Banged up from training back up
So much training to remember
Giving your all to the sport
Taking the good cutting off the bad
Trying to progress compete against others
Earn a stripe rise to the next level
Working hard to challenge yourself
Camp mode dieting watch what you eat
Improve by repeating applying technique
Take downs by grabbing a leg or double
Grips to restrain the opponent
Find the dominate position with control
Frame up the move for points
Find an escape in a tough situation
Keep moving go strong go hard
Piecing together the moves to get success

Working harder than most
Never scared not backing down
DIY finding a way to get it out
Rise to the next level trail blazing
Pursue a dream everything mentally
Drained physically fighting to give it life
Others point out the wrong tear it down
Than give credit for doing right
Focused on mistakes drawing blood
Instead of blessing the effort
All the hard work mininalised
Standing tall alone hoping to unit
Trying to bring others together
While the division grows over time
Keeping everyone apart no love

A heartbreak makes you grow up
Getting fired makes you hustle
Being the man of your destiny
Friends become strangers
Space and time changes everything
Cried inside life's not always fair
Smiled through the tough times
New places to encounter in the moment
Meeting new people with experiences
Changing for the better overcome pain
Can't stay the same growth full of gain
A fight with a cousin that'll never change
Arguing with someone that doesn't know
Talking loud doesn't make you superior Ignoring the truth doesn't make you right
Pushing people away because you're wrong
Makes them walk away from chaos
There's no apology, you'll never forgive
Towards something much more

Some days are fine or days my thoughts are stuck in a loop. Hard to breathe trying to compose myself sometimes it feels like my mind is slipping away. The time goes slower than normal. Hard to relax feeling tense and unable to rest so restless. Fresh air hits my face a sense of feeling sometimes the world around feels grey and dark. Trying to connect years of being rejected and disconnected. Things don't make sense to me but no one seems to get or understand my way or thought process. Heart racing beating in my throat. Taste of stomach acid in my mouth.

Changing his mindset; way of life, too many assume; who he is rather than get to know him. He focused on that work trying not to complain get caught up in the drama. It rubbed him wrong when people who claim to no like one another being all fake and phony with one another.
Would rather be alone then pretend to be someone others made up about your reputation. Let them make a fuss my reaction or emotion focused on doing your own thing.

He was always honest around a bunch of liars. Everyone quick to play the victim when they didn't get their way. Once he spoke up he was the bad guy they came at him.
He didn't say anything to them or care to associate anymore. The betrayal hurt making him doubt his judgement. Seeing good in the wrong ppl. Trying to stay sane not lose it feeling like the world is against him.
Trying to be neutral but feeling divided because of everyone's pride and egos that keep conflict going.

Dating was not the same, some want the perks. while back in the days, you had to earned the nookie. Not trying to rush, but can't be waiting around. Thought it was real turned out to be an act. The mask came off the person I loved doesn't exist. A sick of twisted game, so much hurt with the pain is real.
Talked about kids had a scare you talked about an abortion denied the right to be a father. Talked about marriage a failed attempt to save a lifeless relationship that was at the end. Trying to make it work when it was clearly over.
Long distance wouldn't work could barely function in the same room. Life can be cruel one was loyal and true while the other was sabotaging a good thing that became

He would drink energy drinks they became a comfort when he quit consuming alcohol. He realized they aren't right for him from one bad habit to the next. He didn't want a one night stand.
He was all in or nothing things never turn out the way he imagined. They usually played out accordingly. Heart broken and confused. Knew he wasn't the one but one of many.

Wide awake at the fork in the road
Don't want to lose anymore
All the frustration all the rapid change
Can't take it anymore not the same
Things aren't pure feeling less genuine
They don't care about you
Covering their *** treating you bad
Never had your back expecting it all
Could only do so much in a rush
Trying to slow down on the go
Missing out on life working too much
Had some fun with the wrong crowd
Single living not the same grew up
Having down time overthinking
Not alone others can relate
Won't admit lost in pointless affairs

Called a lost cause for finding my own way
Not a follower and do not like crowds
Quick to point out the flaw then focus on the good
Rather be happy for a solution creating another problem
Not a yes man but definitely not trying correct anyone or change anyone
Respectfully disagree but willing to learn and understand
Just because you reject don't give anyone the right to judge or put others down for their different situation
Most dk what is right for themselves, how can they say what's best for others

I know it's not too late but sometimes I pray things went right went accordingly. It feels awfu being the oldest it *****; you set examples and no one follows amounted to anything. You set trends and criticized now everyone turning a blind eye and doing it. I don't drink but when I did I drank like a fish it was fun. Then everyone joined the party and ruined it for me. I drank for fun while others drank because work ***** or going through a tough time.
As I get older I question my place and where I belong. Learn things and get bored seeking answers found closure so many people frustrate me.

