High pitch signal calling to the brain
Incoming
message
Calling
once again

Doesn't matter who you are
Underneath the bruises and scars
We all want to feel
Good
You can pretend even at your bitter end
That you really don't care but deep down you know hurt brought you there
If we could live more lovingly
Would we
Feel accepted by others and self
See our beauty shine from within
In our hearts we can always begin
See our worth wrapped in delicate skin
The pain and wounds just make us human
We all make mistakes
That's how we grow
No need to deny
We are fallible
You are beautiful
Filled with love and light
Sometimes we just let the dark night take hold
Hope you find the strength
Great delight
Faith
To let deep hurts and anguish
go..

As I lay on the mat
Stretched my legs up for more flexibility
My dog licked my left side of my face for 15 minutes
I let him
I giggled at that

Feel too old and weary in this life
Sometimes I think I've seen enough
A world of pain
When will it all be too much
I know your thoughts
I see behind the smiles
Anguished by lack of respect and in turn I neglect
I know it's wrong but I tire of these out of tune songs and the lessons to always correct

Feeling you
Without sound
Without touch of physical hand
Silent kisses from your
loving mouth

Eyes
Smiles
Eyes
Frowns
Eyes
Scowl
Eyes
Tired
Eyes
Down
Eyes
Happy
Eyes
Scared
Eyes
Noted
Eyes
Scarred
Eyes
Fierce
Eyes
Fret
Eyes
Harm
Eyes
Met
Eyes
Known
Eyes
Worthy
Eyes
Far
Eyes
Pleasant
Eyes
Part
Eyes
Lost
Eyes
Heart
Eyes
Discomfort
Eyes
Barred
Eyes
Jealous
Eyes
Tarred
Eyes
Mellow
Eyes
Starred
Eyes
Connect
Eyes
Dart
Eyes
Content
Eyes
Vent
Eyes tell the soul how thoughts are spent

I was never really present because I could not keep replaying the old relationships and wounds
I couldn't fully let love in
Lesson learnt

Even from my earliest memories always felt alone
Now I can take some comfort from that

I try so hard to break away
As it's not with me you want to stay
Then in dreams you come to me
Souls together in harmony
No separation between
Spirits dancing freely
Easy
Effortlessly
Melancholy on waking

I regret the last post!!
:-o

Two pigeons on a rooftop
Courtship dance
Was this a first pairing for life
Or fates second chance
They look out together
Parallel Romance

Wild horses song
been following me around
for weeks and days
Each time I hear I think of you
  and how I would never want you to go away
Songs sums up emotions of feelings to date
Never want to be bitter or treat you unkind
You are the wild thing that lightens the spirits
Always running through my mind
I think in this life we have both lived and died
Perhaps in another we rode side by side
Maybe in distant time, place
the same
We will ride them
some
day

My memory is like

School days
Taught me nothing about who I was

Life taught me that

It's not easy feat to be the Queen/King of Darkness
It would be sweeter to be a ruler of tranquil seas
But that's not our royal we
We rule over blackened stormy sea
Hit hard with the shards of broken glass We bleed
Our eyes see in the pitch black
We stay strong
Never knowing what will attack
We can't face away
There's no time for that
Every fear
Each Demon and ghoul must be processed
Observed it's a mirror glaring back
Been bound
Caged
In deep fright
Though we have learnt to adjust to the oncoming night
Spores spur us to go on and fight
It's survival of our world
Our life
We transmute darkness to light
make it our home
A throne
to
right

I have seen glimpses of Hell
And glimpses of Heaven
All we can do is live to our best intention
We are far from perfect
We are human
Mistakes will be made
That is certain
It's how we learn from them and how we develop compassion
for those who walk the world
It's not such a straight path
Light and dark at time link hands
Both teach another sun and shadowlands

Speaking your mind thoughts feelings and expectations never comes easy but it isn't easy to just keep going unhappy without speaking your truth
Those that appreciate you will understand
Those that don't ...
Well ...
How much did they care?

Snowflake and flowers sacred design
Come in the hours of daylights decline
Into the center
Coded mind
Level to the higher
Ascension climb

Please love me like
I am love

It's all a matter of perspective

Rainbows appear with the sun behind you
The rain up in front
The precious gemstones may gleam when least expected

A lot of wounds coming up to be healed
The subconscious unsettling to bring up what you feel
The insecurities isolation loneliness and faults
Held under the microscope to be looked at at great odds
Suppression holds the ache for longer
Viewing makes
the
eye sight
stronger

Perhaps with love we attract the kind of love we are not ready for
Then perhaps it isn't love at all
Just a distraction
from
our
self

Wings
flap
with the air
Glide and slice precision
Cutting down its prey to small size
In  
one  
fell  
 swoop
Deadly
incision

I feel her dying and that's ok
Not sure if I'm grieving for the emotions the past or her
I'm happy to let parts of her that no longer serve die
I'm happy to keep the caring sensitive kind parts to her but I feel I'll be content to let the worrisome, insecure, fearful, undervalued, disrespecting parts of her die
I see my future and it's not her who belongs
She lives with wings

