water pooled around my ankles

Hope, Peace, Love
All beauty, all light

                  it starts to slowly creep up

Desire, Elation, Bliss

                   *to my knees, continuing it's
                  upward path
  
Dark recesses of my mind break through

                  past my hips, to my abdomen
                  dark, stagnant water

Venomous thoughts start to flow as the water rises
Greed, envy, lust, hate

                  my chest, hard to breath,
                   the weight....

Hope, despair, Peace, chaos, Love, hate
Not strong enough! Not good enough!

                   my chin,
                    start gasping for breaths

desire, Lust, elation, Remorse

                  submerged now
                   dark, murky water
                  air bubbles of light slip
                   from my mouth

Darkness may have won this time, but there is still light left to fight

                 *don't breathe.........

There is a certain scent that comes after a spring storm
Completely different from the fall and winter. They have a hidden scent of fresh olives and decay with a touch of crispness in the air.

But the spring and summer storms. Their scent. Tantalizing, electric, chaos. I can smell the verbs after the storm. They play with my olfactory senses so well. Teasing, taunting. Open your mind, they say. Let us play with your demons they start coaxing. We shall set your pheromones loose. Help you to lose your control. Let go of the past. Open your heart to what is sitting in front of you. The verbs are calling. I am losing my control.
*I shall open myself to the chaos.

Hush sweet poet, don't say a word
Even though it's all as you heard
If it pains you enough to write
Get it out now so you'll sleep tonight

Hush sweet poet, don't you cry
Tomorrow again your heart can fly
If it can't, don't worry so
It will happen again, this I know

Hush sweet poet, in your heart you'll keep
All those secrets buried deep
Keep in mind they'll drive you insane
Best to get them out today....

Little girl, let's take a walk
You and I, a little tete a tete, yep we need to talk.  

Little girl, such dreams you have
They don't play out they way you wish they had

Oh little girl, such mountains you want to climb
It'll be ok. You'll slip and fall but reach the peaks in time

Little girl, please look at me and see
You won't end where you think you should
You'll end up where you need to be...

Erotica will never seem so sinful
True love will never be so heartbreakingly beautiful
When two have lain like we have....
We divulged secrets prior to,
All but said it is only you.
Then with a mighty flex of your hand, you took me to new heights
Upon my mind you did expand.
Together we've lain but not like this.
I shall not soon forget.

Time does not stop
Forever the clock
               Tics......
                            To­cks.......
But for a moment
Time stood still
The cadence
Of the clock ceased the
                  Tic.......
                              ­Tock.....
Then morning came all too soon
Time sped up
The clock raced in its
                   Tic......
                              To­ck......
Time never truly stopped

Dogs are barking
Though none to be found
You're stuck in your cubicle
Devoid of all sound

The radio plays
But a voice yells in your ear
It's not part of the song
The one you know so dear

Sitting on the sofa
Just reading a book
Your names been called
You turn frantically to look

Alone everytime
You just know you're losing your mind
Perhaps you are correct
These voices say inside your head...

Kiss my lips
Make them tingle for days
Slide your tongue in
Take my breath away

Grab my hair
Fist it in your hand
Forcefully expose my neck
Remind me why I'm ******

Take me as your lover
If only for tonight
Kiss me until I beg for mercy
Make me lose my fight

I know I was quiet last night
Don't think to much into it
I really had no desire
To retell my day, my week
Finally I was falling asleep
Then when you rolled over
And cuddled me tight
Memories came flooding back
Cut like a knife
It startled me awake you see
Been a while since you just held me
Didn't know where exactly I was
Thought maybe everything had been a dream
That maybe the marriage didn't fall
Angry I became
Then I heard the whir of your machine
I knew then, this was real
After the memories subsided
I eased back into you
That's when I felt right again
It felt right, brand new
Then the hours passed quick
My alarm went off, time to split
I awoke with you holding me tight
Have to go, but this feels so right
Never before have I felt this good
Even with him I couldn't handle his touch
Last night though and this morn
It finally felt as it should

He told me the butterflies never last
That they are nothing more than pheromones
That they last only for a few months

I beg to differ
There are still butterflies
They wreak havoc inside
Everytime I hear his name
See his face
Feel his touch

It has been months
I still have them
What does that say....

The butterflies left
Not long after "I do"
They haven't left with him
What does that say about you?

