Maybe sometimes it feels like everyone's against you.
But you keep trying to mend your shattered pieces to keep walking down these roads without dropping anything too valuable.
So you keep asking yourself if this life is really worth it.
It is.
But you keep wondering because you feel so alone.
Maybe it's because you can't seem to get the shards back in the right places so you end up bleeding out.
Save yourself.
Be the light.
Stop letting the darkness swallow you whole.
And you think to yourself, if this life has taught me anything, it's that no matter how alone you are, no matter how far gone you think you are, there will always be light.
Find the good in the bad.
Make your own history.
And maybe in the meantime you'll find yourself along the way.
But believe me when I say, everything will end up okay.

Maybe i was never cut out for this life.
I keep finding myself wanting to feel the blade of the knife.
I guess for me it was just all about love.
But now i know i never was and never will be enough.
Yeah i know i just want everyone to be happy.
But i can't help but feel that it will never happen unless they do it without me.
Spent all this time trying to be a better me.
Only to find that i'm losing my sanity.
Now i'm left wondering if there's any hope?
Or should i make a noose and let myself hang from the rope.
Letting all my dreams wither away.
The ones who touched my heart, i'll hope to see them again someday.
So as i try my best to win the war with my mind,
I'll just wish that i'm not running out of time.

As the years go by i can feel my heart getting colder.
Sometimes they pass through and take the time to warm it up, but it never lasts long.
I always hoped to find love, but i'm just growing older.
And feeling like everything i do and say is wrong.
Maybe consistency wasn't always for me, but wandering down staggered roads isn't easy either.
Yeah i guess my mind changes like the weather.
But what's there to change if you feel those embers?
I know i'm nothing special, so i guess that's why it's so easy for them to walk away.
So i'll keep my heart filled with hope and wait for my 'someday.'

How painful is it really?
To feel alone.
To feel broken beyond repair.
To feel nothing at all.
When the numbing sets in it's hard to tell.
Is there really a path that will get me out of this cycle?
It's hard to believe in anything anymore.
And i will never be worth anything.

And I guess it's just comforting.
To slip back into my old ways of feeling nothing.
I guess having someone by my side was never meant to be for me.
And I guess it doesn't really bother me that I'm wandering through life alone.
Yeah sometimes it gets cold.
But smooth seas never made great sailors.
So I guess it's time to see what life has in store for me.
While I try to stay strong as I try to keep my dignity.

I guess you just made me feel what i thought i'd never feel again.
Maybe that's why i find myself thinking, what if we could be more than friends.
But i'm not in my right mind.
I think i ****** it up again this time.
I don't blame you if you never want to be by my side.
I hope whatever we had didn't get washed away in the tide.
Was there something there?
You made my heart sing, but i'm unsure if you care.
And i guess i'll always be left searching.

The walls i built around me have been slowly crashing down.
I have nowhere left to hide, i guess i just want to be found.
By someone who really cares, a soul with kaleidoscopic eyes.
I promise to stay by your side, even through the tides.
But wandering on my own is becoming all i know.
So i'll keep stumbling through the haze, and try my best to grow.
But these brittle bones are growing tired in this cold.
I guess i'm just not good enough to fit into your ideal mold.
So i'll keep my hopeful eyes fixated on finding inner peace.
While i struggle to find my sanity hoping these new friends won't leave.
They say that brighter days are always ahead.
I just hope they're right.
Because lately it's been hard to make it through the night.

And it feels like i'm drowning.
Sometimes the light shines through to brighten these dark days.
But it's mostly overcast.
I don't think i'll ever find anything that will last.
No one ever stays so i guess this might pass.
Oh, what i would give to breathe easily again and rid this burden from my shoulders and chest.
I guess i should bury the memories and not worry about the rest.
Maybe the problem is me.
Maybe that's why i'm always left in the dark, trying my best not to lose my sanity.
But what's really breaking is my heart.
I'm still hoping not to completely fall apart.
Yeah i guess sometimes it seems like there's hope for me.
But you gave me that first taste of what i need.
And i'm starting to become weary searching for something real.
I'm at a loss and i just want my internal wounds to heal.
So i'll try to swim so i don't go under.
As i continue to search for my thunder.

