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603 · Feb 2017
Untitled
Lily Feb 2017
When I die,
Do not talk about me
Like I am the most wonderful person
To have ever graced this Earth;

Instead, tell them I am mad.
How my ***** nails dug ugly scars
Within my dark, burning soul
Fed with rage uncontrolled.

Tell them I am selfish.
With an eye for love I have not
That my heart rejoices but in sorrow
Only coldness and loath would grow.

Tell them I am broken.
That these crevices that he left
In the regions of my heart
Will not ever heal completely again.

That I walked wide-eyed yet half-awake
Torn between the fantasy of his lips so sweet,
And the gleam of his pointed teeth.

Tell them all my sins.
My uglies.
My glories.
And only after that,
That then,

Maybe you can tell them I was beautiful.


©Leigh
Feb. 14, 2017
YES, I am back. But only for a while
599 · Jul 2015
First _____ Never Dies
Lily Jul 2015
Maybe it never really dies,
Maybe it just hids there somewhere,
And when you see him again
All of it comes back in a glimpse
Like it were never gone
Like you're 15 again.


© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
590 · Jun 2015
I'm Okay
Lily Jun 2015
I wish he'd unlove his girlfriend and fall for me instead.
Am I too bad?
No.
'Cause for starters, he doesn't even know me.
I'm just watching him from afar.
I'm okay.



© Leigh Herondale  *June 2015
589 · Apr 2016
Really, I'm Used To It
Lily Apr 2016
i'm used to the pain
but sometimes it gets unbearable
i want to scream
cry, and stab my foe
all at the same time
random
587 · Jul 2018
Amhari
Lily Jul 2018
While you watch the moon tonight,
I hope your own eyes keep their glow.
Cry, scream, curse,
But never stop dreaming.
Cause I believe
Somewhere down the bend,
There is a train in which
the stops never end.
It will come
And you’ll be home.

July 9, 2018
I’m quite back
574 · Nov 2015
Untitled
Lily Nov 2015
I don't want to be a trend
I just want to be a part of history
572 · Jul 2015
J
Lily Jul 2015
J
First saw you when I was 10
Didn't even care back then
We met again when I was 13
Something tagged in my heart strings

Then we became friends
You used to tease me everyday
We'd sit in the back of class
Exchange jokes, stories, ideas

When I was 14 you tried to court me
And I said no, you're kidding
No, my parents won't let me
No, i'm not ready

Now i'm 19
I see you happy with her
I can see she really loves you
And I know you love her too

So sometimes I wonder
If I had given us a chance
Would I be that one beside you today
Would I be the one making you laugh
Instead of that girl



© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
569 · Dec 2015
Gotta Zayn
Lily Dec 2015
Not even three months into adulthood
And yet i'm literally so done with life
I'm just a kid and life is a literal living nightmare
568 · Aug 2015
The Girl and The Moon
Lily Aug 2015
You picked up my poem so I guess you want to know
Of such old story I witnessed long ago
Some might sob and feel their heart tear
Others might shrug, pass it all in one ear
Some may either laugh, even call me a loon
For I once knew a girl who fell in love with the moon
She had him on her fingertips but couldn't ever catch
So close yet so far, impossible to touch
Bittersweet moments comes when nighttime falls
I can hear her heart, I bled over its silent calls
I had the liberty to watch her moon-lit face
The sadness it reflects I want to drench in my embrace
Years passed but still she couldn't hide
The way she looks at him, eyes could never lie
Alas! the delight of seeing her love under the blanket of the night
Days, week, decades, I've lost count
But I still think about her, here and now
Haunted by the memory of remorse and regret
And that face of a girl I couldn't quite forget
It kills me that I never got to tell
That all these time I loved her, I also fell
And for eternity, with this I have to dwell.

