Glaring vacantly into the ceiling, I am wondering what's true,
I need to stop reliving my past to settle a life without you.

It's not easy to forget all and take a new start,
With all those memories I planted in the soil of my heart.

I had painted a whole life with you under my eyelid,
And it's just as if I am leaving a storybook in the mid.

You have become another shard in my brain that aches me,
I was a blind fool misled by your simpler of gestures but now I can see.

We are all lonely in this world.
I think we just need someone
to walk by our side.
The catch is that that someone
needs to stay there.
**Forever.

I told myself when I write
everything I do will somehow be unique
but I've started 20 poems off this way
and ended them 20 different ways.
I would throw my sanity out the window
for just some peace of mind
and a mind you wouldn't mind
reading on top of mountains
and in front of millions.
But my sanity is what is needed most-
so take my hands and tie them to a typewriter
because this is my sanity
and a piece of my mind.

I have a way with words
and I have grown accustomed
to clinging onto metaphors
and reading way too into your lips
because they tell me things
your mouth does not have the guts to confess.
In my world, words are a blessing and a curse
and I've spent so long biting my tongue
that i'm not sure I even have one left.
So I apologize if my words are like swords
and pierce your heart like a fatal blow to the chest
But I am trying my best.

Years have been spent
hiding how I feel
So I promised myself
I wouldn't hide in dark corners
or cover my mouth with regret
I would speak with my truth
in a tone that only genuine ears
could comprehend.
So I let the words pour out my lips
unaltered and honest.
and I'm not sure if that is satisfying,
or my biggest regret.

click click i'm pressing a button
a button that has no meaning
i am making some words
but the words not following
the words become a sentence
but the sentence tells nothing
maybe this is a feeling
something i cannot tell
or show
or give
its just a feeling
that will eventually die
of old age
and abandonment
click click i want this button to work
but there is no result
there is only wasted space
and empty intervals
line breaks
ends here
now
then never
give me a word to make sense
give me three words to end this
to
end
this

"I wish you well."
                                                          ­                    



                                         ­                                     (but not too well without me)

Butterflies and pills
Broken window sills
You left me here
With the wind
If I jump
Is it a sin?