I see fire
Rising from the funeral pyre
Watching the smoke waft into the air
Creating shapes and forms
of once what was there
The fire burning an unnatural way
Searing into my soul
Saying goodbye
To what was once new now old
Ten years past
The flames rise higher
The smoke thicker
The love that once was
Burns the night sky
No longer trying to come back
Knowing defeat it succumbs to the fire
Sparking a new flame
Somewhere in the soul hidden deep
The smoke rising to the heavens
Upon the stars wishes meet
the love of old gone in the ash
A new love now burns
The heavens clash
Raining down embers of long ago past
Sparking anew the hearts of two

One lover
Two lovers
Three lovers
Down

Four lovers
Five lovers
Six lovers
Bound

Beneath my feet.
Laying broken
upon the ground

One lover remains

Number seven in all
Think I'll keep him in my back pocket
Never know when I'll
need another go around

My darkness wants to play
"Find a victim" it says
"He who has no sin may cast the first stone"
But my darkness does not care
Her craft she wants to hone

There is one who has sinned
Broken hearts unable to mend
How shall my darkness proceed
Knives and axes are a must
She must complete the deed

Take this one down without fight
My darkness revels in this might
Tie the one up and then proceed
A cut here and there
Done when the heart stops its beat

My darkness is once again sated
She is the one who feels the hatred
It is as though nothing is how it seems
Wake up, sweat covered
It was all just a dream.....

Chaos
Lightening
Amorous
Innocent
Melt

The **CLAIM is ours!

Your nails are as red as blood stain
Stained by the blood of many who's heart you've ripped out
Stepped on, crushed
All unbeknownst to you
You leave love there in them
to decay, rust
Leaving the rest of us to clean up the wreckage  you made
This ungodly mess of blood and rust
We must hurry to do so, clean up this chaos
Before their hearts all turn to *dust

One....
  That'll be me
       halo sitting all askew

Two....
   Yeah, that's you
        your halo lost somewhere

Three...
    Come on in here with me
         no halos anywhere to be seen

That's right
  You, me, and he

He's fun to play with
   *Yeah, the devil makes three

How can I tell you that you have been my rock? My shoulder to lean upon though not physically here. How can I say that I value you more than I can ever express. That when I am down whether or not you know, you bring me cheer. That when I called to you and said please don't leave and you answered with I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere. I knew then that I was in trouble, that I'd be hard pressed to not have you in my life again. I don't think I'll let you see this. I just don't think I can. I don't want to ruin what we have. I can't bear the thought of losing you my lover, my friend. You are my rock, my devil in disguise. My teacher and lover with obsidian eyes. You're better than you think. I just wish I could let you know. Again I'll never let you see this, I just can't let you go.

Not as high as I usually go today
Still high enough that I
could.....
             slip
                       fall
Become no more
I will not do that today
Today I will fight my demons
Today I will not
              slip
                         fall
Those **** demons
Promises of peace
just.....
               slip
                         fall
Down inside that crevice
But that would hurt
They say it won't    
Their voices stronger
louder
Promises of no pain, eternal peace
just......
               slip
                         fall
Demons lie
I need to get off this mountainside

Your tongue is that of a double edged sword
The pain you cause my mouth makes me beg for more
As you leave your mark down my body
The trails visible
The blood that follows slowly drips down
You speak of lust only for me
But bid me leave
after my body you've left broken to bleed
Oh how I love your double edged sword
It may hurt
But I'll take more

A temple has been built
For the lost and broken
A shelter from the storm
Of feelings abound
A way to escape one's own misery
To find just the thing to keep them going
Words alight on a page
Seeming to write themselves
A trance like meditation
In this temple that's been built

Lost my nerve
That's what I did
Not enough liquid courage
to fully admit

Parents stopped by
No warning in sight
Thank God it was morning
Not last night

Still no true definition
Guess there may never be
Our words to each other
Spread apart as the seas

Told you tell the whole truth
Nothing less, nothing more
When asked was I how to explain
After they walked out the door

Said wasn't worried
They haven't said a word
Thanks for clarification said I
Yeah, this line is still blurred..

This is one that is true macabre. It may offend some. But in lieu of Halloween...*

Tears fall like rain
Hidden behind black veils
the pungent stench of flowers and incense
Assail the church
Finger paintings and beloved toys
Lay haphazardly inside
"I miss you"
"Please wake up"
"Open your eyes"
The priest performs the final rite
Holy water in the sign of the cross
Hymns are sung
Silence now abounds
Broke by the wail of the mother
"Dear God let him open his eyes!"
Back at home she sits
Upon her child's bed
Clutching his pillow tight
Inhaling his scent
Then he appears
As healthy as before
But there is a gleam in his eyes
Joy turns to fear once more
He crawls into her lap
Looks up and smiles
"My eyes are open now mommy"
Only then does she look into his eyes
They are not the eyes of her child
Now a black abyss
And as he slits her throat
He gives one last childlike kiss

No one will see me break
                        i break behind closed doors
No one will see my tears
                          i keep those locked away
No one will see my anxiety
                           i hide it well with a smile
No one will hear my words
                            i lace them so carefully
No one will ever know
             *but you have broken my defenses
                               and delved upon my soul

I stand naked before you
My body and soul laid bare
Upon my hands I  hold my heart
And this I gift to you
I only implore one simple wish    
This gift that I give
It is fragile and easy to break
Please, handle with care.