Wrap your arms around my golden glow
Beg for mercy in your solemn vow
On your knees I'll take you now
Never think I can't

Bumped my head
It hurt
Sick I felt
Wobbly walking home
Felt strangely light
Although day began with joyous and funny tone
Saw signs to say stay or go
Words on transport
See many times before
It calls out each time
I never know which side more for
Got in tidying up to do
Washing on
Birthday lunch for my canine pal
All the while off balance but calm
I knew you should keep awake
Though choose to rest down and lay
What was for me will be
Will stay
Either way
Belief in faith
Had no opposition or sway
Closed my eyes to drift away..
In a deepened state eyes saw my own eyes staring back at me
I saw details I didn't consciously know
Window to soul
Woke up
Friend had made eggs on toast
And off I go!..

Hearts     beat
   in     the
trees
At
our feet
Nature meets
with the shape
of
our       love

My dreams tend to be set to a theme of past emotions and pain
Maybe one day get to live with
warm loving
dreams

Each dream
Each night
So much going on behind eyes sight
At the brow
Eyes closed
Information flooding in
Tween sleep and awakening
Consciously aware
As shapes cascade from here to there
Transparency to the skin
Though structure clearly seen
Triangles
Squares
Circles
Hexagonal
Not flat in form
Life to the structures
A sense of crystalline
knowing
Bathing beneath the rim
Although not really sure of what I'm seeing
Or indeed to feel
As of now
As of yet

Attachment
Non attach
Be yourself
Don't say that
Let your heart be pure
Let shadows dance
Love yourself
Be more than that
Appreciate what you have
Strive for more
Burn with desire
Desire is flawed
Know thyself
Change your ways
Sleep the night
Wake for days
Love all
Protect your boundaries
Pray to God
Surrender on your knees
Don't over think
Learn to please
Life is connected
Full of duality
Go within
Find you
There is no one here
Embrace the darkness
Fight the fear
I tell you what I'm exhausted
Here!
But I've done nothing
today

I get homesick
Even in the many places I've lived
For a place
Not sure even exists

Even from my earliest memories always felt alone
Now I can take some comfort from that

Touch my face tenderly
My hands have gone numb

I  always  

kiss
them

   Goodnight

They tried to break my leg
Drag me down the hill
Twist it
Snap it from the shin
Woke up
a little pained

Dreams came in like
Crashing Waves
Bashing and
Thrashing against
Rocks
of
Harboured graves
Wanting to release
to
pools
of
peace

A furnace in the pit
Stirring washing over it
Churning
Whirling
Burning
Firming
Oh my insides are full of it

A pillar from core to air
Vines twisting twining intersecting overlapping pushing
under loosely thread
Tightening as they grow
Constricting
Breathing more
Air is dense
Light is the floor
Holly prickling pillow
Soft warm sinking sand as the door

She was never really gonna be understood
and that's something she came to understand

She was the type that was always moaning
But life had always given her something to ******* moan about
And
not in a ****** way either

In a can this be over now type of way

His eyes so mesmerizing
Other worlds did see
Planes of beauty
Oceans
of mystery

Kept within his vault

Unless he found someone
of which, to share
his key

Always seen as the player
But they never knew he was looking for his one

They only ever saw him behind the stories they told themselves
So he preferred to stay hidden

Feeling sick in bed
So afternoon of rest
Tea and cake in bed
Guided meditations for the head
Sleep to loosen bodies tight tread
I look rough and face has zits
No makeup face today
Sent out love and receive my own internally
I wasn't perfect anyway and that's ok
Each unique in their own blessed way
Cake was nice
Tea was sweeet :-D
Waheyyy!!!

You body was never ment to be touched from its skin
It's was ment to be unveiled from within

Sorrow met with pain
Pain met with fear
Fear turned to anger
Anger flew to hurt and hate
- Hurt met pain
Pain raged in fear
Fear retaliated back in anger and with hate
And the looped played the same

If only the misunderstandings and loathing between the sorrow and hurt had changed
It needn't replay

Love and compassion
Be the change

You don't bring me
flowers anymore
You give me roses
in my heart
The thorns are still there
but
they are beautiful
too!

