I fell
in
to the dark
so I could
see
the
light
in yours

I didn't know how to
I still don't know what happened
Everything went dark and now I just sit here
Waiting to see

Light
closing to Dark
The only way to come out is to go in and dive deep
Not knowing if life will end to eternal sleep
you will stay lost in the dark
or a lights spark will
slowly
begin
to
creep
Answers in the shadows
Plummeting
Surrendering
  to all,
you
see

Roots
connected
in
the
earth
Branches want to touch
For now all they can do is
reach
out
Keep
stretching
and growing
to
meet
with love

Grieving over and over again
This time feels like death
Dying seemed easier before
This one has severed me from the core
Sometimes I long to take my final breath
To rest

I'm not trying to
let go of you
I'm just trying
to live

The sky
showers for us tonight
Rays
            of
blue
              Light

Sonic boom low flying tune
Break the silence
Light the
room

I realised
I analyse
My analysing

I'm so tired of crying

Skin Blood
Bone
Brains Heart
Soul
Body a container for the soul
Ain't any less
This I know

Together we'll walk in fields of gold
Dive into
the
fiery
depths
To wake unto it's slumber

The sharks came last night
One of my greatest fears
So I let myself be swallowed

I saw others drown
And I thought
How silly are they
But the waters were stronger
than the bodies we held

Coming from nothing
to
something
Back to the source of all creation
Between it all a life of contemplation
Restless for a home
Longing
for
salvation

Standing in your power
Moonlight shines the way
Purification
Justification
Judgement
Balance
Pillars of truth unfolding
At the mercy of your sin
A portal of life to begin
Regaining the measure once again
What crumbles on the step shall fall in
Steps to climb to win
Led by guiding will
Illuminate the movement and the time that stands so still
Sands clasping at the fingers
Water flowing to the hill
Chasm swirl
Torus counter earth
Mixing bowl
Magical

Rebirth

That's ok
You were never gonna understand anyway
You were never gonna hear my words
Cause you never read them properly

That's ok
You see as you do
I'm easy and free for you
But you don't even see me correctly
Do you??

That's ok
You scorn as you will
I can see the mirror
Maybe you should turn it around and hold it still

That's ok
I'ts all paper thin
Though you are not aware of the thought words heart soul that's gone in
You are very much mistaken

That's ok. .

I'm done
explaining

You can see all around you
You can see where you have been
You can see below to the ground
underneath and
                  inbetween
but you can't see where you are going
and that can feel scary  
isolating
and unforseen

Scratch
Scratch
Scratch
the
wound
Make
em bleed

They'll dry up soon

I sink but don't drown
These tears I've cried before
It never killed me
I've died inside over n over
My soul is my home
My love is a tower
You can knock it down
Then I'll rebuild again
even higher

My body is my vessel
My soul is intact
I'm sorry if you see my worth in the worth that
you lack

I was told I had disappointed him and that I wasn't the Kate he knew
Weird thing was
He never knew me at all!

I was told to grow my ***** last week
I'm just waiting on the top soil

He asked me
"Why don't you show me your *****?"
I told him. .
"I don't have a cat!"

I was thinking
I take myself far too seriously

And
then we laughed

She wasn't everyone's cup of tea..
..but even the coffee drinkers
wondered if they could
change their order

Changing consciousness
Altered state
Rewiring the pathways
Put in place
Connecting networks
Sparks create
Cosmic wonders do await

You can
see
The land and sea
The
earth
from his eyes

Trickling
droplets
fall
before
your feet
The sky clearing day of emotion
to release
Lighter now before the dawn
To start a fresh
for heavens
morn

They appear without forewarning
Marching in the night
Passing with the darkness
Creeping into light
Haunting your dreams
Peripheral blight
Though when you turn to face and really see they don't take too much notice of you or me
Toing and froing
Restless and relentless
But the more you become aware
The less they seem to scare
Maybe just here to test us
Learning
from
the
deep

