Shell outside
Hard
sometimes
         rough
Firm to touch
Inside nature
Feeling heart
Sheltered
Covered by dark
Outside creeps
to
shine its spark
Pecked by the disconcerting hen

He says I'm judgemental
He's right
At this time

Telepathy
It's all
in
my
head
He said

World turns around
Hanging upside down
Chaos fills my brain
Dancing in the rain
What is madness
Which is sane
Do you have a right to complain
A need to settle back again
To hold but not restrain
Touching ground
from whence it came
Fingers
          weaving
earthly  
           cane
Roots sturdy shooting vein

I don't want you on top of me
or underneath (well not today)
I want you alongside me
To hold my hand in yours
where it fits so perfectly

So many years of trying to heal from life
Will I ever really live without the pain

Let them
fill the eyes
Let them roll
down
the cheeks
In
emotion
we          
speak

Eyes open
to                 dark
the

Too many people self loathing
Yes it's true it's something most will do
But stop it please
It's time to realise
You're so very beautiful :-)

Just because romantic love never worked out
Doesn't mean it cannot be
A friendship love between you and me

Moving with the beat
Smiles galore
You make me dance inside
Who could not adore

Each dream
Each night
So much going on behind eyes sight
At the brow
Eyes closed
Information flooding in
Tween sleep and awakening
Consciously aware
As shapes cascade from here to there
Transparency to the skin
Though structure clearly seen
Triangles
Squares
Circles
Hexagonal
Not flat in form
Life to the structures
A sense of crystalline
knowing
Bathing beneath the rim
Although not really sure of what I'm seeing
Or indeed to feel
As of now
As of yet

It's just
out
of
reach

Cause it's already
done

Deeply to feel seems to be a lover of real
The beauty of love feeds the heart
Nature is not only nurture but glorious penetrative art
Though the beauty is keen so is the disgust
Sorrow is not only seen but felt it rips the soul apart
Love but love deep
Hurt if you feel but learn to know your worst
The devils tongue is sharp and the angels harp weeps
Touch for only true
Hear the blessing in the curse
Broken hearts can surely beat as two

I didn't see anything but his beauty


Despite what he saw in himself

Going through the motions
Working through emotions
Healing as you go
Finding out inside, the love you kept away
Bringing it to open, to shine in light of day

Years have seen these tears grieve
For a little reprieve
Love came to me and parts of all that's seen
Washing myself clean pouring fresh opportunity
Cleansing away negativity in flowing streams
Arms curl to hold comfortably
Kiss the skin on bended knee
Resting in my arms

Filled up with hate
Grip hair tight by nape
No longer punch self in face
Sun heats skin back of eyelids
Staring straight into the sun
Once you get past the blaze
flashing coloured haze
  black spot on the
whole

Took myself outside today
Past the comfort zone
Down the street to supermarket
A place I don't normally roam alone
Did it bit by bit went in on own
Friend met me there
Ok it sounds lame
But I have social anxiety
So don't care! (Well I do!..)

Why did I buy the duct tape squirty cream and french soup?
French soup??

Black branches against a sunny sky
Gothic beauty
Dew
drop
glisten
of the eye

Warm air touches skin
Permeating bodies bridge
Gentle breeze softens heat
The air is relaxed and cooled

Leprechaun where was your *** of gold when genocide was inflicted on your tribe
It was always inside
You knew the nature
They tried to hide
To ****
Enslave
Cast aside
In truth in fear of your spiritual power

I have this way of putting barriers up
It's me but a little more pumped
Yes I can get excited I don't fight it
It's fun
Though I can hold my softer side hostage with a gun
Forcing it into a corner
In case the glass breaks and they run
You see I've let this sweet sensitive nature fly
It's been smacked down in the face causing it to hide
I'd like to let it out from time to time
I'd like to let it smell the roses from this fragrant garden of mine
Safely landing the butterfly

I've acted from both fear and love
             I see where they link and overlap

Although full of love and occupied
The room sits
empty
and
alone

His eyes so mesmerizing
Other worlds did see
Planes of beauty
Oceans
of mystery

Kept within his vault

Unless he found someone
of which, to share
his key

I believe in manifestation
Though I'm not sure what I want
Do I really need anything
The bad can come to me so much easier
The wall was built.
The high blades of grass can be seen
Do I deserve to jump in
The blocks could be placed as steps or obstacles
I placed in a foot
I perch on the wall

The dreams of fear are here again
Rest and release make compatible friends
Below the surface rises pain
Wake up to find on mind and brain
In these dreams Hell breaks loose
Cut the cord
Untie the noose
Once you see the pressing dread
hold is lighter
You see my Dear Friend...
.....I'm a Hell' of a Fighter!

Leave the boys play
It's now time for Warriors and Gods

Turning vices into nices
Tapping into hurt and pain
To gain
Deploy
Sweet

Heart was felt as heavy
That baggage carries the weight
Like to lighten the load
Be more compassionate
Forgiving
Living
Loving again

Saints and sinners
Born to sin
One ends
as
One begins
If honoured to die as Saint
Live life in hell along the way

No other can come too close
Unless they writhe with serpent host
Or willing to die over and over again
It could **** you

Lucy's eyes flew up to the skies
She saw the world in a bubble
She set her sights on the moon she knew too much too soon
And the sun was her lover

In her mind she could find new revelations to discover
She would look off the hook and
nothing
would even bother her

Lucy's eyes flew up to the skies

The world breathed a bubble

Best life for self and humanity
Living in joy and love
Happy
Free
Abundance of the positivity :)

What do we have in common
A desire for connection
Acceptance
Of self
Or each other
A sense of purpose
A safe happy contented home
A place to be at peace and harmony
In love
In mind body and soul

I hope by wanting to be more positive
I'm not being a fool to myself

I'm
selfish
So

The doubts are creeping in
I think they are trying to look out for me
I'll watch them for a bit
and
let them rest

We are complex creatures wrapped in layers of tissue
Our blood stained heart paints our world
Does it bring us life or pain
Do we flood in water or dance in rain
Does the sunshine highlight our refrain or does it let us blossom to the spirits of our gain
Our eyes capture the beauty or misery of the developing film being played
We can choose to sit back and regain our composition or be brought into the drama again and again
With time not mechanical
We will learn
The love The turning inside our hearts
We are everything and yet nothing
From subconscious the conscious
parts

Tree over river
Reflections
to
me
Watch
as branches sway

I long for the day my heart is in peace and not in pieces
I want it to heal and not feel
in pain