One day I'll have my freedom i'll never look back.


© Leigh

I miss the person I used to be

I talk about death when i'm sad

Happiness is a fantasy
Most of the time
It's all just inside your head


© Leigh

What's the good in falling in love
When in the end
All you get is a jaded heart,
A cut in the wrist,
An empty pocket.

She's not just "a girl you know"
or someone you see on the streets.
Above anything, she's a dream
a gift
a miracle
every inch of her is a universe
you'd have trouble trying to define.
Tell her you love her
only if you really do,
if not then leave her alone.
You can try to fool her
but you should know
you're the one to fall down
in the end.



© Leigh Herondale  *June 2015

I'm quite a scholar in the field of isolating myself from human contact.

It doesn't matter how good you can fly
Or how long did it took
What matters is you tried, and tried.
They can be the strongest
And can soar all the highest.
But remember,
Icarus burned his wings
While reaching the sun.

I want to apologize for being a sad person

*Sorry if I can only write sad poems

How did I get from nervously starting college while missing my old high school friends to leaving it behind for the real world?
It's like time has gone by in a glimpse of an eye. Where has the time gone?
Earlier in class, our professor even told us to start applying for our own insurance, health cards, postal IDs, etc, adult stuffs I don't even know of. Life is speeding up and i'm not sure if I will be able to spend Christmas with my family this year. For the first time in my almost 20-year existence, I don't think I can celebrate it with them. Life is speeding up and soon i'm gonna fully leave behind all my youthful memories, life is speeding up but i'm not ready. Not yet.

My poems are for me and for my soul alone
Why ask me to dedicate it to you?

The only thing I have when I shut my door
And when I tell myself 'I ain't going no more'
Why I ask me to dedicate it to you?

The friend with whom I can confess all my fears
The pal to whisper hope while kissing away my tears
The receiver of my endless drama
And countless struggle with my crazy mind
The tiny ray of sunshine that makes me hold on and believe
That one day I'll see the light
The only reason why i'm still here
Alive and still kicking
And even if I fall down,
I still get back up and try.
*So why ask me to dedicate it to you?

I would have written you a poem
If only you had let me.

Who got a helmet
I'm losing my mind
We used to run along
But now we're running out of time

Said you'd hold my hand
Said you'd make a stand
But what am I doing here
Alone in this island?

We were the stars that align
Shining alongside the night sky
We thought it was forever
Then the sun came and lighted us over

You reached for my hand
And held it strong
You made me believe
That we'll be strong
But when the going gets tough
You were the first to let go
Leaving me hanging
In a broken line of holding on

I'm kind of nothing much,
Just a silly girl who admire boys as such
Those who play in bands and like
Boys who can ride the skate or bike

Though I also like to play the guitar
But guitars don't like me, just left me a scar
In my finger where a ring should stay
From the one I love when it comes the day

Some days I dream to be an astronaut
Watching the night sky everynight til I caught
A cold that always starts with a sneeze
And ends with runny nose, oh dear! Oh Geez!

I made an honest mistake so I need to add more lines
That even though I fail sometimes
I always need myself to remind
That a dream never dies

So there's my little autobiography

Leigh Herondale  *February 2015

One day I shall finish school and conquer the world.

It keeps me going,
It's keeps me sane,
It calms my mind,
When so many thoughts flood my brain
It gives me a chance to let out
The deepest, darkest feelings
That had been since buried
deep inside my lonely heart.

I'm scared to show my poems to people I know in real life because i'm afraid that they'd judge me.

Do you ever just
hate yourself?

They tried to save me
But i'm too far gone

Would you still bother to read my poems
Even if I tell you it only sings of heartaches and sad songs

When i'm gone
Put my memories in a box
A red velvety one
Sealed with your tears
Locked up in your chest
Close to your heart
And when the right time comes
We'll see each other again

I love to get sad.

She wanted so hard to be different
Then gets mad when nobody would understand her

I want to travel and know the world

I used to think I'd  have it all
That everything will fall
Into my hands the way I want
Then at one point
I come running back to you
my tied feet and hands
digging for comfort
my battered heart
searching for solace
I always thought
that if I leave
I'd be totally free
But in reality
You are the one thing
that makes me complete

I hate authority

I'm worthless

Hope tomorrow never happens...

I like old songs and undiscovered poems
Just like the girl at the shop
But i'm not her
I don't like the taste of coffee
Just like that girl in your Math
But i'm not her