Beauty breathes from the hearts of all men and women
Sometimes we just fail to see
We lose our way by taking in too much pain and never letting it go

Growing up felt the odd one out
Too sensitive insecure think rather than do
Said the wrong thing
Wore the wrong clothes
Never told beautiful
Still working on more love for self
But can see now
Others put out their own view
Doesn't mean that words said or not should be true

You excite me
You terrify me
I want you to look at me
So deep into each other's eyes
Kissing down my neck mouth and thighs
Hold my hand in yours let's play and while away the hours
Kiss me as though a first kiss
Take me with your power
Passion so intense it was ment to be
Let's get lost in one another
So completely

Took myself outside today
Past the comfort zone
Down the street to supermarket
A place I don't normally roam alone
Did it bit by bit went in on own
Friend met me there
Ok it sounds lame
But I have social anxiety
So don't care! (Well I do!..)

Why did I buy the duct tape squirty cream and french soup?
French soup??

Sometimes the fears you don't want to face
Face you!
Small steps at a time you have to be willing to climb
It's no easy feat
The fears try to beat
Have to keep finding the strength

A wasp doesn't want to sting but will if frightened and rattled
They just want to go about their day doing as wasps do
Be gentle with them if stuck in your enclosure
Set them free..

We all want to live with peace and more ease

Don't want to feel the sharp end
of
any
biting
sting

When I was little I used to peer out of the bedroom window at night and wonder where my special love was
the one I was ment to be with
What was he doing
Would he ever find me
My soul wanted to feel at home

Sometimes along the way
There are people who have beautiful hearts and words to say
They keep a little hope for you
Lighten dark days too
They are the few that will never leave
Etch memories
into your
heart

You give me more pain
When I can't stand
the pain I've got

Filled up with hate
Grip hair tight by nape
No longer punch self in face
Sun heats skin back of eyelids
Staring straight into the sun
Once you get past the blaze
flashing coloured haze
  black spot on the
whole

Pale light blue sky
Wispy cloud caught eye
Looks like flames rising high
I know they are not as the colours fade and blink out of shot but as the sun's shine to hit spot rainbow spectrum highlights the lot
Watch as they flash
To fade
Separate
Dissipate

Full of thorns
One ***** will make you bleed
All around dies in ash lined ground
Blood trickles
Seeps
into
the
roots
of decay
Soaking in
Growing Grief Sin Misery
Flourishing in Rosy Grey

You rip me open
But all I see is dark

The ignorant eat the worm gulping it down without knowing what it is
The ones who's look for truth to the worm
choke each time
they try
to
eat

No other can come too close
Unless they writhe with serpent host
Or willing to die over and over again
It could **** you

Learning from accepting less
Test after test
After test
Failing
Falling
Rising
Shining
To fall
Even
more

I have not been true,
Of person want to be
In early morn a vision came to me
All hell will reign down
Must repent immediately
Said prayer
Words shared
But still
Heart does not
feel free

Darling I think you're nice
Underlying sweetness that makes you a treat
Not too much, but right for me

Let me sit so close on top of you
Sliding on long and deep tongue tasting as you go
Tip to shaft savouring all inside
Lips to meet with mouth below

This flower wild
Should be growing living loving free
Not placed as a decorative piece
flat to the surface
Caged
and
Chained
by
Circumstance and monotony

The aura of your aroma inspires the air even after you are gone
A drop of you is all I need to hold on
Strong scent of intimacy
Close to soft skin
Your aromatic fragrance
prevails
me

It's all a matter of perspective

Always been a martyr for love
I will share
Til moved
or
moved
on..

Out
of
nothing
Exists
you

Im going to take myself away
To explore more hidden pleasures
I'll strip and let my body touch with the air
Energies flowing in
Stroking senses  
Skin cherished
Feel body beautiful
Outside and in
Waking to new desires
Shaking from the thrill
Until
Nothing left to spill

I've got myself a new shade
A deep and dark colour
They mix well together
Come closer
I won't bite
Much!
Let my lips smother
But only if you want
I wouldn't want you to choke up!

