I hear the echo of your call
My name in hidden depths
I breathe it in but don't reply
Sea of whispers on the wind

I'll lay down with a peppermint tea get all warm and cosy
time for me
Rest tonight to wake up and put a smile on my face

I appreciate good friends
I appreciate authentic people
I appreciate the good authentic connections in life

I am far from


























Perfect

Open your eyes
Do you see the lies
That live in matrix ties
Do you see the mass manipulation that affects the 3D station
Do you see behind the curtain
So much more it is certain
Do you see the truth to feeling thoughts and vibration
And do you see how your caring media don't have best intentions for the nation
Turn over the station
Let's live in truth happiness joy and love  
Draw wide the curtain
And let the chaos
leave

I thought of you
Even when I shouldn't
I couldn't stop
Even though I should
I knew you would hold me more tenderly
Make me love
- To feel good

Red river flows
from the
bones of the marrow
Transporting of nourishment
to the
cell
Army of the white defenders keeping out bodies that could take over subject an internal hell
If we bleed
we will stand together
as a hardened pack
No further spill of blood
once barricade invaded patch
Keep out the intruders
Protect our quarters
Hold strong
and steady
Remember what it brought us
In blood and memories

Lest we forget

The masks
The persona
Hidden in plain sight
They will come off



And the truth will be revealed

Each conversation reflects a part of me
A healing trigger an insecurity a vulnerability an adaptability
A lesson for us
For them
For me
A universe
A game of reverie
The space
The words
The moment
The movement
The inbetween
The projection
The projector
The screen
Insight
A dream
Nightmare
To scream
Shedding light and dark is bright
To view us as we've been
What we've held
What we've seen
The pages turning are deafening
When will it end..
A happily ever after

What's inside
I'm dying to find out
Oh what a surprise
Will it be full of joy or something to scream about
What does it conceal
Truths left to reveal
Secrets hidden out of sight
All packaged in a box so bright
Gift tag has no name
Feel it's for me all the same
Do I hold and ponder
Or uncover the unknown wonder
I'll keep it a little longer
It strengthens prolongs the hunger
I'll know when the time is right

Love is all we need
However love was all I needed and wanted
Still do
It's just my heart has a dull shade around it now
I can see the light in others and I can love them but I can't seem to feel love as strongly as I once did
Once my heart was left and broken by him
It became a kind of dim
Not sure if I'm ment to be loveless or love only as a friendship sense as a I see me in you and you in me never harm another
Not sure if all the love I try to give away is now devoted to him or for the Father and the Mother
Keep some for myself I know that
Just feel set at a distance to feel this flat
Perhaps it's the non attachment which can hold so much suffering severed me from the pain
But the numbness scars me too
Will mutual earthbound love ever feel completely true
Can't seem to fully commit
Even these thoughts are of the past
This poem too seems to lose its grip
A voice in my head says
'This too shall pass'
'Don't hold on
'Let go......

Wish I could speak of
Everything I've felt
Everything I've seen
The night
The light
The inbetween
The trials
Tribulations
Revelations
Paths plight
The journey
Going
deeper
Secrets
Dark soul fight
Dreams
Passions
Lessons of life
Symbolism
Synchronicity
Love
Illusions
Heartbreak
Isolation
Strife
Visions
Energies
Insights
Inter-connection
Outer world - inner mind
Our Lord Christ
Duality
Paradox
Destruction
Creator
Source of high
Health
Mental lows
Cosmic wonders
Cause and effect
As above
so below
Meditation
Attachment
Letting go..
Joy
Bliss
Happy state
Seeking
Searching
So much more
to know...
More
to
face

He told me my opinions mean **** all to him
I said
Ok

Dark night
Give off your strongest light
Beacon    of        hope
from
Ray's       inside

Nothing is constant
in this life
except for change
and
everything is
impermanent
the only moment is now
but even as you read these lines
the moment has
                                        passed

Icy cold air breaking through the trees
Kettle whistling on boiling degrees
Fire snapping kindling debris
The hollow of the chimney

space

for all

to

breathe

I cried today
I let the floods fall out down my face
I felt no disgrace
The fear had been there year after year
I don't remember it not
The times of not most high intent
I don't know what truth and trust really meant
The always on alert
Watching
Observing
Being a version of myself that at times felt uncomfortable to be
I cried and I accepted it
Completely

Worm on the sidewalk
You move slowly across the path knowing you can get stepped or trod on at any moment
But still you cross
Even if you are cut in half
you still move

She walked into the sunshine garden expecting to feel the bliss she had first known from the moment she arrived
She had walked this way before felt an ecstasy like no other
The garden had dried grass brittle
The rain came
She was soaked cold and felt alone
Where was her golden glow now
She sat for some time as tears fell with the downpour
The hurt magnified
Guilt and punishment weighted at her side
Am I abandoned
No, I'm still the same in the rain
And then she grew
Settled with the weeping dew

