i don't have any more love left to give you
i'm drained of salvation
i'm losing myself
or i'm losing my mind
i'm running on empty
and i don't feel like running anymore
i know you need me to be the strong one
i'm trying so hard
but i'm shaking at the hinges
and i don't know how much longer
i can run away from
a loveless heart and a thoughtless mind

I'D Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All .

Right now things seem the same but months from now where gonna say they were so different ~

A black and white setting is what reaches my vision
Blurred voices going back and forth

I was here and it was two of me
One stading next to him and the other me watching this all play out

His eyes were wet and red pleading me to say something
But I was speechless
needless to say a heartbreak goes a long way
Big or small
There were still things I should have said
Things like

I need you
We've connected in so many ways
You woke up a part of me that I thought never existed
I thought you would be to good to be true because your everything that I've always wanted
Your all I have, all I want
And I love you.

Now your gone and this hurts because these are things that I should have said :(

Run warm water
Set colorful candles around the tub
Dim the lights in the bathroom
Lay in the tub and forget everything
Forget the pain
Sorrow
Sadness
Heartbreak
Because none of this matters at this time
tend to yourself
Clear your mind
Body
And settle your soul
And if someone in your house calls your name
Ignore them
Because this is your time

While sitting in my room
Only watching tv shows
I've come to the realization that they
All had the same subliminal message
they showed me that some of the people closest to you could be your enemies
Like your friends and even family

I've come to the realization that even a certain light could be a disguise of darkness
I realized that this bottle of ***** and these shot glasses of patron
Only numb this seemingly temporary pain
And could literally **** up my life

I hope you all someday come to the realization that nothing is really what it seems
So don't make a temporary decision to fulfil a desire for your demons
Cause all you'll get in return is a lifetime of regret