Dark room
Dark heart
Hard beat
Scared world
Brave soul
         ~
Dark room
Faint heart
Fast beat
Still world
Brave soul
         ~
Starry room
Light heart
Steady beat
New world
Brave soul
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****** me so hard tears fell from my eyes
The pain hit hard
Deep between the thighs
Bound my mouth when screams were too loud
Told me to keep the noises inside n' down
****** me so hard
And turned it around
Rode me straight
Into the ground

I'm in my hiding place
Lain between life and unknown state
Peering beyond the veil
Mysterious and sacred tale
Wrapped up in thoughts and feelings
Yet the heart knows true believing

Catch sight of shoulder in dimmed light
It passed me by
Disappeared into the night....

Siting in a car driven by something else
It wants to drive crazy
Go close to the edge
Zig zag
May even flip
Swerve around til it's you it grips
After a while you get car sick
Decide you've had enough of being driven by the shifting gear stick
So you get in the drivers seat drive to the best of your ability
Keep with the safeties
Stay on the road
Learn to lighten insides heavy load
The longer you drive
the further
you go.........

When the process starts you think you're going insane
Messing with your mind playing with your brain
Constant questions and answers
to and fro back again
You realise you have to accept or it's like swimming against the current
living while holding your breath
Those who don't understand meet you with a scrutinising closed hand
See you as unwell
Think they are trying to help
Though you have to remember you questioned yourself
So try to rise above
Be true to self
For you have to see
what's ment
To be seen
No one else

As she lay there in his arms she felt his divine charms lift her up
His love was like no other
An undercover lover

Some nights the air is so alive
You can see it dance and fizzle under soft light

Morning comes with you first thought
By night time tired distraught
I may even dream of you
You will never fade from me

A young girl with dreams
A gallant knight on white horse
To rescue and sweep off feet
As time passed and all is changed I saw the picture was not as hoped
The rescuing came from myself
The knight not always so gallant
The horse stopped dead in its tracks
It need not matter cause I was a Queen not princess
I wore the arrow not the ballroom dress

Thinking of you......

Dreaming of black wings
Does that make me dark
See angel wings protrude from my back
Was told I was of the fallen
Yet I try not to fall

Time with you was never wasted
I've learnt so much from you
That from deepest of my heart I Thankyou
I miss you already I can't say I don't
But I don't want to play with you when I'm unsure of what I want
I know I love you and that is true
I want both to be happy
I really do want what is the best for you

I vow to keep going no matter what I face
To go the distance
To keep the faith
To follow the path as it twists and turns
To not give up
To listen
To learn
To watch my emotions as they come up
To cry if need be
To be humble
To help
To smile even in times of adversity
To want to feel life
To be deep in breath
To know time and tide
To rest in head
To know my mistakes are mine
To be grateful for what I receive
To love as I can
To not intentionally hurt or harm
To know the dark in me
To shine thy light
To give up always trying to be right
To be there for myself and others
To make amends if need be
To grow
To adapt to change
To work on me