It's goes way beyond the physical
Intimacy connects deeply
Heart
Mind
Spirit
Body
A touch is felt on all levels
An exchange of energy
Sharing isn't just about what you first see
It penetrates your core
Emotion is a heavy door
I don't pass anyone the
key

I am here to hold up
the mirror to your face
Looking deep into its reflected plate
Recovering the beauty of your soul





You are radiant
You glow

I was just told how weird I was then I bought some crystals
I can't wait for my new wand
Yipeee!!!

Break the cookie
Pieces fall to crumbs
Eat them all up
Every last one
Did you enjoy
Are you full
Taste was sweet but salty
You can't have more of the same one
The whole has now been
Eaten away
it's
gone

Atmosphere covered by
Web of lies
Perpetrators covering over vast skies
Blinding masses and bleeding seeking eyes

My lip bleeds and I taste myself

Starting to feel so uncomfortable in my own skin
I could rip it off
But I won't
Guess I'll just have to learn to sit
           uncomfortably

Serpent Goddess
Wild and free
Wants you to be all you can be
Achieve all you can dream
Not just be the icing be the cream
Cutting away the crumbs you have let yourself eat
Though knowing those crumbs have at times been your main meal
Setting a match to which you have deemed real
A light shone onto your illusions ideal
The burn can scorch and it may hurt as you feel
These pains are gains so you can heal
The rope has been burning for some time
The serpent love kindles to climb

Quiet mind
Closed eyes
Look at me
with
one wide eye
Orange glow which surrounds
Triangle perimeter
outer bounds
Observing all from high ground
Meditate on what is found

In so much pain
With monthly period strain
Cramps so strong shaking hot and cold
Body trembles
Dizzy
I fumble to take the pills that numb and crumble
My body I want healthy though the agony intense
Tried breathing through it
Helped in some sense
The strength is strong and I struggle to prolong easing defence
So I take the over counter tablets
I don't give myself too much penance
However like change of offence
Not saying it will work with flow
This time I held on and drank slow
Sips of peppermint
Did soothe and improve
I tried it again
And again it worked
Womb an feels content

Anxiety stay away from me
You are my shield and my enemy
I hide behind you and I fight with you
Please let me be

The thoughts
that blacken the day
Strike like a punch
Bruise and lump
Sticking out like a sore thumb
Taking on the fears you become
Insecurities run rampart
Throbbing in the heart
Tearing love apart
Kicking up the dirt
You feel
It stabs
It hurts
You cry
You numb
You succumb
Purging the night sky
In the corner of your eye you see a star shine Bright

Phenomenal woman was she
She never bowed down to brutality
Gave all her worth
Worth was she
Keeping strong
Flying over adversity
Never fading
Embracing Divine Femininity
She met with battles
But she wore her scars like a suit of armour reflecting stars
Intact her kindness compassion and love
A spirit of a Woman
Eternal dove
Giving inspiration to those who've fallen to keep on rising
Hoping singing their bird song to the air and to the sun

In human
The pain comes through more than the peace
In spirit
The peace comes through
more than
the
pain

Although crazy and wild
I sometimes feel
My dreams are more real
than my waking world

But how will I know when it is real
When you and I
Are the only
one
We
long
to  
feel

Sometimes along the way
There are people who have beautiful hearts and words to say
They keep a little hope for you
Lighten dark days too
They are the few that will never leave
Etch memories
into your
heart

If I were
To slit my wrists
The only person it would hurt
is me

What you put out
You get back

Be it a
soft

loving
kiss

Or a

Hard Full On
Smack!!

Take the moment to ease the day
To yourself let time erase
Go to quieter place
Be now
but
let self
drift away..........................

Ashes stoked
Dusty cloak
Within the grains a fire chokes
Smoke covered hearth
Coal is lit
Heating embers in my chest
Built from ash
Build upon it

He is beautiful inside and out
I would like us to be beautiful together

Keep feelings tight
As the winds howl loud and swift
Drifting in bottled skin
Hear the hollow screech sound from within
Breathe it in_
Sink..
And lift!