Leigh Herondale  *May 2015
Possibly my longest poem ever. Tell me your thoughts. :)
565 · Oct 2015
Why
Lily Oct 2015
Why
Of course, I am never alone
But why do I feel otherwise?
555 · May 2016
Letting Go
Lily May 2016
No more worries, no heartaches.
You let it go and it's okay
Let's just put it this way,
the sea is too big for only one fish and who knows?
Maybe you'll catch a much bigger one next time!
So regret this action a little, or for a bit,
or for a while,
but not for the rest of your life.
550 · Nov 2015
6-word Poem
Lily Nov 2015
Their eyes met, never their fates
This will be the start of my 6-word poem series
549 · Jun 2015
Lines
Lily Jun 2015
There's a fine line between loneliness and poetry
Loneliness makes you write a poem
A poem makes you lonely




© Leigh Herondale  *June 2015
547 · Dec 2015
Eh
Lily Dec 2015
Eh
I wonder
If under different circumstances
Am I gonna feel
A little different too
Or am I really just destined to constantly feel this way?
Eternally sad and isolated?
547 · Aug 2015
Afraid
Lily Aug 2015
Cause i'm young and I hate the world but am too afraid to die.


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
545 · Sep 2015
A Diferrent Perspective
Lily Sep 2015
All I really want
To do right now
Is quit social media,
Put down my phone,
Perfect my french,
Raise a dog.
539 · Aug 2015
Thoughts
Lily Aug 2015
If thoughts could be weighed and sold,
I'd be a millionaire by now.

But it can't so instead i'm an amateur poet.


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
Lily Nov 2017
Do not compare me to a flower
Flowers are only sought after
For as long as they are fresh and pretty
They are remembered for only as long as the smell lingers
Then when the drought comes
They are disposed of as easily as the wind
As if they matter not even once
As if to the hand that crushed them,
They had never offered fragrance
I shall not let myself be likened
To such creatures with tragic fates
So do not compare me to a flower.
533 · Jul 2015
This Boy, That Girl
Lily Jul 2015
That girl who likes to cheer
This boy who likes to cheat
That girl who loves to laugh
This boy who loves to sneak
That girl who truly cares
This boy who always lie
That girl who fully trusts
This boy who's somewhat sly
One day they met,
I'll let you decide for the rest.



© Leigh Herondale  July 2015



© **Leigh Herondale
533 · Jul 2015
That Girl
Lily Jul 2015
That girl who always smiles,
She's crying deep inside.
When you think you really know,
Well newsflash honey, you don't.

When she says "I'm fine"
Please don't believe her lies
She'll never tell you why
But at least give it a try

When she says "I hate myself"
It most likely is true.
So please be there for her
And tell her to not be blue

That girl who always clowns around
And makes everybody laugh
Believe me when I say she's unhappy,
I know 'cause she is me




© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
532 · Oct 2015
To All MY Friends
Lily Oct 2015
After you're done with my notes
Please
Remember me as the friend
You've always known
Not the girl with lonely poems
527 · May 2016
It Doesn't Matter
Lily May 2016
It doesn't matter how they would reflect on your poem
Whether it would go with your feelings or defy you completely
People are dumb, different and free
And would only see what they choose to see
522 · Oct 2015
Empty
Lily Oct 2015
Everybody thinks she's full of life
When she's struggling to keep herself sane deep inside
521 · Oct 2015
Alone
Lily Oct 2015
Friends can comfort you
Cheer for you all the way
But the truth is
At the end of the day,
You only have yourself
Lily Jul 2015
I thought we could have it all
That we'd soar high and never fall
Thought we'd have the world on our hands
And free to do the things we want
Actually believed the end won't come
That we would stay forever young
Then it dawned on me
Every color fades
Every new things age
Peter Pan is not real.



© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
519 · Dec 2015
Maybe
Lily Dec 2015
Maybe I just don't have the power to extract loneliness from my being

Maybe loneliness is part of my soul

*Maybe loneliness is me
512 · Oct 2015
Please, Stop!
Lily Oct 2015
No, you don't understand!
Please stop lying to me!
My life is ******-up
And God does not care
Please let me be!
You're only saying that to ease
The pain that’s been killing me ever since
But let me tell you
None of those fancy words
Can ease the pain and misery
No one can fight these demons,
They are strong and they want me
My mind is severely flooded
And one die I am going to drown.
510 · Sep 2015
Somethin' 'Bout Love
Lily Sep 2015
There's something about love that makes you the person you never expected you'd be.


