For better or worse
In sickness and in health
I vow to walk beside myself

The air is full
The stars appear
The water settled with slight ripple
here
and there
The fairies play and skim upon the lake
Racing
to
the
bridges
finish line
Night comes alive with magic enchantment
Spirit realms cover the night as veil thread-like in low light
Shimmer of sparkle twinkles energy source of passed life
Tricks for morrows woken set by mischievous sprite
Quiet in late and early hours though plenty of activity
Can take a glimpse if you too believe
The moon knows all
For it looks out over water
The moon can see it's own reflection
Intuitive detection
Not to mention vast direction of being who frolic
below
Moonglade
spotlights
spellbinding show

Storm has taken me in a spin once again
Vertigo has made a comeback old trusty friend
This house has damp and plays havoc on the sense
Doesn't matter how you clean its bad weather's stream
Gave ears healing vents
Body cleansing to try clear ailments
Dancing to release tensions
Now on ginger ale and ginger biscuits
Too much want to do to let this take my will
Gonna fight this *******
Keep
stepping
through
the
ill

11:11
The signs always there
A gateway to stop and stare
Numerous meanings the world cares to share
But notice we are
Awake to alarms
Times on the clock
On displays
Sighting
Every which way
Inviting us to hear spirits call past minds sway
Guiding light to lead humanity
to
better
destined
day

If world was yours and rule by you
Would you not want
All to love
One to One
to
school

Wound opens
Blood
spills
out
Fetch the bandage
Need
to
heal

Reach to space
beyond
the
noise
Body tingles
Feet flick out
Twitching left and right
Point of pain in heart
A fiery burn
Strong flaming churn
Worry heart won't go on
But I do
and
it does
Hurt releases
Energy changes

Joker in the pack
Never had an ace up his sleeve
Laughed and mocked for which he lacked
Soundtrack of broken grief
Damaged and left bruised
Trying to heal
Pain would reveal
More pain to feel
As skins mark fade
New game played
He was the pawn
Sullen born
Bred by fear
Fear grew to hate
Hate to retaliate
But he did
Was it his fate
Taken his evil
to
the
grave
All those he maimed and survived
Point blame and the hate thrived
To live over again
No one laughing in the end
Was heard whimpering from sunken grave

Fields of purple in wildflower plume
Tree on the hill shades cool room
Warm summers day picture perfect scene
Wide open space all in sight glorious graze to belong to dream
Serenity and calm love and foy fill up the pasture with fruitful joy
To sit to spend time in the sun with shared love and basket of sweet and savory picks
What's mine is yours we taste and divide
Feeling the warmth filling up from inside
Cosy up close as watch the sun set
Stars allign to capture moments spent
This place is divine
Sweet home to find
Sentiment to never forget

When I leave...
and die
Will anyone stop and cry?
I hope not
I want a buffet DJ and karaoke standing near by
Life is to be rejoiced!
Plus there's onion rings and apple pie!!
Lush!!!
Shame I won't be up for lunch :-/

As the gate opens thoughts
           shift
Moving
down
corridors and passageways through and
into oncoming rifts
Around and
around we
go        
Trying to make sense of it all
To come back round again
this time to make up for
past amends              
Down the next track
onwards
to
the
end
Only to met with a sharp cut off
bend /                            
Backwards we go                
complete with our sorrow
To make a quick
             exit
and
find steps
for
tomorrow
Rest awhile you've walked quite a few miles
Have a break
Then when you wake
We try again
Charging
on
to
make it to...
Where
or
When?