Searching for a happy start, or is it closer to the end?
Kingdoms crumble.
Here comes the storm.
The one you've been trying to avoid.
But it's not coming in full force.
No.
This time it's lingering.
Waiting for the perfect time to burn everything to the ground.
So keep what makes you smile close to your heart.
In these times you'll need it.
There are no saviors here.
Trust no one.
Can you get out of this pit?
I know you're strong enough, you just don't want to do it alone.
Your morals are withering away.
Maybe that's why you're so far from okay.

Trying to find my sense of direction.
What am I doing? I guess I just crave that connection.
We became more distant than before so I thought you closed the door.
I feel I don't deserve anything anymore.
Only feeling wanted in the minds of the intoxicated.
I guess everything just got lost in translation.
Maybe lonely hearts just need more reassurance.
And in the back of my mind I don't feel like I'm worth it.
But I know for me the embers are still there.
I know I'm a mess so I don't blame you if you don't care.
If only I could just get things right.
And not take the risk of ruining anyone's night.

Trying my hardest not to think about the end.
But there's no hope for me, no hope to mend.
Unwanted everywhere i go.
Why the **** do i have so much hope?
I guess i just need to let go.
Of everything, and not let my feelings show.

Fear is around every corner.
And maybe it always was.
Maybe that's why I made myself forget.
Maybe that's why I was so easily convinced of everything.
Well there's no one I can turn to anymore.
And I just want to give up.
I just need to love and be loved.
But in the back of my mind I'm still not sure if it'll be enough.
There's no saving me.
But I wish I could have been smarter.
And not allowed anyone to dictate my life.
When all I ever needed was a lover.

All the good is withering away.
I don't even care if anything will turn out okay.
What's there left to lose when you're nothing but alone?
I can't tell if I'm melting or turning to stone.
I guess I just wasn't cut out for this.
Doubt I'll ever get to taste your kiss.
I want to leave this place I know I won't be missed.
But with little hope and no direction,
Where do you go when all you have is your own reflection?
My mind is working against me,
I'm so ******* lost I can't even see.
So I'll keep trying to be a better me.

The pain comes and goes, but this time feels worse.
I don't know where I'm headed but I can't help but feel cursed.
It feels as though I'm stuck at rock bottom.
Will I ever find my way? This is becoming a problem.
Feeling like a waste of space.
I wish I could pick myself up because I know this isn't the case.
So I'll keep on trying to find someone to love.
But deep down I don't know if I'm enough.

Maybe I'm just a bad person.
Maybe it's because I'm selfish.
But when you're mostly alone it's hard to figure out what to do.
Always feeling like an outsider.
Even in the places I should feel at home.
When will the ridicule end?
Maybe that's why I make questionable life choices.
And do things that aren't me.
The path is still blocked and there is no key.

Finding hope in improbable places.
I guess I should start doing up my laces.
Get ready to run, hopefully the destination is near.
Because what's coming and going is mostly fear.
Have I really stumbled upon some true friends?
I don't know for sure but I'm starting to mend.
Not as focused on all of what's shattered me.
I just hope I don't fade away completely.
And now it seems I have more hope than before.
While I'm hoping that they won't close the door.
It's thanks to them that I'm not dead on the floor.
How could I ever ask for more?