When I ache
Grow tired
Afraid
God
opens my heart
to
love

Come
into
my
waves
I'll show you infinity
through
my eyes

In silent slumber the body rests
The mind adrift to shores unmet
Naked as a babe appearing as she laid
Watching its prey from the shadows
Casting its spell to freeze its victim from wake or shake
A body to overtake
To feed on the soul
A shell to leave empty scooped out hollow
This victim has met before with this kind
Shaking off when black magic enters the mind
Feel the body was about to slow
Energies force to tangle and pull
Scrabbling out of demons hell
The pit of darkness where the stricken and tormented dwell
Feeling freer now
Open eyes to prying light
A transparency in the air
Glitching twitching watching there
Eyes just stare
And I feel them looking back

Was it the sinner or the saviour
I'm sure they'll be back

If you have a gun
You have no control

Let's be honest
There's always going to be negative in the world
That's the duality of life
However with more understanding and compassion love for another and selves
The harm can be less

Immense love and bliss filled my heart
An angels kiss

****!
Cause sometimes you just need
a Good ****!

Dreams are active
Purging takes dominance
A theme centred to all else
Subconscious and conscious stirrings to where hurt is felt
Where insecurities stem and powers knelt
Wounds uncovered injury cries out
Direction to paths walked back and the steps trodden lightly this time
Attention to those muddied footprints and the remnants that stick and pull
Awareness to how the ship was bashed against heavy rocks and lessons in how to captain or how waves should course and sail the hull
Rest was busy and rather full but some sleep within this dream school

Let the pain teach me
Let the joy reach me
Let the fear soothe me
When I guide it to love

Shaking hands
Sweaty palms
Pulsating pounding heart
Not knowing whether to quit before the very start
Kept pushing the fear and doubt aside
Listened to the loving voice inside
Until it was done
And so it was

High pitch signal calling to the brain
Incoming
message
Calling
once again

Known too many different kinds of shades of blue
It need not matter
   They all died too

I was just thinking
Not about much really
What if..I'm the moon the stars the rising and setting sun
The feminine the masculine
The need to be brave the crave of nothing
The past I've been the present I am the future I'm yet to become
The witch the seer the prophesier the believer
The angel the demon the shadow the light the great divine
The carer the healer the no friend in sight the lone cold darkest souless night
The egotist the narcissist the I'm soo wrong the I'm soo right
The pragmatist the pessimist the optimist the uptight
The woman the innocent the playful childlike
The life force the serpent snake
The doubter the trust in faith
The oppressor the saving grace
The learner the teacher the mistakes made
The adult the babe
The strength the weakness the sensitive the afraid
The abused the abuser the broken the unscathed
The passionate the dreamer the practical the changed the evolved the unchanged
The human the alien race
The past lives this face this time this place
The no time the no self the shifting in dimensional space
The gloom the misery the joy the spirited taste
The source to connection the all knowing and the unknowing fate
The ending the beginning now to wait..


What if.. I am everyone everything nothing / no-one

Room is a universe
Bed is a planet
The ceiling the stars shine so close you could grab it
The energy is buzzing
Electricity powers the air
Alive with connectivity
It was heightened to share
Brain waves
Neural pathways
Signal to nebulae
Galaxies
Dark and light
Crossing cells from
day        
           unto
        the              
         night

Lying in the dry grass
I can feel the prickles on my skin
Even when I wake

Dreams of flying
Angels wings
Buffalo in open fields
Maybe in dreams need to be free

It's like the stars have gone out

Taking each and every last breath
and
not knowing
when
you
can

Breathe



again

We left them there to smolder
Intoxicating scent filling up lungs
Breathing you in to my existence
A chasm baking between bones
Heating up flames to rise higher
To melt into the sky
Memories in the ashes
to burn out . .
but
never
die

Dreams come alive
Vibrant
Exciting
Adventurous
With many meanings to find
Shapes
People
Emotions
Symbols
Signs  
It all runs vividly in mind
Taking a story and blending over bordered structured lines
Last dream someone new took their hand into mine
Good at dreaming..
at any time

I try so hard to break away
As it's not with me you want to stay
Then in dreams you come to me
Souls together in harmony
No separation between
Spirits dancing freely
Easy
Effortlessly
Melancholy on waking

Hush now
Authentic voice
Blurting out <<
There is a time and place for that
Oops!
Did
that
just
escape
from
my
mouth??
And in a professional place too!
Gonna have to keep a good eye on you
At least til your surroundings are mindfully viewed

Spilling from your body
The overflow to drain
Washing
to
the
wayside
Sediments of grain
Separation to feed again

Eyes open
to                 dark
the

Take away my innocence
My purity
If anything is left of me
Wash it away..

Phenomenal woman was she
She never bowed down to brutality
Gave all her worth
Worth was she
Keeping strong
Flying over adversity
Never fading
Embracing Divine Femininity
She met with battles
But she wore her scars like a suit of armour reflecting stars
Intact her kindness compassion and love
A spirit of a Woman
Eternal dove
Giving inspiration to those who've fallen to keep on rising
Hoping singing their bird song to the air and to the sun

Anything you can believe
you can see
A universe
of
connectivity
Swimming in
your
omni ~ sea