A maelstrom of emotions riot within
But at this time I find my self in the eye of the hurricane.
Peace, freeing, content...
But I know it's not long before I'm attacked again by the unforgiving emotions of fear, anxiety, painful unrequited love.
The eye only stays for so long.
These turmoil of emotions sitting on the precipice
Waiting, watching, becoming antsy to assail me once more.

The loudest word
Is the silence that stands
Barely air between
Truth spoken in the eyes
a window to one's soul
To the darkest of desires
Need splayed bare
In the hooded glance
Scared of repercussion
Still wanting the chance
Haunting peace
Encompasses both
As two stand before
Between barely air
The eyes truth shares
*words not need spoke

There comes a time in life
When rules are broken
You no longer mind

A time when you feel all is lost
Only to understand
You have yet to pay the full cost  

There is a time when your heart will sing
They will just walk by
All that was confusing will then make sense

There will come a time when your soul sighs
All the pain that you have endured
Just one kiss and the heavens then begin to cry

You call me a saint
I call you  **absolution

She hangs on by a thread
Becoming old and tattered
Knowing soon it will break
Unknowing what will happen after
All her dignity her grace
Wrapped into this thread that's worn
Her strength and fortitude
Teetering on the edge
Fingers numb and bloodied
As tight as she has wound it
Just hanging on for sanity
Pain letting her know she is alive
She wants to say enough
Just let go
But her will is stronger
than this thread that binds

The sun wakes up later
The moon she's groggy in the night sky
The circadian rhythm off kilter
This time change can kiss my knickers.

They say time heals all wounds
I do not believe that to be true
Maybe time just helps build up the scar tissue
around your heart
Around your memories
I will hear a song, or see a child being held
bounced upon a knee
That's when they come rushing back
Those Damn painful memories
Of A time when you were nice
Of a time when you wanteD me
Of a time later down the roaD
When we connected again, You and me
Then it seems everything I see
reminds me of how it use to be.
Time does not heal all wounds.
Time just let's you think that.
Time messes with you
Giving a false sense of security

I do not cry in public eyes
That I just will not do
I have to continue to seem strong
Yes, strong and true

To cry in front of others
To let my emotions come into view
I cannot do that
Because once I start, it will be an ocean to swim thru

It cannot happen
The dam cannot be breached
For if it does it will show
Show that I am nothing more than human, weak

Do not get me wrong
For yes I do cry
I just do it behind closed doors
For that is my safe place
A place to weather all my storms

Love is to hear with thy heart
not thine ears and foolish mind.
Yes! Thy foolish mind!
Be still you raging beast of thoughts!  Listen with your heart.
Have your heart to still your mind.
Listen to how love calls to you.
Listen

She's too high
Petrified of heights
Standing on the ledge
Too high

It's too easy
Where's the work
Somethings not right
Too high

A little hiccup
A jarring to her senses
Still standing
Too high

A shoe has dropped
Off her foot it came
The other teetering
She's waiting

Too high

If you could see as I see
Then you could try as I could
To find the words that I do
To describe the things that I try
When I see the world that I see
When I see the world in your eyes

A lone candle sits in a dark window
It's flame dancing
Casting inviting glows
She ponders this candle
While she stands in the cold
The warmth it seems to give
To the window so alone
She wants to be there with it
She bets it feels like home
It is visible
From the snowy street
How she wishes she could go inside
Rest her frozen feet
Though this candle glows
It's flame so inviting
A transparent barrier prevents
**It is her unattainable flame

Whatever this is, it's very quintessential
Stolen glances
A brush of the skin
Whispered sweet nothings
gone in the wind
A show or two of *******
This is mine, i am man
But do not touch
When out she holds her hand
Feigning sacrifice
She wonders if you're true
She looks longingly
everytime, everytime
She dares look at you
You seem to enjoy this too much
This yo-yo of which you play
The pain and self degradation
You seem to cause her
with words you don't say
So forgive my language
It's not going to be nice
**** or get off the ***
*you may be in someone else's way

She strolls the green fields
With mist trailing in her wake
Looking for something
What she knows not

A dream pulled her
To this misty green
Searching for something
Possibly something unseen

He mounts his steed
Kicking him hard in the flanks
Racing to somewhere
Leaving the known in his wake

A dream pulled him
To mount his dark steed
Searching for something
Possibly something unseen

Into the forest they both went
Unknown to eachother
In a clearing
That's where they met

Her hazel eyes shone in the moonlight
Beneath hooded lashes dark
His steed glistening from sweat
As he dismounts in the forest dark

Unknowing what to speak
They let nature take the lead
They have found what was unseen
Under the moons twilight gleam

Rose red lips
Sink deep into calloused ones flesh
Leather hands became velvet
As he held her close to him

Their moment of ecstasy
Lasting till the twilight tall
They heeded the dreams
They heeded fates call

Her a lowly chamber maid
Him a high prince
Came together for just one night
Of the unseens presence

As I lay here now near slumber
I cannot help but start to ponder
How my heart races forward
Leaving mind in starts far corner
Heart is speeding to lust but larger
Mind just sits and questions farther
Saying yes the heart goes further
Analyzing the mind still ponders
What would happen if both meet
Would my heart see my dreams
Would my mind accept heart's follow
Or would my soul be torn asunder
Even though it's dark I'm weary
I cannot rest till both state clearly
I wish upon the stars this night
Both agree this heart and mind

She is but one facet
Sitting upon her chaise
Contemplating
the utmost unimportance of life

One piece
In this puzzle
This chasm
She strives to survive

She sips upon the liquid
Burns fire within
Attempting to quench her thirst
Of her favorite sin

Longing and heartache
The ineptitude she feels
Forever rolls around her
Her dreams stand still

Blindfold on
Hands *******
Feathery delights
Scalding touch
Deeper still
Up to the hilt
Hands on neck
Don't need to ask what's next
Breathless lungs
Come undone
Hand prints bare
Claimed what's there
Over again
So many times
No longer a sin
Galaxies collide
What a hell of a ride