When you're flirting with death it's hard to realize what's really going on.
Yeah i'm trying to be strong.
But everything i do and say is wrong.
You had a place in my heart but i thought you were deceiving me.
Now nothing pleases me.
Walking down this barren road.
Trying to mend my heart of stone.
It seems i only feel for those who can save me.
But i'm unwanted in this reality.
I wrote beautiful words for you,
but erased them in fear for what you would say or do.
Yeah i think i still feel for you.
But i try to distract myself because i don't know if you want me in the room.
Maybe i'm not cut out for this.
I fall too hard and try to resist.
It's a pathetic fallacy how you made my heart sing.
If i could i would give your heart wings.
But i'm too weak.
Maybe i'm in too deep.
Or am i?
When all you try to do is forget the good.
It's hard to focus on the things you should.
Yeah your smile and words melted my wounds and shards.
But i feel like happiness is too far.
I craved your touch as well as your presence.
Now i'm left pondering on the essence.
Are you really what i need?
It seems like it to me, or so it seems.
But i'm caught up in the negativity,
oh what i would give for this to all be just a bad dream.
But you made the sun shine, even though we both know i'm running out of time.
And even though i know i'm hopeless, i'll still be happy if i have you by my side.

And isn't it ironic? To crave the things you hate?
Being an alcoholic who can't stand the taste of it's nectar?
To be an addict who can't handle the bittersweet taste?
To be addicted to the very people who want to get rid of you?
But when you're given the low road, you're left chasing the high.
It's not usually attainable, but please try your best to survive.
And i know you don't want to just be alive, you want to live a life that counts.
So please try your best, because i know you don't believe in what's in the clouds.
And i know i'll never come close to anything real.
So i'm stuck losing my dignity and making ****** deals.
While i'm drowning in this mess and trying to find someone or something real.
Trying my best to heal.
Yeah my lips are still sealed.
I don't know where i'm going, or in which direction i should make my way.
I'm just trying to mend this mess day by day.
Failing to cut out the liars and the fakes.
Realizing that it's only my life at stake.
So why is it my time to leave, is this all fake?
I keep love in my heart, just waiting to let it out in just the right place.
But it seems no one wants to fully open the gate.
I'm damaged beyond belief, when the **** am i gunna find my place.
Not only in this world, but in the eyes and hearts of others.
I guess i can be vicious, but all i really need in life is a lover.
But when your hopes are too high you start to question your worth.
I guess you set me up for failure because i thought i knew love but i really only loved you first.

Deception around every corner.
Where am i going?
There's nowhere to hide.
No salvation.
No saviors.
My world is crumbling before my eyes.
And there's nothing i can do to piece it back together.
What happened to being real?
Yeah i'll keep my lips sealed.
As for connections, there are none here.
Seemingly friendly faces masked in seemingly good vibes with the help of beer.
Yeah i know my life is unclear.
I wish you never left because i need you near.
I can't get too close without losing my dignity.
But here i am stumbling around timidly.
Yeah i act like i can handle this.
But when you're alone, it's hard to escape being tricked.

Am i even remembering things clearly?
I trusted you, now i'm not so sure i want you near me.
I guess i set myself up for failure with all of these problems.
But it's hard to escape them, i'm just trying to find a way to solve them.
How can i go on when no one is true?
I hate being alone, i myself never really knew what to do.
While i'm drowning in whatever i can get to keep me sane.
I'm just trying to fix things, and forget about all these petty games that bring only pain.
As i try to hold my head high while mostly bottling it up inside,
I'll just hope i can make it through this mess i call life.

It seems I'm destined to be an outcast.
Why can't anything ever last?
I'm probably just too focused on the past.
I feel like I'm ready to make this breathe my last.
But the reality of it is that I don't wanna die.
I'm just so ******* sick of fake friends and lies.
I know that giving up is pathetic.
But lately I've been feeling the opposite of copacetic.
But when you're always left wandering alone,
You start losing hope for ever finding home.
I wanna get up and live the life of my dreams.
I don't need much just use your key.
Searching for someone to unlock my heart.
But it seems again I'm falling apart.
What makes this time different is I'm a little bit stronger.
So I'll get up again and try a little bit longer.

