things that control your life

Your Will

and

Your Attitude

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, they called my name
And when you needed me, I came through

Paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew that you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday, walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sands, I remember you
And through the sleepless nights, through every endless day
I wanna hear you say, I remember you

We spent the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes never leads to nothing

Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around then it's taken away

Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

Come down don't you resist
You have such a delicate wrist

And if I give it a twist
Something to hold when I lose my grip

Will I find something in there
To give me just what I need

Another reason to bleed
One by one hidden up my sleeve


Hey don't let it go to waste
I love it but I hate the taste

Weight keeping me down
Will I find a believer

Another one who believes
Another one to deceive

Over and over down on my knees
If I get any closer

And if you open up wide
And if you let me inside

On and on I've got nothing to hide

PREACH
DRUG AWARENESS
TO OUR YOUTH

SO THEY WON'T KNOW
SADNESS

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:(
;(

SAY AS NANCY ONCE SAID
NO!!!!!!!

NO TO DRUGS
IT WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE
NO EXCEPTIONS

the walls that block you
the ties that bind you

the love you hate
the fears you have

the things you say
the times you'll pay

i hope you learn
but you don't listen

will you ever remember
remember the past

i'm not the almighty
nor do i care

you've blocked your thinking
and if you only swear

i keep looking back
for that greater power

i'm trying to find
his loving ways

don't keep running
you'll go no where

you need to find GOD
and maybe you'll go
SOMEWHERE

Times of joy
Times of happiness

Times of loneliness
Times of sadness

Times of gratitude
Times of thankfulness

Times of hurt
Times of pain

Times of winning
Times of giving

Times of losing
Times of crying

Times of love
Times of laughter

Times of death
Times of morning

Times in life
Can run short

mean old lady
why do you treat me this way

the games you play
the things you throw my way

your endless lies
your controlling ways

i say leave me alone
from your ****** up ways

the day is coming
and the price you will pay

arragence is pitiful
a losing pair

people going no where
and will learn dispair

never thinking of the future
their feelings inside
make them think their a ruler
with nothing to hide

the jokes on them
they know no trust
not ever knowing
a thing about life

i feel it's a shame
because it's not a game
there setting their path
and they will find their pain

Is your image lost
Have you kicked yourself to the curb
Given up

Losing your morals
Putting trust in others
To guide you

A lost behavior
A lost soul

Wandering aimlessly
Down a dark path
To nowhere

Seeking pain
But wanting hope

Searching for nothing
But wanting love

Making silent wishes
For a new life

My thoughts come to me in my dreams
To tired to wake up, to write them down

As I sit here awake, to gather my thoughts
Drifting through my everlasting thoughts

As I write I think and sometimes ponder
Why or why not, do I write these poems

Please to meet you
nice to know you

but somewhere in this world of time
i have lost my mind

someone please help me
to find my mind

is this the lesson
is this my punishment

is it a crime
to lose my mind

what is the answer
when will i find myself

will i find my mind
or
be lost all the time

conversations tell

stuttering
cold and gray

these lonely feelings
never go away

your lost love
from your tempting ways

my now solitude haze
why do you stay away

your shadow follows me
your tears i hide

how do i get around
in your abandonment

somewhere, somehow
i have to fight to be free

i don't know if i can face the night
when my tears are for you

i don't know what i'm going to do
with these feelings inside

of a life without you

you don't know me pretty baby
this does'nt seem what it is
i'm not looking for any anwers
what they should be, will never be
don't give me any answers
things aren't suppose to be
i want you pretty baby
what do you mean to me

any way the wind blows
all i want is to know
that if you would be mine
i'd  love you all the time
so please
be mine