Sun setting lower in the west
Casting it's last golden rays on Mother Nature's breast
Thr wind howls through the fields of grain
Flowing past where she has lain
the caw of the crow speaks softly in her ear
"I will take all of your despair"
That sealed her fate, knowing then her worth
As she let her lifeblood seep into the earth

The toll of the bell heralds in the time
1....
  2....
    3....
It's still dark out
I guess it's three am
The bell chimes again
1....
   2....
     3....
         4....
Another hour passed
I'm still awake
Pondering
Waiting
Anticipating
All for him..            
1....
  2....
    3....
      4....
         5....
Another sleepless night
over obsessed unrequitedness.

Sing for me you moon so high
Sing for me the nights lullaby
Stars come together,
form me a bed
Milky way merge, make a pillow for my head                                                          
Cr­ickets and larks do sway me soft
May slumber no longer be what I thought  lost

It is now night and I try to fall asleep
Though the days events unfold
My mind will not quit, there is no peace

The day has now played through in my mind
But no, that's not enough
Let's just see if I truly am that tough
My mind picks apart all that was said
From sun up to sundown
My heart, it hangs onto every word
Each syllable, each verse, each sound

It remembers how each one came across your lips
Looking in between the lines of all your quips
I try and tell my heart that it's foolish to look
That you're as easy to read as a children's book

My heart cannot accept that
It wants more
My mind agrees, let's see what's in store
I tell them no, we can't, not yet
*Just leave it with your shoes at the door

Black hot tar
Falls from the peak
Onto the white
marring
staining
It's stench
Overwhelms
envading
Unable to get away
The heat
acidic
Crevices made
Footholds to the plateau
gone
Sides slick
No amount of purity
grace
truth
Can wipe it clean
Welcome to the valley of life
Where all good fades
All attention given
The DISCOVERY of *Man

Today is a day
A day to remeber
A day to reflect
Those who came home
Those whom we will not forget
Either in peace time or war
At home or afar
We thank each and everyone
Who has helped keep our country strong
We are the land of the free
The home of the brave
Only made possible
By the sacrifices you all have made
Today we remember
Today is Veterans Day

Stories that never had a voice
Spoken in hushed tongue

                    we

Loves that are forgotten
Brought again back

                   we are

Laughter echoes
the halls of the mind

                       all

Turmoil and hate
Forever near

                   all we are

Tears sit
In the waiting room

                        left

Longing teeters
On the edge of lips

                      voiceless

The warmth of breath
Crystallizes in the air between

All we are left with
a voiceless
                  *symphony

Dogs are barking
Though none to be found
You're stuck in your cubicle
Devoid of all sound

The radio plays
But a voice yells in your ear
It's not part of the song
The one you know so dear

Sitting on the sofa
Just reading a book
Your names been called
You turn frantically to look

Alone everytime
You just know you're losing your mind
Perhaps you are correct
These voices say inside your head...

There is a difference between wanting and needing.
To want is to have to have it, but be able to do without
To need is to having to have it, to live, to survive
I don't need you, I want you.
My heart can still beat and I can still breathe without you.......
Right?

Sitting, staring at the document
Laid bare before me
Letters turning into words
Into jargon
My mind hurts to read
It should not be like this
The pain that accompanies
Years lost, gone
Words mocking
Words of terror
Rising anger inside
Heart breaking
*"Corey, this is as though we are preparing for war"
"We are. It has begun"
"And we are but it's pawns"....

My friend
My lifesaver
You are hurt tonight
The memory of what happened
Not far behind
You felt the tiny body
Struggle for last breath
You saw the tiny head
Crushed beneath your hands
You felt the tiny neck
Snapped in two
I am here my friend
I will hold you
Place onto my shoulders
The pain that you feel
Take comfort in my caress
Sleep so you can heal
I will cradle you in my arms
As a mother would their child
I will try my best to console
If only for a while
A simple thank you felt for you to give
My dear, no thank you necessary
That is why I am here
And in my arms I held you tight
and as the baby can no longer do
You shuddered and you wept

When I am nothing but the rain
cold, harsh, unrelenting
Will you stay?

When I am nothing but the night
dark, lonely, scary
Will you run and hide?

When I am nothing but the fire
wild, scorching, unrelenting
Will you burn with me?

Sitting upon a grassy field
Sounds of laughter around
There he sits still as stone
Eyes a glassy wonder

Again at home upon his bed
Headphones off
Staring straight ahead
Many times mom has called
Never hearing above the drone

hate
****
hurt
fear

whispers said unto his ear...

The tears come today
A dam opened
Unable to stop their accosting ways
The day approaches closer
With it seems this line
The one we erased
Drawn again
I don't know why
Painful it is to see
This white chalk line
Drawn so between
As my day approaches closer
Further away
You seem to be

Into the wild
is where she roams
Path unseen
Destination unknown
Following hearts desire
Leading her to
Blessed inner fire
Trees do sway
As she spares not a glance
at the lights play
The grasses bending
To her will
Forest creatures
Gaze standing still
For never a sight they have beheld
This woman running free
Here in the wild

The winter wind she blew hard and strong
Tearing away securities
With it, my very own heart song

She blew so hard, so fierce
Power went out all around                
Within the darkness my heart skipped precious beats

She blew this way for eternity, two days
Keeping the travelers in port
Keeping my lust, my fibrillating heart at bay

When she finally blew her last breath
All was still and bright
Except my heart, that ceased in those two nights

Emotions flying everywhere
A storm inside
Threatening to destroy all you hold dear

Tears threaten to fall from grace
First time you've seen him since that day
How beautiful it is that he is alive
After his chest you broke, but brought back to life

Tongue is pock marked with scars
Biting as you do
Not sent to ears
Words sent instead to the stars

Eyes wanting the glasses
Rose in color of course
Who wants to see anything but
Instead forced to see the masses

Ears hearing every word
Begging for deafness
From the cries of pain and joy
Instead all is heard

Mind attempting to make sense
The senses seem to be too much
Overcoming all rational thought
You scream inside, too intense

Heart beating out the seconds
Needs to be slowing
Beating faster against will
Peace is for what it beckons

I ran
Hard, fast
             away...
I ran until
breath was gone
Bending over
Head between legs
Sharp pain in my side
                                               still
I did not run enough
I cannot run
                       f   a     r
enough
He is still there
Inside my mind
                            I cannot escape him
black eyes
dark hair
His scent clings to me
So I run again
Maybe this time
This time I can
                               e  s  c  a  p  e
*him