Visions dance
Romance
Take the floor
As soon as they've waltzed in
spin around
audience view in awe
they step out
leave for the door

I will heal
From every bone
From every single ache
But first I must ache

I make my own bed everyday
But still I lie in it just to wake up
To rest
To heal
To feel
To dream
To wash the nightmares away

I was thinking about anger management
But I just told it to
*******!!

Some nights spirit in flight
Some nights fighting for the light
It all depends
Which energy beckons

I  always  

kiss
them

   Goodnight

They guide me
further
into
the
unknown
They sew me
deeper
into
the
fabric
of the universe

These layers they leach onto my skin
Who put them there to begin
Now one by one I have to shed them
Prise them off
Sometimes with care
Sometimes ripping rough
They have fattened fed from my blood
Do I starve them or send them love
They were a part of me after all
Creatures great and small

Thoughts sift through dark corridors
Doors lead off to varied spots
Each place holds a different atmosphere
Some of warmth love darkness or fear
They have to all be different can't all be the same
You can however navigate to where you want to play

I look to you
You look to me
We look to one another
Recognition of ourselves
We live within each other

Are we manipulated
Or
do we just play ourselves

We left them there to smolder
Intoxicating scent filling up lungs
Breathing you in to my existence
A chasm baking between bones
Heating up flames to rise higher
To melt into the sky
Memories in the ashes
to burn out . .
but
never
die

In these aching times where so much feels unfine  
There is a little hope in the air'  
Thinking to shared memories and moments of warmth
to cherish
Friends who have met your smile with another
Love to dance between energies from family
Soul sister and brother
When treasure needs a little digging to be uncovered
Let's remind of time we found springs of laughter to rejoice in
the abundance
Flowing
source
to
well up
with delight!

As a child I asked my mum
Are we really lying in a coffin dead living this life in our heads
She said no
I said how'd you know
She said as she pinched my arm - If we were you wouldn't feel that  
I felt alive
for some time

The dark room makes way for the light
Sparkles flicker in the night
Smoky hue of black crawl through
Mouths wide silent scream from inside
Souls trapped in a cove
And still
the light flickers

The clearings covering
The trees aim high
Branches and clouds mask the sky
Going deeper and deeper in the pine wood
Dark in the shadows lost easily could
Eyes must learn to adjust
Heart will guide as only love should
Mind tells you fears built on trodden tiers
Mud up to the tread heavy boots tired head
Wandering
Are you going back on yourself
Plodding on with a crows song
Hoping the clouds clear
Growing so ever near

As eyes wake
The day soon as want to shake
Feeling low just want to hibernate or meditate
Not finding the pleasure in the things I use to

I don't deserve to be picked on anymore
I don't deserve the bullying from another
You try to help others but some just use it as a small minded game
I know we can be a part in form of another but right now it doesn't feel the same

My lovely friend was back in work today from her holiday
It has been her birthday yesterday
I brought some cake in
Rose icing
Sponge slicing
We had a jolly day
Sweet smiles on face
Missed her presence in the workplace
Once jobs were finished, we had our cake and ate it :)

Love died
Love turned away
The only way to bring it back
Was to turn it around to me

Set in stone chiseling away
make a ring for eternity
Everlasting love here to stay
Continuous flow....
...from hand...
....to heart

<3

Melodies tune to the sound of strings
Dante base and Heavens wings
Dancing naked as you play to me
Fire of hips with eyes of sea
Fan the flames
Ill dive
to
thee

Little girl in a dream she's frightened of her chaotic scene
On the edge up so high she can feel the fret already rushing by
Imagine that
She doesn't want to be so close to the ledge no more
She wants to let go
She does
Slides down the angled bus
Wakes up still scared
Dripping with sweat
Camera cartoon images projecting
Burying head in the covers
Gets up
Freshens up
Writes above passage
Thinks about love
Posts the words hopes it's enough
Lays back down her head
Tries again to rest

Been in bed for days
Depression has me slipping in and out of sleep
The mind just plays on
like an over played song
I fall away and dive within
Record doesn't stop spinning
Is there an on off switch

Bats of light
Fairies bright
Vampires bite
Ghouls of all souls night
Demons to the right
Angels dancing fight
Gargoyles guardians in clear sight
Dragons fire breathing plight
Spirits taking flight
Awaken to cucullas fright
Seeds of insight
Unknown gripping tight
Voices playing
out of mind

Eye opens wide

Pools of my wild imagination
Or is it merely frustration

Guess

You'll never know..
..Or will you!