Not my business or my problem tried of bad people taking advantage of good people. Always talking about others the coward never says it to tire face. He got loud made an *** of himself and a kiss *** when he needed something. A lost cause acting like everyone owe him for all the drama he caused. Always ignored and exclude but once a favor is needed everything is good

Taught to be down go after it
Not to snitch everyone is telling
Loyal and treated like a cheated
Staight up made out to be a liar
Hustling not looking for handouts
Working to make it happen everyday
Pursuing the dream make it reality
So many waiting to be given everything
Cheaters get caught up not worries
Lies lead to the truth exposed on the light

They finally met up he was nervous he arrived early but she was there before him. He was nervous she would be a no show. She greeted him happy to see him. He was more surprised she was early made it before him. He was excited this was happening. She would order a drink and he got a Coke. He was trying to quit drinking, she understood he was stuck in the transition. He wanted to get out of the slump move on consider dating again. She told him "what slump you seem confident and in control?" He said once "he started dating things changed didn't make sense." She reached across the table place her hand on his. He cupped her hand as he made eye contact they both smiled. She was open with her feelings; he was honest but didn't expect much.  This was different but he didn't want to dive in right way. From past experience, he gave too much got nothing or he held back losing it all.
She asked him "what's wrong you look flustered is it me?" He would respond "no I'm not good at this." She laugh I noticed you are so cute and innocent. He asked is that "good or bad"
She kissed him on the cheek you'll find out soon enough. She ordered a chicken salad and he ordered a burger.

The smile shared with one another
Learning to be friends good times
Before it becomes much more
Know the person mentally
Get close not just physically
An emotional connection comfort zone
Safe zone expressing those deep feelings
More than a gleam in the eye
Keep the passion alive stay genuine
Let this love be true grow spiritual
The Connections from heart to soul
Be real not fade away glow
And grow to much more

He woke up from a crazy dream not able to move.
Anxious about his transplant
Did everything the doctors asked
Now it's a waiting game on the sidelines
Went to work early thinking the schedule was the same I was extra early
Tired of picking up the slack
Last year alienated for having cirrhosis
Thankful for the help still able
Not crippled feeling the pressure
Now staying on top of this work load
Having weird dreams not able to understand
Always determined to do and be better

Facing yourself everyday toy test yourself
To see if you got it or if you want it still
An older body not recovering right away
From a youthful athlete to an older being
Challenging yourself relying on heart to finish
The older warrior within pushing forward
From the bottom fighting to stay in the middle
Building off what's already know

Telling those stories wild emotions
Sharing encounters deep feelings
More selective socially true friends stay
Every moment and experience a lesson
Arguing with family mentally exhausted
Minds are made up set in ways
Disconnected from the crazy
Willing to compromise open to change
Actions and words do not match
Tried to be the bigger person
Cut the cord turned away
Over all the pain from the betrayal
Healing from the hurt buried alive
Growing from the ***** meant to survive
Walking as a whole feeling alive

Knocking you down but already humble. Trying to pursue a dream only you believe in. They'll tell you you're crazy they didn't even try. The pressure is overwhelming no surrender. Keep fighting back the struggle is real. Keep coming back refuse to give in being opposed rose above the hate

He worked on his footwork feeling like death was coming after him.
Distracted working drills to stay alive
Keeping his mind occupied sharp
Working with his cousin going through the motions
Life has been rough but staying tough
Around a tough crowd that doesn't get along
Dealing with rejects as he chose to be a social outcast.

The first time they met big smiles on their face. She had curly hair like curly fries. He was charming with a large personality. She was out going and seductive. While he was funny and charming. The day they met locking eyes their was an electric charge in the air. They both had chemistry with one another. She had been in a relationship. The guy was new to the whole experience he always had female friends but it was nothing more. He was use to the friend zone but with her this was a different experience. She was an only child and had lived with her mother. He was the oldest of six and both parents in his life.
They hung out a few times but he was happy to hang with her he didn't expect much but did have feelings. Her personality has her well know because of her athletic background. He liked to work out because it kept his mind sharp. He was a thinker observer and analyzed everything. The puppy love between them grew he was hooked the first time they kissed this kiss was electric full of energy. He was shy but once she brought him out of his shell he was growing developing communication skills since he grew up less fortunate learning to go without. She was spoiled and use to her way. He was nervous because he always thought his past would effect his future. He enjoyed the time they spent together. They would talk about things get to know one another personal deep conversation.  He has a hard time trusting because he had been hurt grew up with tough love. He didn't like the idea of lowering himself to be accepted or giving up who he was to be liked. She admired his courage and would make him feel valued. He did feel for her but he had been hurt in high school. His so called best friend got with his crush. He no longer wanted to associate with people who wronged him made him feel he didn't matter or belong. She told him he would be okay. He was not good with his emotions because his honesty got him hated when all he did wrong was tell the truth. He feared telling her how he felt because he didn't want her to see him differently cause her to change how she felt about him. The beginning is always fun stimulating and romantic getting to know the person what they like and how unique and special those moments could be.

