It's hurts so much
Another blood rush
Had enough
The pain it stains
Has me on my knees again
Shaking
Breaking
Cramping up
The mouth of ritu river
should
flow
with love
Birth to death will come and it must be honoured not covered up
The shame always brings
the wounds
fresh
cut

Moon comes up
The night comes out
The air cooler now
Resting body eyes close down
Blanket covers gentle sounds
Covers tug and veil opens surrounds
Heating up dripping brow
Hands clammy clenching round
Reaching to mop pouring pound
A lighter frown
Shaking the spill drifting around
Dreams leak with conscious mind
Boiling point hitting hard
An ocean flood from own fenced yard
Stream of elements bard
Fire burns on the skin
Inside
I'm
drenched
to
the
core



A
Drop
More

Y
an
open
letter
U
know
Y
It's heels face out from the ground
   Palms  
  to
   the     sky

In your company
Uncomfortable now
The shake up
The wake up
The want to run out
Emotions build inside
Kept in the shadow trying to bawl scream shout
Words fumble about
Eyes don't speak with the talking mouth
Eyes are wide and open a little surprised
Mouth circles around the inner wounded conflicted child
The air fogs with doubt
It's ok even if you may feel down
Right now anyhow
It's hard when thoughts and feelings sink in
You will shed
Then grow new skin
Understand it's raw sore not comforting
So step away
Soothe within
Mirrors breaking
Just a touch to cure
Just a look to view
You

I thought paradise
was some far off place
But now that I've had a taste
   I realise it's         here with you
in your warm embrace
Kiss me some more
Ohhh!..

Your eyes feel like home to me
Your gaze so adoringly
With you love is all I see
Eyes speak
Tenderly
Soul deep
Diving blissfully
Ascending to your heavenly shore

I am safe and secure
Passionate and creative
Harmonious and worthy
Loving and compassionate
Feel the air in my lungs
The beat in my heart
Sing the song
from my throat
See with my eyes wide open
Know the light
of
true being

Dangerous hearts have bled too much or not enough
Their pain and suffering or lack of
passes to the next if they seethe through bitterness
neglect
We have all been hurt and have bled but should consciously seek not to pump our blood stains into the next
We have though
Learning curve to forgive ourselves and them
We may never forget but what good does it do to feed the loop of regret over and over again
Our actions have effect
We give and get what we beget

I wish for the world to be happy
To know peace of mind
To care for one another
...
behind
Leave the worries

I've noticed
The days that could of gone
So differently

I've noticed the days that could of gone so differently

Skating on ice
Heavy bag at my side
Lighten the load
Throw it away
There it goes
Skating uphill
Lighter freeing will
Tutor from years by journeying behind
An obstacle up ahead
Blocks just around the bend
Pick them up put them away safe
As much as can now confidently skate still need to beware not to trip and land on my face or any other to hurt from not clearing up after an untidy place

Where's the tape
Just going to wrap this up
Keep the mouth shut of the thoughts
that want to come out
Driving around the bend
Can't find the end
I'll go regress instead
Slip into fetal shell
Societies feelings
So well

Get
the *****
Going on a treasure hunt
To find the treasures that are buried inside

Deeply to feel seems to be a lover of real
The beauty of love feeds the heart
Nature is not only nurture but glorious penetrative art
Though the beauty is keen so is the disgust
Sorrow is not only seen but felt it rips the soul apart
Love but love deep
Hurt if you feel but learn to know your worst
The devils tongue is sharp and the angels harp weeps
Touch for only true
Hear the blessing in the curse
Broken hearts can surely beat as two

There are many unanswered questions
A lot lies in perception
We see things as we think we see
Until maybe that sight may change
As our mind sifts through the times we have been through through the moments we have bore witness to and the future for which we may grow we see the waves and patterns from feelings breathing times of high or low
There are so many mysteries of this world some still waiting to show

It's not easy feat to be the Queen/King of Darkness
It would be sweeter to be a ruler of tranquil seas
But that's not our royal we
We rule over blackened stormy sea
Hit hard with the shards of broken glass We bleed
Our eyes see in the pitch black
We stay strong
Never knowing what will attack
We can't face away
There's no time for that
Every fear
Each Demon and ghoul must be processed
Observed it's a mirror glaring back
Been bound
Caged
In deep fright
Though we have learnt to adjust to the oncoming night
Spores spur us to go on and fight
It's survival of our world
Our life
We transmute darkness to light
make it our home
A throne
to
right