Leigh Herondale  *September 2015
498 · Aug 2015
Tell Me
Lily Aug 2015
Sometimes I wonder
If somebody out there
Also feels the way I do.
Does she make others laugh
With her cosmic gags
And novel flops?
And at the end of the day
Does she ever feel sad
Down, broken,
And alone as ever?
#depressedmood today lol
496 · Aug 2015
I
Lily Aug 2015
I
She's an ordinary girl
Just a little quite different


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
495 · Nov 2015
I'm Doomed
Lily Nov 2015
I've turned a blind eye
For so I long i've tried to deny
But now I can no longer hide
My life is doomed
And I have to say goodbye
To the bright future I've always dreamed about
To the good things I always thought I'd have
My dreams are ruined
And I could've have blamed my parents
Instead I'll just blame myself
493 · Nov 2015
Once The Pain Subsides
Lily Nov 2015
You made me feel important
Just like all the girls you cherish.
You overlooked the fact that I was just a flaw,
Merely a sratch compared to you.
You thought me how to love
Even when my heart only knows hate
And even though the path was dark
You guide me all the way
Yes, I never noticed
But I was never forgotten
So here I am,
Surrendering completely,
Mind, soul and body.
And I admit I'm a failure,
Totally not worth it,
Next to you a pile of dirt,
Beggar asking for pity,
But once the pain subsides,
I know it's you who had set me free
492 · Feb 2017
Untitled
Lily Feb 2017
Deleting things I really meant
Only to replace with words of pretend
Life has always been like this for me
I say one nice thing
Take it back with profanity
Like iron walls surrounding me like a prison
It remain's all year
No matter what the season
Wolf's skin draped over my shoulder
You'll never see through exactly what i'm hiding under


©Leigh
Oct. 25, 2016
488 · Oct 2015
Lonely Girl
Lily Oct 2015
Let’s talk about the stars
And how grey they turn out to be when you smile
Let’s talk about the sun
That lacks radiance and gleam compared to yours
Let’s talk about all the things
That loses its beauty whenever you’re near
Now let’s talk about her
And all her imperfections, failure, and flaws
The way she adores the night
And all the blackness that it emanate
The way she cradle these demons
Miserably trapped inside her mind
Because she’s anxious she’ll be ogled
When she tell the world of it
The way she takes relief in loneliness
Because that’s the only certain entity in this realm
The way she says
“I’m okay”
Because that’s the easiest answer
While resenting alone all the pain
486 · Oct 2015
Point Of No Return
Lily Oct 2015
I hope you don't come to the point
Where you only pray for her
Cause she's dead


©Leigh Herondale  *October 2015
Lily Feb 2016
I hate the world for they do not understand
When I say "I'm ok" or "I don't need a hand"
Promised to be there in good times and in bad
But when things seem wrong they were the first to get mad

I hate the world for they don't see
This demon lurking inside of me
I put up with a smile to hide the pain
Though in my eyes it will remain

I hate the world for they tricked me to believe
That love is a real deal and this is how I should live
Said it was forever, said it wouldn't hurt
Then why am I broken, helpless, lying in the dirt?

I hate myself for I carelessly let her fall
In this hole of wonder, never should've heed the call
For the story was a myth, there wasn't a talking rabbit
My sense of reality, I regret to let it slip

I hate you, hate me, hate the world in all its glory
We are the monsters living within
The very villain of our story

So hold your tongue my dear old friend
Cause no amount of words could mend
This poisoned heart that He has lend
We are all liars in the end
479 · May 2016
I
Lily May 2016
I
I'm such a disappointment I know,
but I don't want to further damage myself
by pretending to like something which I do not.
476 · Jul 2015
Voiceless Whisper
Lily Jul 2015
Come save me
help me
feel my suicidal soul
Or will you just hate me
Harass me
Feed my heart
To the cruel
Heartless ghoul
Thanks to my friend, Krystine, for helping me finish this up :)
473 · Sep 2015
Welcome To My Dark Side
Lily Sep 2015
Death is constant
Death is inevitable
Death takes away the pain and misery
Death is the most certain thing
We can ever expect from life
At some point
Love and happiness may fail
But death will always succeed