Giving myself more love each day
Because no one ever loved me in the deeply desired way
No other choice but to grow this state
I'm not giving up or giving in
Perhaps one day the love will stick
and stay

I want to change my life for the better
I would like it to be fun and good
Like to share the wealth
Look after those I love

Spoken to the lady set to work the shoot
Mentioned whips and chains as props on phone
Think I'll pass with that
There a right pain in the *** :-o

Told myself not to
But cannot help what the heart feels to be
It beats for you
It
loves
you
Sorry but what
can
I
do

Sleep in bed so blue
Each night look up to the moon

Wild horses song
been following me around
for weeks and days
Each time I hear I think of you
  and how I would never want you to go away
Songs sums up emotions of feelings to date
Never want to be bitter or treat you unkind
You are the wild thing that lightens the spirits
Always running through my mind
I think in this life we have both lived and died
Perhaps in another we rode side by side
Maybe in distant time, place
the same
We will ride them
some
day

The web is spun ready for her prey
Shape of capture to entangle unsuspecting
victims in their wake
Deathly design to feed releasing hunger for said day
No mercy for its her who **** dry from pain
Tasting every inch and flesh that's stripped away
Black widow to hunt and take down even mate that crave
Survival of the fittest can't afford to give saving grace
You worked female out felt hunger from venomous spout
Though you never turned back around
It was you who wrestled her to the lowly ground
Having her for your own in pinching pound
As she who succumb to your vanquishing throne
Admiring tenacity together build
empowering woven
home

So far all I have for photo shoot
Is a pair of heels I can't walk in and a thong to show my bare...
Skin
Must go shopping!

Kissing wherever you like
Tantalizing taste to spike
Leaving a trace of me
inside
you

There came a time
When all of past woes needed less attention and hold
To the girl with the bright eyes it came as no surprise
The wise
had to look a little deeper
To aid the flow to useful ways
Citrine to clean
through
murky
haze
With open heart and lighter spirits
the wise and bright eyes could greet
Crystal clear of opposition
and
mortifying defeat  
Keep it safe and recharge if in need
Bring brighter promise
for
dreamer and dreams
to meet

Spent so much of life
dying inside
Maybe it's time to spend
remaining time
living

She's at it again
Going off like a shot
While he's burning bridges
Losing the plot
Fuses and fireworks
Setting them off!
Time for another gin
Let's fill up a trough!!

Scent of seduction
Calling for you
Come into my laire
I'll show you just as you desire to do
Show you ecstasy that doesn't stop til you demand it to
Feel me open as you feed from truth
Nestle inside my pillowy room
Fitting just right around you
Fuelling up as engines power
Sweet essence blend and shower
Oh' such juicy sensations
Falling further and deeper to immense salvation
As bodies beat pulsate with pound
Enter extreme elation beyond mortals round
Flowing over and over with the now
The cup is overflowing as is your mighty member
As fire lifts up from sparking ember
This will not stop til you desire it to
A perplexing call to make from me and you
Keep going and going
I want it too
This
Cascading
Pleasure ride
Will not subside....

******* the moon
Chanting alluring tune
'Oh come to me for I can see the world in all its glory
I know the land
The plan at hand
The tell of loves true story
Oh sing to me sweet melody
Of how we drifted as riders in tides of melancholy
How we surfed those bashing waves and held on to meet with shore
How we hold our hope so bold and cry out from core when we are washed to the deep once more
Knowing we will be swept the way we came before
Now I stand on moon so grand
And sing in reign so high
I feel the earth
How world will turn
And mighty power rests to mine side
So conjure up these spectacular skies to shower upon those held below
To lift from ache and past mistake
Rip the chains of grounds sorrow
Rise up!
Fill up!
Release the hollow..
For time is now to Unite!
Ignite!
Spark Up Bright!!
Connect with Divine Light as Sacred Offering
of
Recognition
to
Refined
Mastery
of
Tomorrow

Up and lift
Taken with the wind
Splash unto the skies
Spray to cleanse horizons eye

Had a day last week when feeling rather brave
So... thought to self yeah I'll enter that competition  
Probably won't be a close shave
But now I've won, well runner up!
Think I might be needing one
For champagne reception and burlesque photo shoot
I must learn to behave
Ready for a close up :-o
Argghhhh.. I want to run away :-/