Everyone has a different perspective
They see what they want
Or how they choose to live their life and expect the same from their eyes
No one knows the true struggles you have faced
The changes in your life
The battles and scars
The ****** taste
They can judge
But they may be wrong
In the meantime I'll sing my own power song
If I am naked it must be for the acceptance of men it couldn't be for myself or for other women
If I show no shame Im shameless
I have opinions thrown left and right
But they weren't there to walk with me when I faced the darkest coldest longest nights
I crawled and I fought for my soul
My self
My
Life
So live and love your own life
As I will mine
I'm divine
I'm of the light

Come
closer
I won't bite
A drop of sweet
A pinch of spice
A fiery heat
A
hash of ice
Cooling flavour
A warm surprise
Passionate blend
Good and bad to find
You came closer..
I do bite!

I
hope
you won't
mind

When your hearts
Heavy
Let it breathe..
......
....
.

This love it makes you love hard
It loves through the pain and the tears you have cried
It pulls so deep fermenting inside
It lives through it all
It loves unconditional
Doesn't matter what's said and done at all
It grows with the fall
So understand it may hurt but hold on be strong as you can
Cause God and the Universe
are hatching a master of a plan

Once weekly I have a cry about our love that will never die
I let it out to release the build
So I can live
with
loving
you
still

I will devote my life to you and let your radiant light flow
and
shine
through

It's not from the outwardly stare
It's not from the clothes that you wear
It's not by the flattery of words that you share
It won't be by the way you undress what's outside
It's more than just the glaze from your eyes
It's the lock the key you turn to open up to inside
It's the depth that resides
It's the way you penetrate between and
beneath the lines
It's the touching of truth with the fears
and dreams most will try
hide
It's you
Your core
Your Strength
Vulnerabilities
Sensibilities
Wonders
Knowledge
Wisdom
Heart
Soul
+
Faith
You see
That's the only way you can get
inside
me

A new world
A lighter world
A world full of love
A world with happiness and smiles
and lots of carefree fun
Free spirits coming
into one
Taking back their lives from the warmth and healing of the sun

Ego   says
I want love
Spirit says
You are
love

Mountain daisy
Standing tall
You grew aloft against harsh weather and odds
So pretty as the sky and earth your home
You can see the land below
And the view gives you a reach to know
Though you stand there
all
alone

I've been here before
The past tells me so
The words show the way for heart and the knows
Some times the minutes move quick
Other times seem to stick
Some moments there's no time at all
World's merge mix spin
Then to wake as I fall..
To once again
Begin

I will not lie down with your abuse
I will not bow down to your disregard and misuse
I will no longer feel shame for pain caused by your wounds
I will not apologise for the way you handled the truth
But I will be honest with you

Pointing at your targets like they are the ones to blame
Shooting them down in gargantuan shame
You do not like it when the finger points back to you and you are the one in a minefield of pain

No matter who you are or what you find
You can always learn to be kind
We all have those days where the shadow wins its doesn't make us evil or deceiving
No matter our past or what came before
There is always an opening to a new welcoming door
The rusty hinge is old it's squeak became a chore
Replace what's gone you are a-door-ed
Give yourself a break and an applause
You have picked yourself up
Let the fresh air through the porch
Now smile :-D..
Face the ground where you stand for this will be your building spot this will be where you plant
In future days you and those after can look out at the garden you have tended grown and blossomed from your budding bare hands

There are light and dark forces in this world
Know the dark but face to the light
Keep on pushing through the fear
- to the other side
Do not let the darkness take over
the light that
YOU
ARE

Separate
bodies
Same soul
Forever intertwined
Wanting to
let
go

Some nights all Hell broke out
But nothing is more daunting than spending the nights alone without
you

It's all written in the stars
Universe in motion
Calling
to
your name
Intrinsic devotion
Moth
to
the
flame

The truth may lie in the last place you look
And once you find that
You may need to look again

The
light was fading
Mourning its loss
Grieving in desperation to stay at all costs
The time had come to tuck itself away
To end all that's been

To rise
  for another day

Crop
from the top
Cultivating down
In from the cold air
Spiraling around
to ground
Roots to
Mothers earth
Winters wreath to Springs rebirth