Black mass
you hover above me
Circling the room
No noise No sound
No quick zoom
You just move

And I
observe

Bit
by
bit
possessions
going
in
the
bin
The rest will go in a tip
We have nothing to keep
Toxic site has spread deep
Hoping for healthier life and home
To
build upon

Changing consciousness
Altered state
Rewiring the pathways
Put in place
Connecting networks
Sparks create
Cosmic wonders do await

Hush now
Authentic voice
Blurting out <<
There is a time and place for that
Oops!
Did
that
just
escape
from
my
mouth??
And in a professional place too!
Gonna have to keep a good eye on you
At least til your surroundings are mindfully viewed

Crumbled burning yearning hurting inside
Folding in two
See the feelings devastate
Nothing left of you
Not tonight

You know you've been through this before
You can handle this
Not tonight
But soon
You will see it right

See it through once more

My eyes look to the stars
My soul basks in the sun
My spirit tunes in nature
My love returns more fully to thy own heart
I send it out
Though I feel a need to release
the
pettiness
of the world

Do I know my worth

Not completely no

Been running around with the projections getting myself in a spin

If I'm honest at times self sabotaging

The world became the playground from within

It wasn't the ground I would prefer to be playing in

I held back

Saw a lot of lack

Aligned with the mirrors of lest and jest

Can't blame the outside it just became a part of me

So the loving has to go on inside

internally

I get my karma like I drink my tea
Pretty ******* quickly


L
e
s
s
o
n
s

Pour
In

I'm drawing out my anxiety purposely
I'm feeling and being with it
I may transcend it or make peace with it
It is what it is

Love is the future
The children shall grow strong
Be healthy naturally in mind body and soul
The earth will be in harmony to the tune of love
The world will know peace
And we will live with joy smiling to each day
Knowing we are safe
Feeling free
Knowing own power to naturally heal selves
Food fresher and healthy
Gardens a plenty
Respect for one another and nature
Loved in our happy lives
And so it is!

You can see all around you
You can see where you have been
You can see below to the ground
underneath and
                  inbetween
but you can't see where you are going
and that can feel scary  
isolating
and unforseen

Lay my head
Eye to see
When world is shut to me
Looking down upon my crown
What wonders we must dream

That's ok
You were never gonna understand anyway
You were never gonna hear my words
Cause you never read them properly

That's ok
You see as you do
I'm easy and free for you
But you don't even see me correctly
Do you??

That's ok
You scorn as you will
I can see the mirror
Maybe you should turn it around and hold it still

That's ok
I'ts all paper thin
Though you are not aware of the thought words heart soul that's gone in
You are very much mistaken

That's ok. .

I'm done
explaining

I never could conform
Be the norm
Now my beat makes a rhythm out of time
I want to dance to it
While others flow with theirs
Each stepping out to glide and spin to the flamboyant dance of life

A drop in your hand
A grain of golden sand
A lake of visions plenty
A source of love connected
A breath of Gaia's fresh air
A whisper on the winds
A bird's beautiful sing
These earthy things
Are right before us

Wring it
out
The sponge has absorbed the grit and the splashes from the
sink
Squeeze it
tight
And

release

I do not idolize God or Jesus for that matter
Creation and destruction a part of existence
My chained cross I wore around my neck
Snapped as I danced with spirit
I may place another around my neck but not as of yet
If I so choose to
I have felt no need to look outside
For creation and destruction lives and dies as the air I breathe
Expansion
Contraction
Hope
Grief
We all live this part
No reprieve

No one to look up to
Only
to be

I'm making some changes
Connection to nature and me
Less additives
More home grown
Organically

Still
falling
I let the waves carry me
             Under your waves                
I succumb

To my poetry friends
You are beautiful souls
Your heart can be heavy and with your lines you steal the show
You love with all you've got and you'll give all even if it's not a lot
You'll share each moment you hold precious
You will express emotional terrors
You will heal by your own words and you will heal others worlds
A family apart but near
A smile of heart or a grief sodden tear
Dripping
on
the
page

What are you grateful for today
What can you say you truly appreciate
Who can you say you love dearly
What do you want to see in this moment clearly
Imagine your future now
Imagine those connections you want to embrace
Feel the love in the heart and send it out to the human race
🌸💖💚🙏🌼🌸✨

Lips tremble
with the cold and fear
Dusk has set such comfort
Shadows are at play at night
Your daylight breaks all can be seen with the charging of the light
Warmth surrounds holding me tight
Feel I've built up an appetite though deep in fright
Eyes adjust to the blossoming hue
Heat begins to rise
You colour the world now my lips are warm
Let me feel the dawn inside

I don't like when others try to control
I've tried to control that

I ate a bunion the other day
It was basically a bap with onion

The man with nothing
Still
says God Bless