I want to love
like I once felt love
              But something
stops me
in my
tracks.  
Is it
       pride
fear
uncertainty
         wisdom
Am I just too wise to let myself
            fall
and
          plummet
like a train
                            derailed
                               coming off course
Know too much now
I can love
but not like before
My heart beats steady
              without the applause
Am I too scared to set off from the station
                               Standing      
too far back          
                 from loco
motives
           moving
doors

Went into meditative state arms at side legs stretched out
Awoke to arms
across chest
and stomach
embracing self
wrapped
around

**** Conformity!

Or should you be making love to it?

The beginning

Sempiternal silence it sits beneath the words

The actions of the day

The thoughts left unheard

Peace and quiet

Rest within

I love you as he drove away

I don't see a future with you to stay

No words as actions tore apart

Lines of lies flying out of mouth only filling up with insecurity and doubt

I'll see you soon

This    heart
feels too much
it tries to release
through the

tears

The mud crumbling as each step imprint upon its land
Turning round to see where it falls
As long as it doesn't hit anyone else on the way down
Though I'm sure another will reach that height
Meeting themselves on the way
Feeling then viewing the same pain
Wondering is this the right pave
Can I just stay
Rest awhile
Or do I deceive myself with over-staying or even grasping up
What is left
Behind
What do we gain
Insight
Each other reflects through thine own eyes

You can
see
The land and sea
The
earth
from his eyes

Roots
connected
in
the
earth
Branches want to touch
For now all they can do is
reach
out
Keep
stretching
and growing
to
meet
with love

Views you should be like this or like that
Maybe you should be like you
Dress for your own company
But will they take me seriously
Or place projections on me
I'm sure some will
They do

Wild or highbush
Connect to thee
Indigo berry
Yes I see
Taste
Fully

Balance

Between

Crop
from the top
Cultivating down
In from the cold air
Spiraling around
to ground
Roots to
Mothers earth
Winters wreath to Springs rebirth

In each eye you look into
If you can not see you and your love staring back
It's not outwards you should be seeking

Magic came
from the seeds
that grew from mud and dirt
Magic came from
humble beginnings
vulnerability
dark layering
girth
Magic came from the power to grow
and give
birth
Magic cast its spell in motion to be the potion of skies
insert
Nature's sun
flower
on
lands
green earth

Love me in my darkness
Love me in my light
When shadows tight surround me
In fear
In love
In fight
Take me with my visions
My crazy crass insight
Love me in the morning
Don't let go for the night

How many times did you **** yourself
How many times did you let yourself die  
Did you bury it all deep just trying to get by

I can not let go of you
Cause you are always in my heart

Take the drink
Sip it down
It sinks to
my
stomach
Turns the world upside
down
Sloshing
         around
Spinning      
              Churning              
Hydrat­ing within    
Letting out
with
Clearer softer smoother skin

Pushing
Onto
The fragments
Of your
Soul

Agitation hits hard today and it doesn't want to go away
I feel ill and can't sit still
Frustrated by myself
I don't even want to write
It's fading

out



of






sight

When the world seems cruel and the hurt builds up inside
I may release with a cry
Over time have learnt to understand what emotions can arise
Why does it trigger
Why do they aim the gun
Once the smoke clears I see the anger resentment in it's hold of pain and fear
In the end I hope nothing bad said to the ear will negatively impact the life in the moment or that year

I love you so much
I get so scared
I push you away to save you walking away
I want you to stay but I worry you don't
So I look at everything that says that truth but mostly it's the part of me inside that's scared of your rejection
As from many others before did prove
How long can I keep pushing until you leave and I'm left standing there wondering what happened
Can I change this all around and begin now
Change comes from within
So this is my beginning of a hopefully better new start
I hope you'll come along with me

Taking each and every last breath
and
not knowing
when
you
can

Breathe



again