J - Hello Poetry

J May 2016

I have no right to feel like this,
But how dare you cancel on me again,
I know we aren't together,
But it hurts when you do.

#dating #single #cancelled

J May 2016

Waiting

I am waiting for that day,
The day when everything makes sense,
So many days alone,
Too few days of content.

Waiting till my thoughts,
All my experiences,
Come together,
To feel more complete than any day before

#content #thoughts #together #waiting #everything #experiences

J Apr 2016

Lost

I am a good guy
Who is just a little lost,
In love,
In work,
In life.

Trying to be happy,
Just wears me down,
Some ups,
But mainly downs,
Doesn't mean I'm excused for how I was to you.

#lost #tired #notmyself #goodguy

J Mar 2016

Love vs. Loyalty

I believe there is someone for everyone
The perfect person, that fits like a glove
Everyday a surprise, making the boring, fun
But how do you know?

If I married you tomorrow,
How do I know I can't do better?
Love is strange.....
How do you know?

After years together, through thick and thin
Would it just be loyalty? To stop me moving on
Fear of the world without you? Being my blanket
Or are you someone I can tolerate life with, until the 'one'?

I still don't understand love... Maybe I never will. Do I like passing time with you? Or are you truly my 'one'

#love #thoughts #loyalty

J Feb 2016

Not Myself

I haven't been around for months now,
Not the person I was born to be,
Taking it out the those who help,
And those who are around.

A disruptive path,
Damaging everyone around,
The ones who fully don't understand,
Personal pride being the issue.

Alone is what I need to be,
To grow up and out of this shell I have formed,
Now I have to prove I'm not wrong,
Battle to be the person I want to be.

I have been such a **** to someone nice

#depression #battle #sorry #pride #notmyself

J Jan 2016

Used

Some days I don't notice,
But over and over,
I'm the blanket,
You don't want to throw,
I'm always there to pick you up,
That's all I have ever been,
Picked up and used when your down.

#blanket #used #safetynet

J Jan 2016

Personal Issues

In the city of London
Of which I dwell
Thousands of faces
All with issues like my own

Everyone trapped in their world
I wonder if they seek comfort
By a circle of love and friendship
Or a circle of emptiness all on their own

I block everyone out
My friends mean well
And want to help
But I feel like I need to do this alone

Might get fired from work

#love #life #alone #friendship #stress #london