Leigh Herondale  *September 2015
I may speak about death but i'm not suicidal, nope, not yet.
472 · Aug 2015
;
Lily Aug 2015
;
I thought I was finally fine
Thought everything's turning out alright
But I was wrong
Humans will be humans
And I hate them all



Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
472 · Sep 2015
What Is This?
Lily Sep 2015
I don't know if it is because of running
Or if the air-conditioner is set too high
But my heart is racing
Can't stop my hands from sweating
Just because I saw you.



Leigh Herondale  *September 2015
460 · Jul 2015
Pretty, Famous, or Dying
Lily Jul 2015
She has those glorious locks and luscious lips,
And tiny legs that match her perfect hips.
Whenever she smiles everyone seem to stop,
Whenever she speaks people listens up.
Everybody loves her.

She's a star, a very good teen actress,
Mesmerizing the crowd is what she does best.
On twitter she has millions of followers,
Fans that watch her every move, every hour.
Everybody loves her.

She's sunken, sick, and frail,
Thin as a stick, ghostly pale
The doctors say it won't be long
Until the time she'll take her final breath and be gone
Everybody suddenly loves her.

This is our world,
The sick society we are in.
In here, nobody really cares,
Unless you're pretty, famous, or dying.
I've always loved the line "Nobody really cares unless you're pretty, famous or dying" and for me that was absolutely true and I hate our society for that so I got inspired to write this. And, this poem is a shout out to every girl that goes unnoticed and has very low self-esteem-- like myself. You are worthy, you are loved, you are relevant just like everybody else, so please don't think so lowly of yourself. You might not know it right now but someday, someone will think of you as though you are their world, like the sun rises and shines with you, and will love you much that will make you forget every insecurity you're having right now. Please don't give up just yet. Smile :)
454 · Dec 2015
But This Is Not The Last
Lily Dec 2015
So this is the part that we'll see each other last
The time we'd try to bring up, think about the past
Wishing we hadn't gone
Hoping we could come back
Cause childhood means comfort
And we made the mistake of growing up
452 · Aug 2015
;
Lily Aug 2015
;
This land is full of ****.
Fly away.




Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
Sometimes I just want to give up
444 · Aug 2015
Haiku Needs Help
Lily Aug 2015
Kiru, Kireji
I tried but I guess Haiku
Is just not for me


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
The first and possibly the last Haiku I would make in my whole existence. But I really want to learn, will somebody teach me? :)
437 · May 2016
Lonely Girl
Lily May 2016
I like to think good thoughts and dreamy encounters
When I finally retreat to bed
But my exhausted mind would only open
To sad, and lonely worlds
That by now had been all warm
And most familiar to my heart
429 · Feb 2016
People
Lily Feb 2016
It's sad how they only refer to quitters as losers
How they slap it on our faces
That we will never be the victor
Perhaps they didn't know
You had too much
Perhaps they didn't see
You've fought too hard
Perhaps they couldn't feel the pain
You've so long endured
They can't because they were so busy judging
They're all the same
427 · May 2016
IDk lol
Lily May 2016
She wants you to know
That she's not the same person you knew a year ago
That she no longer stays up until the end of time
Just to wait and read about your **** reply
She’s still indecisive about what to wear on Sundays
But she no longer needs your advice;
Unsolicited or not
She stays awake until the AM watching subtitled movies,
Not because of that text you sent
Or any other *******
Also she no longer creeps on that girl's Facebook
and yours too, for that matter
That she sometimes cry
But it's no longer because of you
That life is hard and she still has a long road to go
But she does not mind spending it without you
426 · Aug 2015
;
Lily Aug 2015
;
Scars
no matter how ugly
are sign that you are alive



Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
422 · Jul 2015
Sweet Girl's Vengeance
Lily Jul 2015
Sea of faces
So many names
People i'd like
To cross out on my list
This boy in particular
Shall I make him slowly suffer
Or die a quick painful death




© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
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