Break the cookie
Pieces fall to crumbs
Eat them all up
Every last one
Did you enjoy
Are you full
Taste was sweet but salty
You can't have more of the same one
The whole has now been
Eaten away
it's
gone

Take the drink
Sip it down
It sinks to
my
stomach
Turns the world upside
down
Sloshing
         around
Spinning      
              Churning              
Hydrat­ing within    
Letting out
with
Clearer softer smoother skin

In a slow groove
My mouth doesn't even want to speak let alone move
Energy shifts between hope and hopeless
Can see it all
Can see less
Pointing to wonderful
Feeling full of mess
Shining on the sorrow
Beauty in the destructive chaos
It's growing
Expanding
Slowly
Nevertheless

Starting the journey up the hill
Kicking the rocks
               out the way
Wow what a view they say
All this everything
leads
to
that
Oh this is easier I'm on the flat
Oh I didn't see that bend up ahead
where will it end
Round and round we go
           again
I feel I'm going
back                      
Heart pulsating think I'll have a heart attack
Stop wait
Breathe
deep
Remember it's not easy to look past but you couldn't not start you would stay stuck
Higher and Higher
The weight feels
        lighter                        
I can see what was
holding me with lack  
Take it in
                   shed
old skin
Refuel
there were lessons in the pack
Down
this
hill
lower
lower
should this be
heavier
and
slower        
I need to find my way
going to 'crack'
There's a cave up now I'm scared can I
turn
about
No I've taken each step
so
far
Into the
dark
black lair
I don't feel alone no more
but this isn't the company I want to greet
Tingling sense
eyes
on my feet
Creepy feelin'
But go I must
forwards
Keep
believing
Stepping towards
the
light

Eyes of a mother crying to her youth
Son lain on forest pile neck dressed with sharks tooth
The sea waits his lifeless body
Gone far
too soon

Woman a homemaker
Family to take her care
Dressed in seventies fashion
Long blonde wavy flowing hair
Busy in her duties
Maternal love was her worldly share

The boy the son
The woman the wife
The eyewitness the observer
The same
Just
Another life

Cry til
the tears
wash
away the
fears

Wring it
out
The sponge has absorbed the grit and the splashes from the
sink
Squeeze it
tight
And

release

The dark room makes way for the light
Sparkles flicker in the night
Smoky hue of black crawl through
Mouths wide silent scream from inside
Souls trapped in a cove
And still
the light flickers

Feathered touch soft and gentle
Tickles outside
to in
The angels messages of protection
Flown on universal
wing

When your body aches and your mind wants peace
Rest rest my child
Take the day easy
Lie down
relax
and
breathe

You can touch my heart and all can be felt
I can hear your words under your skin
Lost eyes hopes sinking in
Beautiful souls with the toughest of beginnings
Healing to love our world
A boy and girl trying our best to live
A woman now learning to grow
Each day a lesson new
Humbling life review
Backwards and forwards to be here to love you
Your love sacred held by God
A mighty embrace
Can't just fall for a pretty face
A mind that will reject my faith
I must wait for a soulful wake
To share my sacred love

What is love
Is it the outer look
Is it the desiring gaze
Is it the knowing state
Is it the lusting glaze
Is it hearts beat hard
Is it my self to know
Is it the seeing smile to inner glow
Or is it
Heart breaks deep
Is it no restful sleep
Is it the head in chaos
Is it eyes to weep
Is it broken in two
Maybe one for all
Blood turns blue
Or rivers
turn to gold

I'm dreaming again
A love that doesn't exist for me
I love myself
Obviously still not completely
but I try
Sometimes the thought of heaven
makes me die

