She's at it again
Going off like a shot
While he's burning bridges
Losing the plot
Fuses and fireworks
Setting them off!
Time for another gin
Let's fill up a trough!!

Come
into
my
waves
I'll show you infinity
through
my eyes

Fears hold hostage
Confined *******

Sometimes the pain is so strong
You need nothing

To go on

Hands on
Warm glow
Head resting on comfy pillow
Blanket sweet
Crystals neat
Vibration sensation at my feet
Thoughts coming up
Feel want more to let go
Touch to the feet spiral of rainbow fly up to greet
Sticks of a cross with white lights all aglow
Sun shining through from the window
Water after energy flow
Talking to a friend you feel you know
Tears of release
Flush of relief
Voice says keep letting go
Be here now

My tribe are the family I've made my own
They are the ones that have been by my side
In the lowest of times
In the stormiest of tides
Not many I've let in or many that see me right
But true to words they love and care
Thicker than blood
- A pact we'll share

This love it makes you love hard
It loves through the pain and the tears you have cried
It pulls so deep fermenting inside
It lives through it all
It loves unconditional
Doesn't matter what's said and done at all
It grows with the fall
So understand it may hurt but hold on be strong as you can
Cause God and the Universe
are hatching a master of a plan

The middle road
Walking the line
Losing the balance on the bends
The one side has its past place
The other a shimmering glaze
Though I've been told not all that glitters is gold
So I walk the middle line and try to see in both directions
Though the movement is slow
I walk and crawl as I go
I hope I still grow
As I work my way
to each cross road
I carry on with my
bread crumbs load

Between sleep and dreams
All is not as it seems
Your eyes have awoken from sleeping state
though your mind rests in an altered place
Peeking through the veil of human sight
At first the apparitions can be dark as night
Luring over you with intense imagery to fright
As your thoughts evolve and your fears subside
Perception changes and views more of the light
Shapes and pattern come to life
Flashes illuminate
Words write
People appear
Orbs form dance and disappear
Messages connect deep inside
Other realms from closed mind hide
All is not as it seems
Between
sleep
and .....
dreams

When my twin flame left I had to go inside and learn to love myself through the pain of what was, what has been, and what was perhaps to come
I learnt to forgive
When my soulmates left
I learnt to dig deeper into my soul

Spill your guts out on the floor
Grind and writhe til you can't take anymore
Feel it fill you up in horror
Darkness invades be no tomorrow
Let it spew
Let it
      slide
It builds and sticks
to
insides
Hurting, it is too much
It's your medicine
Can't you taste the punch
Now swallow hard and replace
with
love
You're healing
It's in your blood

The radiators been leaking all day
Buckets filled
Emptied
Back and to
Drips from the ceiling
This house like the money pit
Try all day to smile
Be grateful
Know a lot more worse off
But state of these rented accommodations inside just reeling
Drink some more wine
Before water too leaks from these eyes

Spoken to the lady set to work the shoot
Mentioned whips and chains as props on phone
Think I'll pass with that
There a right pain in the *** :-o

Dripping
Shaking
Sweating cold
Death of life consumes the soul
Transformation
taking hold
Darkness digs sharp into the bones
Suffering deep
Surrender self for greater whole

The pen entranced
to
meet
with hand
Words flow
from
the mind
The pen takes lead and scrolls the lines
To make the page it's own
Wizards
Poetry
and
Rhyme
Console from Higher Prime

All this
seeking
learning
looking
Can make your eyes sore
No wonder
we have one more

Thankyou for the put downs
The turning away when I need a friend
The pushy comments when I'm tired and breaking
The watching as I weep
I'm sure it'll make for a stronger me
You will need to look at yourself when you are through

In sorry if you mistake my scars for weakness
I'm sorry if you think I'll be putty in your hands
I'm sorry if you think I'm a little lady
I have a voice
Show me a real man
Either way I will still stand
So step aside

Can you hear the angels calling to you
The words no need to say
A knowing within yourself
Numbers to guide upon the way
Whispers to echo thoughts flowing chain to chain
Poetry pulling at the core
Spilling pen to paper
The more you trust and believe
Be open to receive
Synchronicity
Universal unity
Living in divinity

All that I give onto others I project back to me
All that you give I see

City skyline
In deep decline
Watch and see men on streets plea for small bite to eat
No home, no company  
Low opinions stare down at their feet

Drugs aplenty to occupy social minds
See the city party goers on coke to have a fun time
So much above them
But they choose to stay below skyline

Sadness fills my eyes

In one time you may live
In another you can die
Death scene by my bed tells a tale that life can change or align
If you perish now do you or some part seep into parallel line