Told myself not to
But cannot help what the heart feels to be
It beats for you
It
loves
you
Sorry but what
can
I
do

My dreams tend to be set to a theme of past emotions and pain
Maybe one day get to live with
warm loving
dreams

Real love leaves you in vulnerability
Cuts you to the bone
Shatters your existence
Crying on your own
It brings in a wound
A deep hollow weeping wide
A place you have to look into
A place you can no longer hide
Inner love your eternal bride
Hope it gets better next time

There's an underlining
hopelessness
I want to drown
out

Center with your Energy
Day and Night
Attune in Harmony

When you shine a light on the darkness you see it all becomes
  clear
Our layers
Conditioning
Thoughts
Beliefs
Behaviors
Actions
Fears

The past always tries to pull us back
Not to say we may not have to look
Though it reads over and over again and writes our present
book
The future is not certain
We can hold faith in this moment
&
rest in Divine love
+

He told me I was brave at a time I had to be brave
He said be positive and put a smile on my face
He told me I was beautiful I had to believe
He gave me hope I had to be open to receive

It's amazing all the hurtful words
we have wrote to ourselves
Once you've read them
Know how they felt  
Heal and transmute
Scrunch up the paper
Slam dunk them in the bin
Bit by bit
Peace by piece we can win
Feel whole again

I showed myself love
From all the ways I died

I'm at a vulnerable place in my life
But I know I have to be
To break out from the past that held me back
The wearing ways now out of date
The fire of hoops made to jump through
Seem nothing but a play thing now
However never want to go back down to that

Pain will always be
               my consistent torch
                          It lights the pave
                                   Shows others a way
                                                Burns me to my bones

Still judged by the lack of career path
Was never one for money
Just love and a family
Times shifted
Things fell apart
Find myself wedged between heart and heavy starts
Spiritual growth is seen as less than a job
Not viewed from these eyes
A life's time dedication and commitment
Much more than a job or any wealth
Working hard finding self
Though success and value measured in the paying rent
If I dream, in sense
can struggle each day
Stack the shelves
Borderline pay
Not a life
Sounds like living hell
Perhaps not so dissimilar to the hell you've already felt
Praying as you knelt

I use to sneak down as a kid
My body could walk even if I was sleeping
Safe to take myself back to bed

As a baby vivid memory
Could not escape my crib
Morning came awake in the middle of them
Care givers ether side

Later memory
Unable to rest
A window display
Goldfish swim in the invisible water
The flow makes my lids heavy and low
Relaxing to the night
Swimming into peace

Even now if in a place of disharmony
When eyes stream and dreams feel out of reach
A hand holds out for me
Feeling the fingers lace my own
A warm comfort even in agony
The softness caresses skin and bone
Love is home

Y
an
open
letter
U
know
Y
It's heels face out from the ground
   Palms  
  to
   the     sky

Sick of others making me feel like I'm ****
So I'm not feeling it anymore

I think I am in love
I've tried to help it
I feel foolish at times
I've never met him
Not yet anyway

Fortune told
Three rings unfold
Marriage of faith

Air the love from heaven above
down
to
earth's ground
Somewhere in the middle meet
Where angels dance
with hearts a beat'
encased with euphoric
soft
sound

It's like the stars have gone out

Tired now
Feel like I'm floating on a cloud
Bobbing up and down
Energy pulsating between flesh and bones
I could sleep more but I won't
Just lie here a little while longer as I write and watch the light and shadows of the skies drifting allure

I've done it all to my self so many times
I hurt my self
How many times do I have to come to realise
I want to let it go
I want to treat my self with these kinder eyes
Hold my self in love