What is love

He says I'm judgemental
He's right
At this time

Remember these moments
Cause one day
They'll be gone

He told me my opinions mean **** all to him
I said
Ok

Am I good
Am I bad
You decide

'She pretended to be hurting
Said it was caused by 'Her
'They all decided it was unfair and turned on 'Her
Unable to contemplate the reasons why 'She cried and lied
'Her case was not heard
'They wouldn't listen at first
'They realized 'She was fibbing putting the blame on 'Her
'They then blamed 'She who played grief
'She was then hurt
'She and 'Her family got angry
Anger turned on each other
'They were ok with 'Her
But not all was ok
'You had all been hurt

It's just
out
of
reach

Cause it's already
done

Broken

Falling

apart

In it's destruction I see art

Building blocks to start again

Putting on the plaster

Giving time

to

mend

Carried away
on the
crest
of a wave
Haunted souls
Floating streams
Birthed from the pool of infinity
Setting sail to the winds
Rooted in the sands
Sea of lillies
Bloom
again

Death dreams plague the mind
Am I moving forward
Or leaving it all behind

Lips tremble
with the cold and fear
Dusk has set such comfort
Shadows are at play at night
Your daylight breaks all can be seen with the charging of the light
Warmth surrounds holding me tight
Feel I've built up an appetite though deep in fright
Eyes adjust to the blossoming hue
Heat begins to rise
You colour the world now my lips are warm
Let me feel the dawn inside

Should I step forward let myself be shown
Should I dance with the beat of loves ring tone
Should I move with the rhythm of the thoughts I hold
Should I let you come to me
Should I?
Maybe I'll just wait
and see

In human
The pain comes through more than the peace
In spirit
The peace comes through
more than
the
pain

Pictures hanging on the wall
Paint brush strokes to create the scene
I wanted to purchase them all
To live the life to remember the dream
Walking away to exit the screen
Reappearing wave machine
Your partner held your hand and you just sunk to the sand
Ocean stream flowing over as you just let it be
I wasn't ready
Holding you high above the waters bellow
You held my hand and let me know your noble and humble fears
Onwards we walked to the shore hands still clasped as we talked
Calm and serene was your tone
Nightdress of light blue elegantly flowing around you
Over to the green grass you smile and laugh
I see your eyes for a moment and the image of a wise man was shared
A child as it seemed you reassured me
As all is what it should be as I move on and now grow more beautifully
As a child or whatever I will be
I feel the energy between you and me
We stop on the side to the crossing of the road
Slowly gently softly hands letting go
Still feel the magnetic sense between us as eyes open
Still now want to recall it all and not move from that space
Staring up to the ceiling as come to terms with what I was seeing hearing and feeling
Tears roll down my face and drip into my ears

What's inside
I'm dying to find out
Oh what a surprise
Will it be full of joy or something to scream about
What does it conceal
Truths left to reveal
Secrets hidden out of sight
All packaged in a box so bright
Gift tag has no name
Feel it's for me all the same
Do I hold and ponder
Or uncover the unknown wonder
I'll keep it a little longer
It strengthens prolongs the hunger
I'll know when the time is right

Breathe in
Breathe out
Deep breaths
Fill your lungs
Settle in the stomach
Lips pursed and keeping quiet
  Only..
   For so long      
       Now I'll Scream    
      Life's Woeful Wrongs
Heat and Fury
Spilling
  Strong  
   Hell of Fire
        Battle Song
Lava Melt that
which don't
belong              
In my mournful
wake

Part in sleep
Spilling out
Words of muttering something about being good enough and love
A recording to play to think of
Urge to open eyes as I vaguely recall
There in the room a red colour heart on the wall
Smiling as it fades
Was it there at all
Meditation next day gives an ******* thrall
Passion circulating within
Deeper than any touching skin
Universe what position you have me in
Felt so good
It couldn't be sin
Healing light to love
and passion
begin

Magic came
from the seeds
that grew from mud and dirt
Magic came from
humble beginnings
vulnerability
dark layering
girth
Magic came from the power to grow
and give
birth
Magic cast its spell in motion to be the potion of skies
insert
Nature's sun
flower
on
lands
green earth

The journey begins
Does it ever end
The miles left to travel
On straight around the
                          bend
To the next pasture
Again and
again                  
Wait here
               a moment
My travelling
friend

Wild or highbush
Connect to thee
Indigo berry
Yes I see
Taste
Fully

Balance

Between