Maybe it's the loneliness that's ******* me up.
Or maybe it's the fact that i'll never be good enough.
All these passersby, making their way through these blurry nights.
Is this how it's supposed to be?
It's just my fate it seems.
Walking around with my heart on my sleeve is harder than it seems.
Dodging every bullet to try not to break again.
I'll try my best to make it past these bends.
As i keep my eyes glued to the floor to hide my reflection.
While i'm searching for my sense of direction.

I need a way out.
Any way out.
Always being led astray.
Never seeming to be okay.
Everyone's concerned about their own gain.
I guess i was just too focused on the pain.
But i do have a kind soul, at least i'd like to think.
I just want everyone to be happy, i'll scribble in ink.
So if the curtains closing,
I'll continue hoping.
For things to work out for the best.
And maybe focus a little more on myself, and a little less on the rest.

Coming closer to the end once again.
I guess i shouldn't have bothered with trying to have friends.
When everything around you seems so dark.
It's hard to not want to share your heart.
But as i continue to fall apart.
I'll try my best to make these days a little less dark.
Are these problems all in my head?
Who's to tell what's really ahead?
**** this hurts, i wish this weren't my fate.
But my naivete has closed the gate.

And it feels like i'll only be that girl who gets you through the night.
They come and go, i guess i'll be alright.
But when no one ever sticks around, you start doubting your worth.
I guess i'll always be alone, oh god why does this have to hurt?

Losing my voice, losing my mind, losing the grace that's been keeping me safe all this time.
Everything I've known is slowly fading.
My world is shaking.
I'm slowly breaking.
So i'll drain my eyes and hope for a better life.
Everyone's against me but i'm still keeping away from the knife.
I'm sick to my stomach from all these people who claim to be my friend.
Why don't you just leave me alone and let me mend?
So i'll keep my lips glued to the bottle.
For these problems, i hope i can solve them.
In the meantime i'll keep searching for something real.
Let's go our own ways, be ourselves, do we have a deal?

It seems i've lost most feeling.
Oh how i used to feel so deeply.
But still, every now and then i'll shed a few tears for you.
For how incredible you made my life.
For how happy you made me.
For how we could just be ourselves together.
I hate myself for forgetting.
But that's what happens when you go insane.
They try to rearrange your mind.
And sometimes it works.
And even though i know the truth,
It's still you who has my heart.
For the good, and the bad haven't fully broken me.
I'm broken just enough to still feel for you.
Maybe you didn't have the best intentions for me.
But you made me happy.
You cared.
You loved me.
And that's all i could ever ask for.

You told me to meet you wearing my best outfit.
But i didn't have much, so my nicest jeans and blouse had to do.
You came wearing a suit.
That's how i knew you were special.
Our night on the town was far from dull.
Driving through cities formerly untraveled.
How our minds slowly unraveled.
I was lost in your eyes, your soul consumed me.
I felt nothing but pure bliss.
When you held me i knew i was all you wanted.
How i craved you.
But it had to wait.
Our excursion was a pleasant one.
I never wanted it to end.
We spent the whole night talking, laughing, driving, and loving.
But like all things, it had to come to an end.
And i'll never forgive myself for not staying by your side.

All this pent up agony, and it seems I'm growing colder.
Just fighting to keep the warm rays of light that I have saved up for these rainy days.
But it seems I'm losing the fight against my mind, against my heart.
What am I fighting for?
My souls diminishing into a dark cloud of uncertainty.
Is there anything worse I could be?
Well, yeah, maybe.
But when you have so much hope, it makes it hard for the world to turn you into ice.
Some say I'm too nice.
But when you feel sorrow for what it truly is, you want to make others see the light.
Maybe I'm not strong enough to change things.
Maybe I'll continue losing everything.
Maybe I never had anything.
Anything real that is.
It feels as though my last days might be near,
And when my world is so lonesome and cold,
What do I have left to lose?

