Restless
Restless Restless
Relentless
Feet tapping
to
the
unheard
song

Under a waterfall
Heavenly
dew
rain
down
Pour
onto
this
vessel
Health
Wealth
Love
Abundance
to
jewel
this crown

Learning from accepting less
Test after test
After test
Failing
Falling
Rising
Shining
To fall
Even
more

The
light was fading
Mourning its loss
Grieving in desperation to stay at all costs
The time had come to tuck itself away
To end all that's been

To rise
  for another day

These waves ask me to write
High and low tides of life riding to the shore
Moon directing cresting curling course
Stars nightlights for the dark
Sun warming to the day
Deep as the ocean swells and bed sometimes so far away
Releasing to the elements earths most humble way
A raft upon a current
Drift with waters sway

My heart stills hurts
I can pretend all I want
But it still
hurts

Beauty in natures green
Beauty in the trees
Flowers shape of this world so many secrets unseen
See the magnificent in the many small crawling creature
In others find the good
Multitude of valuable feature
Further and deeper to delve
See a lack at the helm
Driving the vessel to comfortable sea but with no real treasure of abundances
Use to the depths that cruise around not stopping for quality found however do see the joys in what is around
Perhaps a venture out is a must
Bathe in the crystal seas and lap up the waves the tropical plants scent the summers haze as we enjoy the play lain on sandy beach
Have to find the worth of confidence to reach

Keep on growing to be stronger
Otherwise at odds
At breaking ...............
.......it just prolongs it

Alka- seltzer
dissolving
Film
Remains

I was told to grow my ***** last week
I'm just waiting on the top soil

Some people's deep
Goes far beyond
the
grave

Nothing comes to me

Nothing is gained

Then
from nowhere
Chaos
Create
Change
Earth Mother Shadow Brother Night Deep Abyss
All backed together to verge and stick
This picture gathers
and
New forms made
Making provence
of
Dimensional
Planes

Body a shell
Layer to inside
Cover over light
Sun rays from the eyes
Taking in daylight
Directing back to shine
Shell washed up on the breeze
Floating with the air
Lighter than a feather
Risen up to high
Human reason come creeping in
Weighted to the ground
Fear
settles
down

Expansion
Inflation

Birth
to a new
nation

False smiles everywhere
Real tears rarely
seen

I kept pushing away
I see how annoying it is for another to go quiet and distant
I was afraid of rejection
I got it again
I spoke my mind if uncomfortable
It wasn't comfortable
He wanted an easy life
I didn't know how easy my life would be
I wanted them to accept me when I couldn't fully accept myself
They taught me to heal deeper by my fears
I'm learning to embrace more of me
No longer together
I still care and will love them anyway
I want them to be ok.

I saw him
We were together on a beach
Me him and our kids
Then I opened my eyelids
And he appeared

My voice and opinions have been silenced on many occasions
I can see how I may reflect that
However the voice of your self deserves to be heard even if it's only by your own ear and spirit

Why does the sky cry?
To water the seeds below
To nourish the ground
To release from murky cloud

To open
to a clearer
day

Crying doesn't come as easily as once did before
Feel too many tears have been shed
Down on the floor

Always seen as the player
But they never knew he was looking for his one

I've seen through your eyes
I've known the tears you've cried
I've felt the heartstrings pulled wide
I've felt you broken inside
I've tasted the times you've swallowed your pride
I've been places you went to hide
And to all those spaces you opened up
Filling up of not much or too much
Empty
Overindulged  
Laying with your love in the guilty malice and the shame centred rug
It was at one time your only cover
How you danced with the shadows
The romance of willows bearing your narrow leaves and small flowers
Finding the love in those little things
Tying the pliant branches to yarn encircling loom
Ouroboros love
Come back to you

I thought I was punished for seeing such dark
I don't know, maybe I am
But the more I've learnt and the more I saw
I think it's more a preparation rapport  
Knowing the dark to find such light
To be aware of struggling battle but have peace
with good intent in mind to right

He likes to tease and please
Faced away down on knees
Legs prised apart
Wrists and ******* pressed and pinned to wall
Fingers glide up inner thigh
Kiss lick and bite to neck as grip tightens in tousled tresses
Tongue to meet with mine
Shaking with desire as fingers tantalize
Connecting so deep inside
****** and throb combine
Sensations overload
Eyes behind blindfold
Well some things should be censored
Bound
to
withhold

It's all about the love
Loving ourselves
Loving others
Loving enemies til there are none
Hate won't exist, if all to do this
What you see in another's eyes/a reflection of you
It's all about the love
A touching truth
Hope to live this through