The morning routine of wondering what day will bring has a habit of songs played from 'on this day'
So on social site one song played year before today was fall at your feet crowded house
I thought nice tune as I headed out
As morning panned out I hit a bumpy load feeling pain mental and physical
Trying to hold it back but part of grief kicked out
I struggle with not being authentic
As song comes on radio as about to leave for home
"And whenever I fall at your feet
Won't you let your tears rain down on me?
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain"  
It's playing same song again
I kept the tears inside til I got back
Shaking hands from panic attack
Play the song to listen again
Suggested "Don't dream it's over"
I don't play but go away to eat and rest
Downstairs friend sings same song
Poetry prompt for today was rainbows and gemstones wasn't feeling shiny or colourful
Then found out how rainbows show
So I went with what was read
Now to rest this weary head

Dreams turning restless in my head
Fear lifting out to purge on screams to shout
Faces grotesque
Beckoning to test
I face
Even in sleep and half dream state
Tonight's
Dragons at my side
One rogue
Red hot blooded
Fire in eyes  
Wanting to take all that's mine
Stripping bare skin from Dragon kin
I fear somewhat
Though protective in nature
Dragons of Guide
Courageously
Took to the
Skies
Onwards we ride!
Into
Battle
Towards
Dark
of
Night

Precious divine love
A Gods gift from above
Your almighty love floods through heart and blood
Tears fall from heavens gate
Your clouds of dark lift to pearls of white
Honoured to feel even an ounce of loving bliss state
Forever held dear
Loves awake

Anxiety helps to comfort me
But it doesn't really
It feels real it hurts like hell
It's a ******* liar as well
Made up of all the broken eggshell
Trying to keep us safe
Protected in our cracked encasing
Peeping out to see the danger and our victim
Thoughts brought up by the chicken crap we let drip in
Deformity hatching
Letting us try to fly with clipped wings
We birthed it from our own hollow and others hollow opinions
Fed by lies and fear based skies
Raining down on our sodden wings
Puppeteer puller of strings
Numb it with some pills
Immune  
Feel it still
Refill
Still ill
Throw them away and watch the rain

Soft and sharp
A little rough edge
A soothing harp
Similar to opposite
Understand Lost in transit
Clearly apparent  Not how it's meant
Magic to the ears Horrific torment
It's all in receiving  It's just how it's sent
We can be different But in nature the same
Some words can heal Some words can pain
A lesson to the wise A fools game
Listen to the message How it feels reveals our crediting name Distinction a conviction an infliction or growth gain

Stems frail
Weak and split
Broken apart by the weight of it
A bowl of carnations presented delicate
Just the heads of flowers
Long lost showers
Still

Never felt a part of family
Only apart of

When in ruins and broken and nothing else to break
Clear up the fragments
allow for space

Rebuild in it's place

Light
closing to Dark
The only way to come out is to go in and dive deep
Not knowing if life will end to eternal sleep
you will stay lost in the dark
or a lights spark will
slowly
begin
to
creep
Answers in the shadows
Plummeting
Surrendering
  to all,
you
see

When I leave...
and die
Will anyone stop and cry?
I hope not
I want a buffet DJ and karaoke standing near by
Life is to be rejoiced!
Plus there's onion rings and apple pie!!
Lush!!!
Shame I won't be up for lunch :-/

Sleep in bed so blue
Each night look up to the moon

My flower
has grown from seeds of doubt
buried in the
deep
My flower has grown through mud and sorrow planted for safe keep
My flower has grown through rain and storm and echoed from below
My flower has merged to the other side to see the seeds bloom and grow
My flower basks in summer skies and sways strongly in the breeze
My flower is beautiful in every sense in its glory and it's delicacy
My flower is a picture of love of hope of courage and of truth
I'm not sorry to say my love this flower
reminds me of you
💕
🌸

No matter who you are or what you find
You can always learn to be kind
We all have those days where the shadow wins its doesn't make us evil or deceiving
No matter our past or what came before
There is always an opening to a new welcoming door
The rusty hinge is old it's squeak became a chore
Replace what's gone you are a-door-ed
Give yourself a break and an applause
You have picked yourself up
Let the fresh air through the porch
Now smile :-D..
Face the ground where you stand for this will be your building spot this will be where you plant
In future days you and those after can look out at the garden you have tended grown and blossomed from your budding bare hands

Through sorrow
Through joy
Through quarrel
Through no hope for the morrow
Through love
Through kindness
Through natures tenderness
Through big and small
I have shed a tear
and
cried
through
them
all

We will all get
home
in time

Holding hand in mine
Stroking fingers softly touch
Holding on to emotions tight as now they roll and push
Longing embrace wrapping arms to care
Conflicting feelings vulnerable bare but lovingly there
Keep a hold til love can breathe with comforting soothing flowing air

The words you say are just right
Guided by the light
To live
A new day

How strange
I forget where I was
I feel I'm this person but somethings changed
Perhaps this life was rearranged
Did I know myself before
Did I meet the people I now know
Is this the person I was born to be
Now then future me
Tell me or let it go
Bring a home
into my
soul

Dance with me in the darkness until it fades

Deep down I feel really alone
But I have to remember
I'm
not

Spent so much of life
dying inside
Maybe it's time to spend
remaining time
living