I'm learning about my relationship style
How and why I do and say the things I do
I'm learning more deeply to feel into the sensitivities and trials
I'm understanding more
How can I be a healthier me
Where should my boundaries be
What does the other person need
How can we understand
Compassion
Hand in hand

Spiritual awakening isn't all airy fairy and light
It's as hard as ****
You break
You break
You break
Pick up broken pieces
Find place of gratitude
Learn from lessons given
Then another comes tumbling in
The walls crash down and you break
Crumbling back
to
ground

I sink but don't drown
These tears I've cried before
It never killed me
I've died inside over n over
My soul is my home
My love is a tower
You can knock it down
Then I'll rebuild again
even higher

Joker in the pack
Never had an ace up his sleeve
Laughed and mocked for which he lacked
Soundtrack of broken grief
Damaged and left bruised
Trying to heal
Pain would reveal
More pain to feel
As skins mark fade
New game played
He was the pawn
Sullen born
Bred by fear
Fear grew to hate
Hate to retaliate
But he did
Was it his fate
Taken his evil
to
the
grave
All those he maimed and survived
Point blame and the hate thrived
To live over again
No one laughing in the end
Was heard whimpering from sunken grave

Meditation was deep
Hand came out of water feet washed on beach
Carried by the ocean dragged panicking into the deep
Pulled underground where hell is met
Down the dark caverns of pain and torment
Scrabbled back up
Gripped by an eagle
Dropped to the sea where open mouth of shark awaits feed
Into the mouth
Swallowed up
Somehow shot out
Back with the eagle flew to ledge to peer about...

Negligee slipping off her shoulder
His hard beating chest pounding to undress
To caress and feel her depths
Eyes soul-stirring connect
Lips break the silence
Kisses sweet and juicy
Soft then fully
Thriving with every thirsting breath
Slowly he slides down night dress to admire her curves and supple *******
Fingers tracing shape and voluptuousness
Stroking licking ******* her tenderness
She moans ******* *****
He loves the impression his taste has met
Hand prises her thighs apart
Fingers brush a work of art
******* lace and pleasure grips
She writhes and shakes her thrusting hips
Her excitement is on his fingertips
He feeds her mouth
Then inside he slips
Tickling her soft and slow
Riding her ****** flow
Her desire
His fire
Higher and Deeper they go..

Faced the world today
When at first light didn't think I could
Turned the doubt around to faith
Embraced by the universe
Rewarded with a cosmic hug

Words have hurt
So has silence
Though the silence from peace has brought some relief
It's a different kind of silence an embrace from the creator
A surrender and a hold
bringing you into
being

I've noticed
The days that could of gone
So differently

I've noticed the days that could of gone so differently

Answer the call of your spirit
Go to where it lifts
Each has their own signature and personal creative gifts

Want me to love you??
Love yourself!

He could only feel deep
inside her
Once he penetrates her mind
and
touches her soul

Dreams of flying
Angels wings
Buffalo in open fields
Maybe in dreams need to be free

He tells me he loves me
When I feel up I can understand
When I'm down I cannot
I feel washed up and not good enough
Will I ever compare to a Summers day?

Each time the dark approaches
I have to learn to love myself in my pain
It's a lesson that plays out over and over again
Going deeper into the heart
Eye glaring out
Reversing thought and time
Being without the light
Traversing
beyond the hate

I think so much
It drives me sane

You said it was all in my head
After your head thumped into mine
It was all in my head
When you kicked me in the bed
Telling me my body took too much space up
It was all in my head
When I lay on the floor next to my own bed
You had the space
I didn't have any cover
It was all in my head
When you swore I had slept with another
It was all in my head when you examined the situation an internal examination
Apparently I failed the test
It was all in my head
When you told me how ****** up I was
Then I questioned the words
You said no such thing
I was being absurd
It was all in my head
When my contacts of friendship was broken the card snapped in half
No call to them anymore
It was in my head
When the pills I took you said
It wasn't enough
You need more to **** you
It was in my head when I wanted to die
Years pass by
And I heal
You come from under that rock to shake it up
After all
It was all in my head

There is no time
So no distance apart
Soul to touch
Soul
From Heart
to
Heart

Loneliness
You have to sit with it
Until you get through it
No good to cling to others
to make you feel whole

Visions dance
Romance
Take the floor
As soon as they've waltzed in
spin around
audience view in awe
they step out
leave for the door

I will heal
From every bone
From every single ache
But first I must ache

Visions flicker
Objects change
Form of matter rearranged
Back to the same

Why do those that have lived through hell
Never can share the tale to tell
We keep it inside the trail we hide
Even if spoken out
It's read as metaphorical
We know
It's more
literal

I was thinking about anger management
But I just told it to
*******!!