Let's make an ASMR video together
I'll play with your hair
Stroke your back
Rub you all over in lotion

Take me!
Or
leave me!

I love you
I love youuu..
I Love
You!!
<3

It will be Forever!!...

So tonight I thought it was a good idea to sing out loud and drink
However for some reason I thought..
Put it out on Instagram..
****!
I'm drunk!!

I regret the last post!!
:-o

In sorry if you mistake my scars for weakness
I'm sorry if you think I'll be putty in your hands
I'm sorry if you think I'm a little lady
I have a voice
Show me a real man
Either way I will still stand
So step aside

**** Conformity!

Or should you be making love to it?

The beginning

You know ever since we were little
I would get this feeling like...
Like I'm floating outside of my body, looking
down at myself
And I hate what I see..
The way I'm acting,  the way I sound  
And I don't know how to change it.
And I'm so scared..
That the feeling
is never gonna go away.

Tonight to cosy up
Comfy sofa, toasty wear
A movie perhaps
A comedy to cheer, laughter to lift the air
A spot of the warm whiskey nectar
Honey on the spot
Ice, just one single drop
I guess I'm in for a good night to self
Well my company is hard to top :-D

There's magic in our house
A fairy who visits by
Swishing round the living room
Making spirits fly
Round and round the home she goes placing things just right
Into the kitchen she travels in morning noon or night
Not a jot or *** of washing up to clean in sight
What a little trooper a little hero to wash and put the plates and cups away
Hope housemate appreciates
Maybe she'll need my marigolds one day
It's magic!!
Ta Darrr!!!

Some things you just know
Without consciously knowing
settling
deep
within

Went into meditative state arms at side legs stretched out
Awoke to arms
across chest
and stomach
embracing self
wrapped
around

Smiles and tears all day
It aches but takes the pain away
All at the same time

Memories rush up and flood as soft skin bathes in bath tub
Realise from past love
Never really was enough
At time of course felt so in love
Though some intimacy untimely spared
How many moments did we both respectfully share
Too little with what should of been there
Too many occasions let myself be taken when didn't feel pleasing
Not enough special touches that gave for mind blowing reason
Changing with the flowing season
Water reflects
Washes away the tears

On each dark night
I look up to the moon
Crying out in blue
Heart mournfully
swoons

As      
I am    
here    

          Not
           there
             with
              you

Tree over river
Reflections
to
me
Watch
as branches sway

Doors shifting
side to side
Movement in
Another place
and
time

It is in the
silence
most at peace
You don't
feel
any
thing

Take my heart in your
hands
And promise
Not to
crush
it

Music playing in full swing
Free bird from skynyrd body tuning in
Water from shower head penetrating skin
Flowing over and beneath places in between
You call to me
You come on in
Hand grabs hips as you pull within
Pushing up to wall feeling behind
Fingers wrap around tightening grip on thighs
So hard to resist
Pleasure falls wet steamy drips
Take me
**** me right!
Let's have a shower
Play with each other, all night!

Heart finds a home
in you
X

Let the fire from our passions thaw the icy hearth
Smoldering as ravishing flame burns together
Molten liquid fusion from the heat
Melting
into
you

Consumed by anxiety daily
Depression shifts and folds
Try to work through the social phobia but struggle to go out mostly alone
Make it to work and back sometimes walk the dog but still haven't found the striding knack
To go out without the doubt
Past worries took the mount
One of pain and setbacks
You would think the endless faced battles and the street (most feared) attack would finally see to that
I'm not brave
Just living with being weak

One day the bitter winters will end
The ice will melt
The sun will break
We will walk hand in hand in cooperation
love light and respect
A partnership made in heaven
A vow of truth
Bridged bond everlastingly made