J - Hello Poetry

J Sep 2016

I only knew you for a week or so
But I fell hard and fast
I see you have someone new
I wish I was enough back then
So it could have been me
That you were are with

She got into a relationship according to Facebook

#relationship

J Aug 2016

Anxious

I feel it too often,
I think too much,
Maybe I'm not as nice as I think,
Or maybe I am just too much.

#anxious

J Jul 2016

Why isn't it easier?

Having written down,
All I have ever felt,
Why isn't the pain
Or loneliness any easier

It feels like I am on loop,
But going through it all faster,
Feels like an implosion is pending,
Not sure if I can cope again

#alone #loneliness #coping #easier

J Jul 2016

Disbelief

If I wasn't brave tonight,
I wouldn't have been where I was tonight.

But then weeks ago, I wouldn't have met you,
I wouldn't have held your hand.

But I wouldn't have felt my heart beat faster,
When I saw you with another guy tonight

#brave #heartbeat #tonight #disbelief

J Jun 2016

Giving In

I am not the person I once was,
The nice and naive, can't survive in London,
It opens a world of hurt and being used.

If the world is going to treat me this way,
I will be the heartless person this city requires,
I just need to get all of this it out of my system.

I am so lost in this life of mine right now,
If I hurt you I don't mean it,
But my current path needs this until I find my way again.

#lost #hurt #drinking #naive #london

J Jun 2016

Played

That's exactly how I feel,
I didn't try enough the relationship before,
Maybe I tried too hard this time.

Perhaps I couldn't help myself,
When I looked into those eyes,
But I feel there's someone else.

Falling for someone hurts,
Maybe they play the game,
But mostly you are just a toy

#love #hurt #toy #played

J May 2016

Enchanting

There is something words can't describe,
You are my type but it's more,
I want to open up your shyness.

Something I know I have to work at,
I know that I could easily fall for you,
It's been so long since I felt this way.

I need to fight but I just don't know how,
My emotions won't win but it's hard to ignore,
How hurt you can make me feel

#feelings #hurt #emotions #type #special