***
without
love
no longer
an
option
Without, no desire
Will
put
out
the flame

Live
Forgive
Love

Why would we want to cure the earth
Cure known to man become more known to monetary gain
As illness big value to recover from pain
Life in the hands of greed so inane
As more grow wiser and strong to cruel power game

As visions perforate minds dreams
Flashes projected across openly draped screens
Flower with petals held together as stem standing tall
Growing closer flower
parts
to
reveal
oval seed from which delve
deeper and deeper
beneath
Through the portals hatch reach another land
A tree stood strong and stretched wide
as woman in long beautiful
flowing
satin
white
bridal
dress resides
Dress trailing as waves
ripple
to
reach with earth
Dancing joyful even with full and overflowing skirt
Round the tree playful with glee
Strength to climb up at will
Rising high to branch twirls
upside
down
and
round
as feet jump back down
to ground

Ding Ding Ding!
All aboard!
Call for lost souls!
We will be departed at oo.oo hours
Travelling through
Nowhere in particular
Nowhere inbetween
And
Nowhere special
Stopping to meet with the dark shadow figure of death
Where you will be reawakened to all less seen
Hop on!!!

Speech like as babbling brook
Bubbling bumbling words get stuck
Panic attack struck
Ooooooohhhhhh....
Hope it soon goes
Hooooooooo...
Sounds blurt
out

Eternally
grateful to you
You are a friend
A confidant
Source of great insight
A warmth and comfort in the cold dark night
Shining a light to see it through
For this
I wholeheartedly
Thank you!
<3

Spiritual awakening isn't all airy fairy and light
It's as hard as ****
You break
You break
You break
Pick up broken pieces
Find place of gratitude
Learn from lessons given
Then another comes tumbling in
The walls crash down and you break
Crumbling back
to
ground

Saints and sinners
Born to sin
One ends
as
One begins
If honoured to die as Saint
Live life in hell along the way

With boney fingers point me out
Take a hold
Kiss my mouth
Make haste in final embrace
After life don't wake with pain hurt or hate
Lifeless to feel anything

Like to know a week without tears
Maybe I'm just weak

Hellfire and brimstone
Warm me up
a
treat

Whaaaattt?!!

I get cold hands
and
feet

How can you expect to help others if you never know struggles
You wouldn't ask someone else to give up
So why should you give up on you

Turning vices into nices
Tapping into hurt and pain
To gain
Deploy
Sweet

Sufferer for life
Lived it alone days and days on end
Came through a lot
The suicide attempts
Learnt to pick self back up
Time and time again
You'll still encounter those that don't understand
It's in your head not a broken arm
Can find moments to break out
However bottom line of dragging heavy grief and doubt
Like a stone that wants to sink and drown no matter if any joy tries to save
Gotta keep on
Can't have rest days
Always something to do
Emotional maze to work through
When all you want to do is be alone recuperate or shout

Feel too old and weary in this life
Sometimes I think I've seen enough
A world of pain
When will it all be too much
I know your thoughts
I see behind the smiles
Anguished by lack of respect and in turn I neglect
I know it's wrong but I tire of these out of tune songs and the lessons to always correct

Every time I try and live
I die a little more

Today I hit a wall where shadowed words fell out
Feeling boundaries are being crossed and fed up of holding out
The writing spills across the barricade that limits
and keeps in place
Something has to change
The rage inside me pains and the ink leaks the bleeding from clasping veins

So I bought myself a self sabotaging online course today!

I might finish it..

Fall back on time
so you can
spring
forward
when the time
is
right

Oh how they grew from earth so black
Mud encased their seed
They still push through as they do
Feeling the light
from
the low beneath
Onwards they climb
to
meet the world
knowing both light and dark
From dark despair they transmute and share
the guiding brimming
spark
When warmth in air they love and care
blossoming to new heights
These roses spill
poetic quill
to ground
and grow
from
deep
insight

Some souls you just gravitate to
Some slowly move
away