Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
jude rigor Sep 2017
earth tone
trepidation:
we open the
hood to find
only dirt
and molting
feathers.

our wine
speak lazy
tongue
love decl-
aration rolls
into Morning
(MOURNING)
After silent
closing
gaze.

disconn-
ect your staaa
tic eyes and
restaaa
rt the engine
before the
crows can
voodoo speak
their way back
up.
oldie
jude rigor Sep 2017
overshare
sad *****
pretty in
profiles
ignore
everyone
you feel
empty
no one else
can feel
fire on skin
post about
it online
though
HA MY MOOD SWINGS ARE BAD LATELY i miss my love he needs to come home im going even crazier. i'm listening to the song 'kyoto' by yung lean on repeat and it's a Big Mood
jude rigor Sep 2017
disembodied:
flowers with thorns
sensitive skin
i don't cut myself
these are from
holding everything

do i even exist?
i hope not
my forehead is cold
i'm shaking
car window down
the sun looks so pretty
as it rises
traffic, drifting,
i think i'm falling
asleep

at the wheel
my doctor is rl cunty about having ADD and didn't care that i have a huge *** cyst in my ovaries and told me i've over reacting about chronic pain p much so yeah **** her
jude rigor Sep 2017
i feel like
some *******
sad ***** bella swan
hearing your voice
somewhere between
alone and together
where i keep
my other selves:

lacking luster
so empty
alone girl
seeing visions
in a bad book
where the
world is
made for
her

except i'm
smart enough
to know i
was already
this way
before you
came around.

don't call me lost
when i've already
found myself
empty

don't *******
tell me
this is
healthy
im currently coping with extreme random anger lol at least i got poems outta it
jude rigor Sep 2017
mountain patio
laughing tremble gut feel-
ing, we're dancing and
you hold onto my hand
familiar scent of pine
cigar smoke in our eyes
men don't scare me here
smiling at you
music, forever
echos through
the forest
and this
short breath slows
secrets scribbled on napkins
in a fancy bathroom...
... whisper and hot mouth-
our friendship
is yellow and
soft
i'll always love the beatles.

night so dark i'm scared it
might end
   gold light in your hair
driving home to
a lake of obsidian and fire
        rose quartz flowering from our backs
              i miss you
          we dive into a painting of the sky
                 water is warmer
i once had a really good summer before i used to get super manic and empty in summer and yeah we went to this post celebration for a golf tournament they host every year in memory of my deceased uncle, they have a band that does beatle covers and it's in between mountains and there's old people smoking cigars and for some reason i'm never afraid to dance there
jude rigor Sep 2017
my heart itches
hates wanderlust
and fake poetry

picked at fingers
fight among themselves
****** and tired
under the table

i don't know if i was born
with a self destruct option
or if it just appeared in
the right moment
and knew i needed
something

****, i'm not atlas
i'm not metaphor:
my shoulders
hurt

let me sleep
this 'not everyone has ____ susan' tiny series makes me giggle when i write the title
jude rigor Sep 2017
tired grin
    over
pink sunset
dead boy nervous
  hand tickles my aching
spine... our coffee is bitter
  and shivering,
but we are both so
happy in this second
            dragging into another:
                    i can nearly taste
                    the ability to forget
                                   in      between.
**** this is a memory of me when i was 16 waking up at 4am to make it from our somewhat nice motel in florida to disney world and drinking coffee for the first time with my dad while he chain smoked all the way there.
Next page