aslan

aslan May 2018

magic

isn't
it
just
magical
how
i
can
draw
with
silver
but
it
turns
out
red?

**** my urges are so high

aslan May 2018

after a while cutting feels good

and when you stop

it’s okay

but then you look down at your scars

and you long for the feeling

of fresh, red lines

to help you breathe

because when your tears won’t fall

you want your body to sing instead

i'm sinking

aslan May 2018

I need

I
NEED
TO
FEEL
THE
RUSH
OF
A
BLADE
AGAINST
MY
SKIN
BECAUSE
ALL
I
AM
NOW
IS
NUMB

****

aslan May 2018

i was doing better

i’m away from him

my dad, that is

i have so much good going for me

but i see him for one evening

and i’m back

to wanting to die

seeing no way out

trying my hardest to not run to that bathroom

and puke my guts out

i'm trying to eat

for him,

my best friend,

but i can't help

thinking

who would miss me

if i ended it all?

i c a n t b r e a t h e

#please #help

aslan May 2018

supa gay

Don’t ask me why
who, what, when, where or how
I just know, honey,
that I’m feeling a little extra gay right now.
I can’t help it,
I just am,
So, don’t hit me
with your far-right scam.
I believe in basic rights,
such as equality in all ways
you can carry a gun
and I can marry who I want, yay!

i have no idea^^

aslan May 2018

honestly

Honestly,
I’m glad I’m different
Because it means
That I don’t have to deal with you
Or your ****
Or anybody like you, dad
Because I’m different
I guess you
And your Southern Baptist friends
And your Catholic girlfriend
All think I’m going to burn in hell.
Well, NEWSFLASH,
You’ve been divorced three times
You’ve had four kids from three different mothers
You used to do heavy drugs (don’t think I don’t know)
You’re emotionally and verbally abusive
You have a ******* *** kit under your bed
I’ve seen the noose-knot ropes tied down there
Your girlfriend has been divorced twice
Is verbally, emotionally and physically abusive
HAS GAY FRIENDS
And used to misuse steroids.
So, before you try to preach to me
Why don’t you take a look in the mirror
Re-evaluate your ****** decisions
And get back to me.
Because I was born like this
There’s nothing anyone can do to stop it.
You made awful choices
That you knew better than to make.
So, *******
About your misconceptions
Because I did nothing wrong.
You did.

there's more poetry but i refuse to share it

aslan May 2018

thank science

I told him today,
My brother, that is
He didn’t seem disgusted with me
Just with dad, for leaving me homeless.
He said “you’re still his flesh and blood”
And “that’s never going to change”
He said “I wish he would stop being such a *****”
Yeah, Jer, I wish he’d stop being
Such a ******* ***** too
Hiding behind a **** bible
Behind one **** word
And claiming he’s the courageous one
When I’ve come out
To him, the homophobic,
Transphobic, sexist, racist,
All-around discriminatory ******
Terrified out of my wits
I even picked a middle name
That we’d both love
But he just called me
A ***, a ****, a freak
Well, *******, *******
I’m a young man
Who dates whoever the **** he wants to date
As long as they treat him right
He doesn’t give a ****.
So, ******* and your
Preconceived misconceptions
Of what you think is right
Morally and ethically
You don’t know anything, *******
You aren’t me
You never have been
And you never will be
Thank science.

**** yeah