Katlyn Orthman

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

They library was hushed
The faceless man
Across the table
Quite
He tells me
Stay silent
You wouldn't want your mommy to hear
Would you?
So naive
A child could be
I close the book
My attention caught by the closet
Small footsteps
Cautiously taken
Afraid to be caught
Palm on the door ****
I open it
Inside lies a beast
I'm petrified
Scared to blink
But the beast slumbers
On a burning photo
What are you doing!
The faceless man yells
And now I'm terrified
He's been awaken
The beast won't let me go
I've made him angry now
Only my screams echoing
Through the quite library
To keep me company

A reoccurring dream I've had since I was a child

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

If I could die

Falling from the sky
Like a bird ready to die
Hit in the wing
As heavens choir sings
Fluttering
A bit of life
To stroke my ridged heart
I'm falling
As reality crumbles
Through the hands of the creator
Pulling me through the vortex
Swirling
Twirling
It's dark
And I can feel me slipping
I'm not me
I'm not anyone
Just ...
Existing
Tell the last breath has been drawn
Then flung
Flung into an alternate universe
My being of before
Swept away
Born from what had been
And has been forgotten
If I could die
Burried beneath the earth
I would die
But my soul is immortal
A wound a simple wound
Fatal dose not exist
Fatality is not a factor
Simply erasing the chalk
On the board

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

Majestic lights

There in the sky was a flashing light
Majestic to the eye
It was a beautiful sight

Sailing across the moons aura
Dipping past the sun
It was a sight to be seen
Though it was seen by none

Not a soul but mine
Had seen the proof
Not a soul but mine
New the truth

Around Saturns ring
And into the stars *****
The light would sing
Into my ear

It was my secret to bare
It was my breath is save
It was under moonlights glare
That I'd take it to the grave

And to this day
I still don't know
That lights name
Or why it came

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

On top of towers

Built up from the ground
I was here
Planted the first seed
To the master piece
Tucked away my pride
And came out of hiding
To grasp the hands of the man
Who sat against the wall
Not one to beg
Only watching
With a blank face
I couldn't help but to take his hands in my own
And lead him to his savior
Fed him tell he was full
Bathed him until he was clean
Taught him until he knew
His eyes where wise and kind
Reminded me of mine
I was young
So young
They told me I was naive
To let in a man poor
Said that he would take all that I had
But I had little
And it could be replaced
I knew he would never
His eyes told me so
His smile so shy
He had been set in my path
An angel for me to nurture
Because I woke in the morning
And he was gone
All that had been left
Was a crisp white feather
And a note that told me
He'd returned to his tower
Where he stood a top
To feel the winds power
I was not bitter
I had given all I had
For one that had less
And in return I had an angels eye
To watch over me

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

Let me forget you...

It was under the warmth of the sun
That the first tear fell
It was the beginning of "done"
And the opening of my hell

You had broken my soft trusting heart
Crashed into my wall
You pulled me apart
And made me fall

I want to forget your eyes
That haunt me now
I want to forget the lies
But I don't know how

After every chance I gave
You wasted each one
After each path I paved
You hit me where it stung

And now I'm crying to myself
Because you called again
It's not good for my health
You aren't now, you weren't then

I wipe your face from my dreams
I want to escape
It's harder than it seems
It's like your on tape

Replayed in my head
And when I tried to press rewind
I pressed play instead

Won't you just let me forget you?
Your tearing me down
I'm pushing through
This unbearable crowd

Watching me sail across the sea
Sinking into the waves
Watching the sky fall on me
As my world caves

You won't think to reach in
I can see your back as you walk away
It's this breaking with In
That told me you'd never stay

Pushed farther beneath the current
I'm fencing with the shards of my heart
This times different
I was broken from the start

Just let me forget you
I'm better off that way
If I do
And you don't stay

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

A wingless bird, that can fly

My heart trembles
As I stand above the air
Floating
Soaring
No words to describe the impossible
The sun in my reach
The moon lays hidden
But I can feel it
A wingless bird
Flying higher than the rest
My dreams in pursuit
So close to my fingertips
So tangible
I'm breathing in the possible
That line that had been drawn
Was being crossed
All my hope regained
That had been lost
Encircled in the clouds
Smelled of opportunity

Katlyn Orthman Nov 2012

Cliff diving in hell

Poisoned by the thoughts
Dark and cold
All the things I'm not
All the things I'm told
To be
To see
It's as though the room is spinning
And the devils laughing at me
The darkness is winning
Sickening my mind
I used to be alive
I used to be kind
Until I fell pray to the voices
Telling me to fall
Gave me no choice
I made the final call
Standing at the top of the cliff
Looking down
I can feel the storm
The wind once cold
Was now warm
Like arms pulling me from the edge
It was to late
I was already dead
The ocean air pulled me down
The trip was long
I could feel the arms all around
I knew this was wrong