Cast a shadow to us
To face the sun
Keep your light within strong
Moon will recharge reflect back
Illuminate when it's
time comes

Death dreams plague the mind
Am I moving forward
Or leaving it all behind

When the suffering comes it hurts
The heart feels tight
The head muddled and fuzzy
The mind irritated
The body pained and numbing
The ears hear all too well the spluttering conversations and monkeys chatters swell
The mouth bumbling lines that don't quite feel right
The spirit knows
Insight
The lesson and the emotions will be shared in time
Unity
Combine our dear sentiments

Share your pain
You never know when another stands in the same rain
Share your light
A chance to make it shine

Moon comes up
The night comes out
The air cooler now
Resting body eyes close down
Blanket covers gentle sounds
Covers tug and veil opens surrounds
Heating up dripping brow
Hands clammy clenching round
Reaching to mop pouring pound
A lighter frown
Shaking the spill drifting around
Dreams leak with conscious mind
Boiling point hitting hard
An ocean flood from own fenced yard
Stream of elements bard
Fire burns on the skin
Inside
I'm
drenched
to
the
core



A
Drop
More

The fire burns inside
Feel the flames rise and fall
Pit of furnace scolds and folds
Ladle from caldron surges steam heat burn
Roof of home suffocates build up of smoke incensed
House will burn or flames die down
Nature grow from soiled ash ground

I am not my name
I am not a martial status
I am not my job
I am not who you perceive I might be
I am not even this body
I am spirit
Flying
free

Love and Pain
Next to Next
Inhale pain
to
send out
love

It's not from the outwardly stare
It's not from the clothes that you wear
It's not by the flattery of words that you share
It won't be by the way you undress what's outside
It's more than just the glaze from your eyes
It's the lock the key you turn to open up to inside
It's the depth that resides
It's the way you penetrate between and
beneath the lines
It's the touching of truth with the fears
and dreams most will try
hide
It's you
Your core
Your Strength
Vulnerabilities
Sensibilities
Wonders
Knowledge
Wisdom
Heart
Soul
+
Faith
You see
That's the only way you can get
inside
me

You left
I wasn't ready
Were you ready to say..
goodbye
Now
separate in physical form
Connected
by
our
hearts

The colour extends and blends
Spreads out from the skies
Flows in the air
Ends from
your
eyes

Woke up
to see
eye
looking
back at me
Big stare
Long eyelashes
Negative flashes
Was it letting me know
Was it projecting the show
Was it saying no more
Or evening up the score
In any case it woke me
from that
tormentful
dream

I'm growing myself and loving me there
You see the past I've met love from lack that I've shared

Forging
further
into the forest
Into the thick of it
The deep dark brush grows up and up
Though I wander
further
Not scared to stop
As the more I venture the closer I get to the edge  
Light shines
on
the
other
side

Skin peeled back
Organs rearranged
Stirred
Heart stabbed
Pain in leg
Arm
Head
Back
Ailments ease
Liquid seeping ears
Surrendering to up high
Releasing fears
Let it be
Let it be
Lessen the structured grip
of outwardly
Focus
to
light
energy

Dreams came in like
Crashing Waves
Bashing and
Thrashing against
Rocks
of
Harboured graves
Wanting to release
to
pools
of
peace

Oh yes! I love your smell
Your touch silky smooth
effortless
You know just how to make me smile
I glow when you are near
On my lips
It's you I want to taste
Rub all over me
Get deep
Go right in
Don't worry not a drop go to waste
I like this new skin regime
Coconut oil tasty scented paste Mmmm..

Moth fly towards your light
Though remember not all is moons rite
Wings beat in the dark
You are still whole between the stars

Play the chord
How's that sound
Is it in tune now
Pluck the string
Is it harmoniously resonating
Is there a healthy tone
A happy flow
Or does the note fall a little flat
A bit off key
Match the response to the melodic frequency

Battle of light and dark
Not always so easy to see
The dark soothes the light
The light shines on dark
Blackness in both
Light in too
Stay in
heart
That's where you'll find good will
Try do no intended ill and take time for mind to be still
Even on lit path we encounter and face shadow sides of dark

He had nothing but still
touched my soul
and said God Bless

Sometimes
I want to close my eyes
And
never
wake up

When the sky is consumed by the night
All seems unclear
It is cold in the shadows
Then you appear
I can peer the starry light
You shine up
In my eyes

Always said what he meant
Cutting it fine
Score between lunacy and sublime
Living for the beauty and the outrage of a crime
Passion blazed across his fiery eyes
Sharp steel
He made you feel
There was no going back
Plunging forwards
Hold onto your horses!
"There's no time for that!"