Respecting people are on different levels but not going back down. He had no problem working. He had problems with lazy people that tried to talk him down because they chose to flat line. He refused to sink to their level when drama had nothing to do with him. He preferred to mind his business do his job the best of his abilities. He didn't make anyone look bad because they made their choices and had to live with the consequences.
He told himself if he moved up he'd always be active and involved with the team his title meant nothing because the work needed to be done consistently, persistently, kept at a higher standard not settling for less.

People come and go like the seasons
Sad to see them go letting is hard
Others leave without any hard feelings
Selfish to keep around let them grow
Onto a new chapter never good bye
Crossing paths in the future
Sharing a laugh to get through
Making one another smile good times
The journey with many detours
Not so bad with the right company
Feels like forever being detached
Able relate without awkward vibes

Not labels less pressure, they got along. He was free not going back to bad habits. He loved her but she was toxic. Gave up his friends so he could get sober. She would ruin the day if she didn't get her way. He didn't take the nonsense it made things worse. He always felt like a failure, if he didn't get it right for her. Other than it being physical ****** they didn't get along of have any common interest.

Made a witty remark seen as mean
Tried to be funny but someone got offended
Spoke my mind held it in finally getting it out
All the pent up frustration melted away
Nice to all the wrong people asking for the right
Not walking into the traps that trigger anger
Avoiding negative people sets me free
Told me never go against the family
The family usually gangs up against me
Cussed out by an aunt and grandma
The black sheep because I'm not a follower
Fighting to be an individual my own person
No matter how old I get they'll see me as a child
These emotions from a broken childhood
I've grown and out grew those feelings

Sitting in a crowded room the loudness, but muted it all out. Kept on writing not like the rest use to being out of the loop. Once inside its the worse. He gets ignored when asked for his opinion. Not everything he says is gold but it's insulting to talk and see their not interested ****** expression.
Everything changed not for the better its hard to understand. This confusion hard to comprehend with other outside factors that don't add up.

He stood deep in thought focused on his task
Others looked in his eyes assumed he was sad or hurt.
He was happy go lucky never asked anyone for anything because they weren't reliable
He made the most of his time gave his all
He loved his job earned every cent
Rather then ask how he felt they assumed he was sad or mad
This would annoy him so it would frustrated him leading to anger but he would let it go he didn't like others dictating his mood.
He hid his emotions because it got the best of him
He would focus on what made him happy regardless off all the distractions and setbacks
He worked hard so he could invest in himself. So many struggles in his mind coping with all these pent up thoughts and emotions.
He smiled his eyes sparkled because he was free
His caring eyes made others feel safe when he wasn't rushed or being provoked
He was willing to help those eyes determined
Once he's on the back burner he would work with what he had those eyes told stories shared emotions. He would go wide eyed for being honest because his honesty got him in trouble
Big brown eyes with long eyelashes that made girls jealous because his were real and natural. He was attracted they made him pretty.

Sometimes you take a beating and hide
You don't say anything they kick you when you're down. You don't say anything tolerate so many provoking you.
The day you stand tall, stand up for yourself confront those who are hurting you treating you bad. You enjoy the silence, one less road block obstacle to overcome. You take back your dignity you feel part of your self esteem return.
For years I haven't felt like myself so many judging so many putting down. I don't say much turn my back eventually you feel cornered and strike back. You know your mouth cuts like blades when words come out. You'd punch and swing but heavy handed
you control your hurt and pain. You don't wish it on others the burden makes you see black hard to breathe. You don't want to lose control, gaining it all back; don't want to lose it all again. One moment one second life never the same in a matter of seconds. You stay quiet because if you argue they will. You check them next minute they are playing victim.
Walking away keeping the peace so things stay normal not go crazy. These emotions make the mind hazy.

He entered the bar and waited for the bartender to take his order. She smiled at him and said "what can I get for you sweetie?" He would respond with "I'd like a double 7" the bartender asked "are you having a tough day?" He responded by saying "not at all just like to drink" she smiled at him and he would return the favor. "Thanks for asking" he said then took a drink of his beverage.
He would observe the room and take in the scenery. Then would give all his attention to the bartender. He would start a friendly conversation, "how does a lady like you end up in a dump like this." She wiped the countertop responding " I got a kid and going to school it pays the bills getting me through the struggle aka life." He sat puzzled not sure how to respond, she would ask him, "how are you living?" After another drink he said, "Work, pay bills, and adult stuff."
"Is there special lady in your life?" the bartender asked. "Not really dating right now, after years of being with the wrong women learned to make myself happy." He would extend his hand and introduce himself, "Name it Arnold, some people call me Arnie" she would respond "Hi, my name is kyrie or k."