Kaiden

Kaiden Jul 7

Lie to me
And tell me you love me,
While both of us know
You don't.

idk i feel like my writing is getting so much worse but im too tired to care

Kaiden Jul 7

pathetic

is it pathetic,
that the only way i can deal with your words
is hurting myself?

an argument
that you'll forget about in 15 minutes,
leaves scars on my body
that will last forever.

apologies don't erase the damage, especially if it's physical, and i don't care if i sound like a **** rn but she should ******* understand that

Kaiden Jul 5

Suicide

A quick, (not) painless way
To abandon all of your struggles.
An attempt to feel special, they say,
While in reality it's so much more.

They say only a coward would do it,
But i tried to take the life
Of the child i once were,
And the adult i could become.

So im alive i guess.... I can't really write that well yet but at least I have a boyfriend now so maybe i won't **** myself, i dunno

#suicide

Jul 2

Lostling

What is the meaning of life?

From young, we play--
Tiny hands, big dreams

Then they hand us books,
And say, study hard.
Why?
So we can work in the future.

Why work? To enjoy.
Then work more
To enjoy a little more.

A loop,
Endless and spinning

So I say good riddance!
I denounce this life and laugh in its face.
It has no meaning.
Not unless you give it one.

The world can give you a hundred reasons.
But none of them are yours
Write your own answer.

Life is a tool. What will you do with it?

#life #philosophy #questions #answer #purpose #meaning #answets

Jun 29

Liana

Me

I am so much
I am too much
Too much everything
Clingy
Intense
Quiet
Loud
And I’m simultaneously somehow
Still not enough

Even though I just had a good time with a friend, I still feel like ****. I don’t understand why I’m like this. I hate myself.

Kaiden Jun 28

Dead by tomorrow

I lay in bed,
Knowing i'll be dead by tomorrow.
The air is cold as always,
Gently brushing against my blood-stained skin.

The regret slowly starts slipping into my mind,
Yet i lay there,
Unable to move.
I stare at my body,
Knowing i was the cause of my own death
(Or was i?)

I let someone in,
Now i leave this world by myself,
Over a few stupid decisions,
Interactions that should have never happened.
I'm sorry.

this doesnt make any sense but i hope the message is clear enough

#suicide

Jun 26

Limes Carma

I Guess I Never Got To Cry About You

I didn’t want to fall apart mid-sentence,
So I said less and asked more questions.
Tuned out love songs, skipped our street —
I made avoiding you look complete.

I smile and nod when your name is mentioned,
As if it doesn't pull me out of the conversation
They throw it around casually, like it's not cutting right through —
I guess I never got to cry out about you.

#heartbreak #grief #lettinggo #closure #emotionaldistance #unsaid