I radiated heat
Like the sun
But it wasn't until your arms touched me
That my blood began to run cold

Being bound to love

Is bound to fall

But being bound to fall

Is bound to trust

And being bound to trust

Means even if that person doesn't catch you when you fall

You were happy to have died from the love

He will love you like there is no tomorrow.
Hold you like you are the last hope on earth.
Touch you like his fingers haven't experienced the gold that is your body.
He will praise you and raise you up like the highest mountain.
Display his love for you in torrents of unspeakable affection.
He will treasure you as though you are a rare gem,
One that so many explorers have tried yet failed to discover.
He will remind you of how beautiful you are
And how you deserve the space you occupy in this world.
And he will always make sure you realize just how truly special
And cherished you are and make sure you don't feel less important than you truly are

Sometimes you do not know the pain you are trying to bury
You do not remember it's name
But you know it is there
So you lick up your shovel and just keep burying
Hoping that maybe it will be too far buried to crawl back out
But I don't think it was ever in the hole to begin with
It snuck out when your back was turned

I watch
I wait
I pray my eyes deceived me
I pray my ears misheardbut I know they did not
I know I have been foolish
There is no redemption at this point
I had always warned you

Her voice
Is so soothing
Her arms
Are so welcoming
I love you

No...

I want love
And not the kind that shines brightly just to burn out quickly
No the kind that shines steadily and lasts more than one night

She wanted to be held tight
But he held her back
She wanted to be held up
But he held her down

Pelvic stars glow across my being,
But just because this light allures you does not mean you are welcome to take what lays in between the infinite universe of those stars

My eyes are burning and oh so red

I need a hug but got a pinch instead

My senses are growing weak and my hands are shaking

Because everyday my smile is what I'm faking

But when Mr.Dark comes and the daylight is gone

I silently cry till I'm no more

The heart contradicts

I was a teardrop before
Until I grew into something more
I became waves
I became torrents

I was a trickle before
But now i rush towards light
I was nothing but little hopes
And now I am the dreams

A day of wonder
Is a day I do not know
A day I have not been able to explore
Yet instead I discover the blood within lungs
preventing me from breathing
I cannot analyse the faces before me
The smiles
The happiness
I often wonder if that shall ever be applicable to me
If the sun will ever gift my skin with the shine it bestows upon others
They testify that I hallucinate
that none of my worries belong in reality
none of them are worth existing

I hate being told how I feel..it annoys me
The chills and the tingles I felt were never a lie
The honesty I portrayed
The true care and patience was never a lie
Please don't tell me how I feel.for you have no idea

Destroyed am I?
I cannot tell
For when I loved you
My heart would swell

Broken am I?
That's a lie
For when I loved you
I never did cry

Lost am I?
That's not the truth
For when I was with you
My passion took root

Angry am I?
No,I liked the allure
But I also learnt that I deserve more

My love for you grew strong and tall
Even when you tried to weather my affection with your bitter words and cut it down into nothing
yet, still my love flourished touching the skyline and bringing you a light you never dreamt was in existence

Dreams don't hurt unless you want them to
Even nightmares coated with screams and quicksand won't hurt unless you want it to.Unless you forfeit all the power you have in the slumber real.

But why should you?

You broke my heart
And there was blood everywhere
So I tried to wash it all away with alcohol
But that just made me a little too drunk

The end of the worlds chapter is coming

Will you be in the rolling credits?

Books are the most welcoming
They let you stare and they never push you aside
Humans aren't always welcoming
If you stare they may mace you and they don't just push,they make sure you hit the ground

I stay awake through the night
Chipping at my nails
The blood around reminds me to ask
"Why do you love me?"
The half moon lingering on my skin yet not masking the scars and marks

There have been ways to love you
Tell me so I can too

I've never been in love with myself as I have been the last few months
Loving my soul, body and mind
And not apologising for what this trinity produces, creates or loves

The words will come
At the dead of night
Did you not see!
They passed your sight!