Maybe there's no such thing as fate.
Maybe people are horrible to each other because it's more accepted.
More accepted to have an opinion- to judge.
More accepted to spread hate rather than love.
But that's not the way I like to look at things.
If it were up to me, I would say we should choose love.
Maybe then we wouldn't always hear horror stories in the news about our world falling apart.
Instead of choosing love and peace, we are choosing at the very least dislikes and hatred.
And that's not sustainable for the greater population.
Yeah I guess there's a circle of life, but it shouldn't be dominated by how you're feeling at the time.

Lately i've been eating my problems away.
I hate when i do this, it's far from okay.
But when nothing feels good, you start to do things you shouldn't.
I stopped taking my meds, and it's ******* with my head.
Am i sanely insane? Or insanely sane?
No one can ever be sure, i just wish there was a cure.
But i'm straying so far from my goals,
Why can't i just be me, and be whole?

How i miss the comfort of the warm tears streaming down my face.
To know that it's okay to feel sometimes.
But my heart is more tainted than before.
My soul seems to be burning out.
My mind is reaching it's limits in comprehending the feelings.
What am i feeling?
For the past few days i've felt like i'm burning under my skin.
But why?
I guess i'm just lovesick, and not the good kind.
God how did i let my life come to this.
I don't even know when i started burning out.
But it feels like there's no turning back, and i'm living in my own personal hell.

It seems i have a distorted way of thinking.
No matter how badly i want to be worthy of love,
I just feel so ******* worthless.
I probably am, since you broke me.
I've been trying to be who i was before you tore my heart out of my chest.
But i'm too far gone, past the point of just a mess.
Am i even a person anymore?
I guess biologically speaking, but the depth of my mind is withering away.
No longer caring about the fabric of my own existence.
Instead of my former seemingly carefree days,
I've been going through periods of pure nothingness, wanting to wish myself out of existence.
Periods of pure agony, and crushing grief.
Moments of immense regret.
And times of unspeakable anger.
All the good is being ****** out of me.
Maybe i never had any of my own.
Maybe i was just borrowing theirs.
I know i need a savior.
But it's probably not part of my fate.
I know, i'm always too late.
I just wish i could change the pace.
Or even just have a happy couple of days.
Why does it always have to be about love?
I guess i should have learned to love myself, back when i was almost enough.

My dreams are slowly turning into nightmares again.
When will the misery end?
Sometimes it doesn't seem so bad.
But then I remember all the things that I lack.
If only I could write beautiful words.
But I'm a mistake in this existence haven't you heard?
I just want to pick myself up, but I'm not that strong.
It seems everything I do and say is wrong.
How did things end up like this?
I just want to leave, I can't keep living like this.
If negativity is all I'll ever feel,
How am I ever supposed to heal?
God my existence sickens me.
But I'm stuck living like this, or so it seems.
Stuck drifting through this world, always a loner.
And it seems many faces are growing colder.
So I'll keep trying not to fall apart.
Hoping this world won't further break my heart.

Who am I?
Yes, it's true that you taught me how to love myself.
But it's now just a distant memory.
Did you show me who I truly was?
Or did you guide me to the path of the person you wanted me to be?
Did I really love myself?
Or did the chase just make me feel like I was worth something for a change?
I'm left pondering the way things used to be.
The way you used to be.
Oh how I miss how we used to be.

All this hoping and wishing, but I'm still at the bottom.
How do I get up?
I know I need to get up.
Am I still sinking?
Do I need someone to pull me out?
I'm not like any of them.
Maybe that's what makes it so hard.
Maybe if I was more like them I could find my way, any way.
Who am I?
I'm not sure I know anymore.
I'm not sure I ever knew.
Where am I headed?
I need to find a light.
I'm stuck in a daydream.
And not the good kind.

Day by day, season by season,
I can't begin to count the reasons.
Why can't I make it on my own?
Why did you destroy me the way you did?
Why am I still left wondering?
It hit me hard.
You were a lesson.
But you showed me how blissful love can be.
And here I am still left searching for a new flame.
Will I ever find a love as deep as ours once was?
Or will I be left wandering alone with a heavy heart and high hopes?
I guess I'll never know.
I just hope you haven't lost your spark as I continue searching for the one that you put out.

