"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be."
This right here
Is what I think about everyday
Since you've been back
Out of nowhere
Your bright appearance teases a smile
I convinced myself that you'd never come back
Alone and broken
For what seemed like a century
I had no way of knowing
That you missed me
Or even thought about me
And I've wondered about it
About what's going on
On your side of the wall
And so I think about this quote
But I'm scared
That I might be misinterpreting this situation
What if it doesn't mean anything at all
I want to say things to you though
But I find myself in the wrong position
I think
She just missed talking to me
Simple
That's all
But she had to have pulled guts out of somewhere
To start talking to me again
She made that move
What if she's waiting for me to make mine
And what if I make her wait too long
Is there such thing as too long
If its Love
But somewhere inside of me
I think I know that
She doesn't want me back
She just wants someone to talk to
And I love being that person
I get so happy talking to her
It's a confused kind of happy
A happiness that I can't stop
It's unconditional
The thought of trying to step up
To a next level
If there even is one
Is picking my brain apart
It hurts not knowing what to do
I have to figure out something
I don't want to sit back
Small talk is running out
I want to explore your mind
I want to deepen this new start
But I feel like that's not my place
I feel like its your call
I feel insecure about what I do
Ever since that last act
But the only thing I can think of is to go slow
And see what happens
Start out as little as possible
And then inch toward some kind of goal
It's come to a point where I wonder if we'll talk today
And then you text me
For how many days in a row now
And that tells me something
I don't know if that something is true
Maybe I shouldn't think into anything
I always think too much
Stop thinking too much
Just shut the **** up about it

I get all the girls, all the girls,
i get all the girls, all the girls
I save all the hoes, all the hoes
i save all the hoes, all the hoes
I cant find me no women...
no women..
I couldn't save no women...
-Diary of a PsychoSuperhero

I have a disease
It's nickname's MS
Take a look at my brain
All you'll see is a mess
Catch me on a good day
You'd swear nothing is wrong
But it pops in my head
Like a reoccurring song
Legions on the left side
Legions on the right
Wakes with me in the morning
Sleeps with me at night
When it gets mad
Oh, it lets me know
It takes over my body
Likes to put on a show
Maybe can't walk
Maybe can't see
This is just a taste
Of life in misery
The pain hits quick
Within a blink of an eye
Just before you know it
My body says its goodbye
Everybody's watching
But no one can speak
I hate to put them through this
I hate to see them weep
Such an awful tragedy
Has came into my life
I wish my hands would listen
And grab the fork and knife
When will it stop
The MS will decide
As of right now
It's an inevitable ride
Give me my steroids
All the drugs I can get
I need the pain gone
And for my mind to forget
My mind thinks clearly
While my body shuts down
As I lay here and watch
All my body parts drown
Waiting for the day
When I'm back in control
It can take my body
But never take my soul
We sit here and wait
Cause that's the game
Experience one episode
You'll never be the same
Then the day comes
My pain, it subsides
My body, my brain
Starts to coincide
I'll have to relearn
Things I've been taught
This part right here
Makes me distraught
Sooner or later
I'll be back to me
That wouldn't be possible
Without the Tysabri
For now I have something
To help me get through
Forget for a while
What I know is true
Then I start thinking
"I'm winning the fight!"
"I'm beating MS!"
"I'm feeling alright!"
Then I start questioning
How could this happen to me
Which life I live
Is my reality?
I woke up this morning
And I can't tie my shoe
Here it goes again
Da ja vu.

I'd love to taste some lips
Graze my hips
And kiss my fingertips
Be my tether
Float me like feather
Make me better
And I'll let you keep me
*Forever

Die
Once,
Live
Forever!!!!!

The bread crumbled in your fists
'But, I made that for you.'
Your grimace made me wince
You threw it on the ground
And you spit on it
You spit on the bread I had baked
For you
2 years ago
And you called me pathetic
Because I had baked you bread
And I cried, because,
You made me feel pathetic
Later that night,
You gave me a ring on the phone,
And you apologized
But what you didn't realize,
Was that I had already
Burned my hands
From placing them on the oven
In a sense
I couldn't feel my fingers,
I couldn't feel anything
All I knew was that I would not bake again