I wonder if I said I need someone how many will come
I wonder if I said I need to talk how many will listen
I wonder if I said I need to cry how many will care
I wonder if I said I need to die how many will try to stop me

Once there was love,
A vast torrent of emotion pulling at the strings of her heart.
Once there was love,
Soft kisses replaced by rough hands.
Once there was love,
But then violation after violation replaced that love.

I need to lay in your arms. Where the smell of forest resides and moonshine leaves its dust in your hair.
Where the illumination of your loving heart breaks the ice within mine
Where safety is completely defined and completely true
Where happiness is ready to embrace me as I fall into your love
Where the darkness can do nothing but watch with envy as it hands cannot reach me anymore
Let me lay in your arms.
Where the certainty of peace will forever be

I die inside everyday but no one sees,but all honesty there is no one to see.I walk the streets alone and dance on the raging sea,when the night is still young and i see the purple left by the sun.Blood and tears mix and fall upon the canvas of my skin,broken.memories replaying in my head.My heart.knocks against my hollow chest,begging me to feed it with the love it knows exists.I thud against my chest,silencing my frightened heart,giving it smoke of relentless pain instead to quench its thirst.Then my limbs ask for attention too,begging to be coaxed awake for once and not left to die like autumn leaves,I silence them too.Finally my eyes ponder at the sight they see,black and white,what happened to the purple the sun left they ask.I silence them as well and they sleep for eternity

Your dark skin
Is pure and undiluted
Wonderful and not in need of explanation
It is wholesome and enough

You're magic
Pure and undiluted

My body was gray
And then you kissed more colours unto me than I had ever seen

I sowed your name unto my wrist in red thread
So the devil knew who I belonged to and who would come

**** your eyes
The way they look at me
Peeling off my skin and revealing beauty
The way those lips testify of my glory
One which I never knew
And your words birth me anew
Like the saving fire of a pitch black night

Your hands never felt mine before
But they understood like they were born together
As though our fingers were locked in a silent embrace from time
Yet they were not,we were not

I fall back into myself some days and you grasp me just in time before I am swallowed
I still know that magic does not exist
It does not need to when you are around

The funny thing about love is
When you try to fill the other person's lungs with smoke,so they can't breathe without you
You end up setting your heart on fire
And burning it away

The stars burn brightly
as bright as I once did
now this is just mockery

If only they didn't leave me here alone
To catch their last breaths in my lungs
And taste them like they were still here

My hair is made of flowers
Yet they tell me I am not pretty enough
My skin is made of honey
Yet they tell me I am not sweet enough
Clouds linger in my eyes
Yet they tell me I do not dream
And in these moments I realise no matter how whole I am, for some I will never be enough

The girl that sits infront of you
Having ended her journey
Is not the same girl who started her journey
So please don't dare speak to her like the old her that is lost

Eventually,when every blood vessel is popping.

I'll be thinking of you

You ****** out the nectar I gathered for years
And now that my sweet scent is gone
You found another flower

I'm laying here being highly confused about my life and all I can do is stare into space and pray for an outlet to fall into my lap
An outlet to let me express, let me feel, let me scream
And here I an writing
Because unbeknown to me my prayers were answered long ago
Yet I was too blinded by my need for another's glory that I didn't see mine staring at me, waving at me and calling my name

Sometimes I hide within myself
Within the folds of my soul
But then you coax me out gently
And I have to say I have never felt so alive

I have an impecable memory
But has love forgotten me?

My mind is like a moonless night
Devoid of stars

I am like a new window, I just hope life doesnt taint me too much, actually I am waiting for the right stains

We are all equal
The only thing that separates us is the efforts we put into developing our beings

Woman,
Your hands are meant to cook
Or so they tell me

Woman,
Your back is meant to bear a child
Or so they tell me

Woman,
Your body is meant to satisfy
Or so they tell me

Woman,
Your lips are meant to be silent
Or so they tell me

But Woman,
You are so much more
I tell myself

Woman,
Your hands make so much more than just "good food"
I tell myself

Woman,
Your mind, your soul is intricate your thoughts matter
I tell myself

Woman,
You can build or you can destroy
What you are depends on only you
I continue to tell myself

The signs are there
My poetry is declining
And so am I

When you love so many times
You realize you have a BIG heart
but a small brain