plagued by experience:
so many lifetimes,
infinite trials,
beauty in impermanence,
joy in change,
blessing in ephemerality

I am consumed
Fed, bulging
Bulbous
Splitting at the seams
Engorged with You
Satiated by your tongue
Glutted, packed
I am full

I look for you in every person I meet
Pieces
Fragments
An eye color or smile line
Your favorite song, movie
The scent of you

am I foolish?
for continuing to dream of love
for planning a future filled with happiness
when the world around me is drowning
when children are being killed in the streets
am I selfish?
for hoping I have kids
for wanting my own garden in the yard
when forests are burning around me
when others are mourning lost ones

eighteen
flowers on your car
poems in my journal
the blue of your eyes
your smile in the moonlight
my taurus sun

I had healed the wound to a scab
but now it's bleeding again
merlot stains on my sheets
sobbing under a bandage
I wish I was a doctor