It feels as though I've reached the end.
All that hoping and wishing but I still didn't mend.
All I ever wanted was to be by your side.
Until I realized that it was all a lie.
I've been chasing after a love that I'm not sure exists.
I don't want to die, not like this I'll wish.
But baby I'm a loner and for me it's not in the cards.
So I'll keep trying to be the best me hopefully the destination isn't too far.
And if I really have reached the end,
I'll just hope that this never happens to anyone again.

I want to get out,
But how do I run from this?
From my mind?
From those who are consuming my thoughts?
I wish this would just go away.
But it seems it's a part of me.
And I have nowhere left to hide.

It seems all the good is being consumed, only to be spat out in my face in a darker hue.
Take me back to the good times.
Now it doesn't even feel like the sun shines.
No I don't wanna die, but it feels like I'm running out of time.
So why do I even try?
The ones closest to me are filled with hate.
I just want to find a way to escape.
To brighter days, and get out of this haze.
This is no way to live.
I feel worthless and like I have nothing left to give.
You showed me the way it's supposed to be.
And now I'm doomed, or so it seems.
If I had someone there maybe this would hurt less.
But I'm destroying all that's left inside my chest.
With thoughtless attempts to end my own life.
This is no better than avoiding the knife.
Longing for a second chance in the world of love.
But I'm losing hope in what I thought was below and above.
So what am I hoping for anymore?
It seems there's nothing but endless closed doors.
Maybe if I knock, one of them will open.
It might be worth a try because I feel a little less broken.
They say to love yourself so no one else has to.
And honestly being alone is easier because they're masked too.
Faces hidden behind societies ideals.
If this is the way it is I hope there isn't a sequel.
When did families become so unlovable and judgemental?
The sound of your yelling is driving me mental.
I guess I'll just keep hoping for the best.
For you, for them, and all the rest.
Yeah, I'm a little ****** up but I'm hoping I make it.
For these ****** feelings, I hope I can shake them.

The minutes are starting to feel like hours.
I feel stuck and I don't know where I'm headed.
If only I could feel something other than this horrendous nothingness.
I don't know what to think anymore.
But I know you were never mine.
And maybe that's why I can accept that you're not here.
I feel like it's too late for me, and maybe I'm right.
But if everyone's happy I just might be okay with that.

It seems like everyone hates me.
What am I to do?
When it feels like the ones closest to you are out to get you, there's not always hope for a new start.
I keep telling myself that everything will be okay.
But it seems to get worse with each passing day.
It seems people have lost all compassion.
Why did this have to happen?
Always lonely.
Never feeling at home it seems.
Drifting through life without a clue of what to do.
And still caught up with the idea of you.
It seems as though my time is running out.
And I'm slowly filling up with doubt.
If only I could find a way out.

They're ******* the life right out of me.
Devil's disguised as family and friends.
How will i ever mend?
When no one's on your side,
You have no choice other than to get out or hide.
Where am i going?
I just want to get away from here, and out of this mess.
I'm so ******* broken i want to tear my heart right out of my chest.
So enraged that i can't make it through the haze.
And it seems my life is a game, and i'm all on my own.
What happened to love?
What happened to peace?
What happened to kindness?
All these memories that i recollect,
Make me realize that i deserve some ******* respect.

And it's all the same.
Year after year, just barely getting by.
Why does it have to be this way?
I just wish everything was okay.
Maybe i'm too caught up in the fantasy,
That people can truly be happy.
Is it too late for me?
What's left for me?
All i see are menacing faces and lost friends.
Why the **** can't i just be okay and make amends.
This is tearing me apart.
I can't feel one mood for longer than a few minutes.
Why won't my mind stop racing?
Oh dear god i need a change of scenery.

