married to Christ
is a lot happier
than 'lonely'
and 'broken'
because unlike a marriage to a human
if I mess up,
my husband forgives me endlessly
and loves and understands me perfectly
"Men can't read your mind"
mine does.
My savior loves me more than I could possibly imagine
and He will never leave me.
With Him, I can always be happy-
and I will always be happy
as I strive to be faithful
to my one and only.
I am not worthy of Him in any sense of the word
but He thinks I am worthy of His love
and that's all that matters now.
I am imperfect and I felt kind of unfulfilled and unsatisfied
but it was because I was looking for God
everywhere except God Himself
and I was searching for someone to love me
and understand me
no human relationships can feel like this
and I'm lucky
because I will never be separated from
my God
this isn't a long-distance relationship-
He is around me in every molecule
every blade of grass
every cloud
every cat or dog
He is there.
I will not be lonely
unless I myself leave Him.
but He is faithful
and He calls for me every day I am gone
He cries for me day and night
and never gives up
until I return, one day,
to His open arms
that embrace me
like a human never could.
I will never be lonely again.
My God is more than enough-
He is the source of everything-
an ever-flowing river of mercy,
grace, hope, love, passion, joy...
what else could I ask for?
"Christ is yours today, and he is yours tomorrow as He dies again and again for you on the cross."
I feel pure again. I'm on the path back to who I'm supposed to be.