Last night you were in my dreams.
It was a sweet reminder of your touch.
But it went dark, and chaos arose from this gift of you.
Our sunny adventure turned to a stormy one.
How it hurts for even my dreams to taunt me.
In a perfect world, you would be in my life one way or another.
But this world is full of destruction and hate.
When will people see that we need no enemies.
Just love spread through the ages.
I think then we would all know peace.
But until I find you again either dreaming or awake, I'm still going to be searching for my light and hoping I can help light the way for not only myself, but for anyone else who hurts like me.

Trying to cope with my less than mediocre life.
When will things take a change for the better?
I know i said i'd avoid the knife.
But in a sea of words, i'm merely just a letter.
My existence is anything but a happy one.
I long to just feel good for a change.
But it feels as though everyone's done.
How can i be so alone, when there are so many who claim to care?
Yeah, you might have been the one.
And now i feel as though my being might as well be thin air.
Ignored by most.
Death feels so close.
I guess having a good life, friends, and a love, no i was never meant to have any of those.

Wasting all my time drowning in these bottles.
Hoping for a chance to start all over again.
Stomaching the bitter taste to forget what i'll never get back.
But forgetting is easier said than done.
And darling, i'm a wreck.
Just waiting for a chance to redeem myself.
Get out of this place, and start a better life.
Forget the pills, forget the knife.
Death is no salvation.
Just an easy way out for the ones who just can't take it.
So what's left for me?
I guess time will tell.
And in that time i'll try not to fully immerse my being in the poison that surrounds me.

Although i only briefly remember the evil i cast upon you,
I'm still left sitting here wishing i could make things right.
So much is unclear, and i'm left wondering if it's true.
I just hope i didn't ruin too many of your nights.
So in our silence i'll hope that you're getting to where you need to be.
And hoping that you're alright.

It seems like everyone's out to get me.
This doesn't make any sense to me.
People passing through for a short while i call them friends.
Little do i know that's not what i am to them.
Never been more lonely.
And this place still doesn't feel like home to me.
Well i guess i was always meant to be alone.
And sadly my heart is turning to stone.
But when i'm left alone with my thoughts,
I'm always searching for a way to change the plot.
I don't know what to do, i'm wasting all my time.
Left expressing myself with all these stupid rhymes.
I want to break free from my mindless ways.
Get up, get out, and find a change of pace.
Everything's so hard when you have no friends.
So i'm taking the time to try to mend.
My mind, heart and soul aren't in the best shape.
So why is my world still filled with so much hate?

And to be honest, i don't even know what i'd say if we crossed paths.
But your smile is etched into my mind.
Your words are still guiding me to safety.
And i'm still left searching for a soul as lovely as yours,
While i'm stuck drowning cold and alone.
And to be honest, i don't think i'll ever find anyone like you.
That's why i'm left clinging to our memories.
No, i don't regret what we had.
And even though my fate was sealed with you, i do regret not leaving this life behind for you.
And to be honest, i feel pathetic for wanting you after all of this time.
But you were the best i had the pleasure of almost calling mine.
A small glimpse of heaven, in a miserable wasteland i call life.
You showed me how love is supposed to be, and to be honest, that's why you're stuck in my mind.

Yeah, it's been a few years but my heart's still breaking.
My mind just won't stop racing.
I know it's not in the cards for us to be together.
I just wish i could change the weather.
Yeah, it's been a few years but my chest is still aching.
I still listen to the music you've been making.
Longing to just talk to you one last time.
wishing that you could be mine.
But i guess it can't happen this time.
Yeah, it's been a few years but my soul's still dimming.
I've just been trying to start a new beginning.
But my being is washed out by the memories, whether good or bad.
I can't help but miss whatever it was that we had.
I just hope you find what you're looking for, and for me to stop being so sad.
Yeah, it's been a few years and it's tearing me apart.
If only i could have been more careful with my heart.