Mirrors
reflecting
reflecting what?
my poor excuse for a face?
for a soul?
for a life?

I sit and ponder of a world without you
A world were I could no longer walk in your footsteps
Or smell you in the air
A world where the flowers didn't desire to remind me of you
That world has a name and it is called
Hell

Some people want you to flood them
with everything you have to offer
But remember it is okay to give drops
when your barrel is almost empty

Is it fates way of telling me I deserve the universes I have yet to discover
By lacing my soul with yours?
By making my happiness that did not exist
Raise to the stars and kiss the blackness of skys

I waited for an eternity to be exposed to a love as raw as this
I begged for a century more for it to last as this one seems to grow roots deep

I want to be whole again
And the hate eating me inside is stopping that

You let happen what you think should happen

They were under intense heat,not of the sun but of each other

He said to her
"These are our kissing moments"

But she replied

"No,its more than that its when our souls touch"

I wish to hold you my king.and love you like we are stuck between dawn and dusk

You were born as nothing
Yet you lived as everything
And died as something

The ground is putrid
Yet they still smile
They still work
They still live

My world is full of stars
So they tell me it's too bright

If winter is over
Then why hasn't my heart melted?

Fatigue never got in the way of a man and good things

You were used to straight and paved roads
So when you met me
A dirt road with so many turns and bumps
You panicked with no map to guide you

Days that are gone
Are counted more than the days that are here

My head hurts because I keep thinking of things my brain tells me will never be

You took your words from your treasure chest
You chose the moset bitter ones
And sprinkled them on my wounds

My soil is craving revenge
Yet I should be happy

Your hands are covered in blood from ripping out my heart

Your words are covered in sin from lying to me

Your eyes are covered in guilt from lying you wanted me

Your soul is covered in darkness for having what you didn't deserve

Upon the threshold I stand
Looking down at my life
I can not tell if the tears are for a life so well lived that it is beyond any sadness to leave it behind
Or if the tears are because I realise my life was built only on sadness that no other can know

Your lips are like poison
Yet I pull you closer
Blackening my soul in the process

The untitled are my dreams
They lay there without ambition to cover their cold skins

The untitled are my joys
They await bravery to explore them

The untitled are my passions
They sit in a cave away from the world
Without sunlight to bring them forward

The untitled is me
For i am both afraid and hopeless
Yet I still find a way to exist

Someone was told me"Life is going to beat that hopefulness out of you." and I am afraid he was right, I have become but a dark human in a chaotic world.

Full on lies
Empty on love

"What if I like broken?"He said

She answered
"No one does.no one likes a broken mug.no one uses it.no one likes a broken toy it ends up in the bin.people stay away from broken glass because it hurts them.nothing that is broken is loved"

Stop letting go
Of things you know
Make you glow

Sometimes I feel like fall

When I arrive

Things die

They said not to look
But I did and found love

My mother had a wild tongue
She never accepted a man with a leash in his hands
And neither will I

I am not whole
But slowly I'm pieces of myself
That I never knew I lost

Never let an unacceptable
Become your equal

I see the oppression
But they constantly whisper to me
"Be blind"

She wanted to be held tight
But he held her down

As you traced your fingers along my soul

I knew what you expected to feel;

Curves

Yet all you found was;

Sharp edges

And your fingers bled

From beginning to end

Take your journey with a pen

My words formed an ocean, your response formed a sea and together we were deeper than deep can be.

You were a ghost town
But I so badly wanted to be a resident

My heart is paralyzed and cannot move towards love

Don't be scared to do
Don't be scared to be

I showed you my scars yet you hid yours

I'm losing the fight with my sanity

Everyone has different stars
It is easy to get so blinded by another's
That you can't see your own

A little late night
A little lost hope
A little dark magic
And then a lost soul

Writing my future
And reading my past
Fixing the present
Hoping the tears don't last

I find myself being more and more drawn in
Being awakened yet being so **** asleep
And realising that in this space
In this hole I dug and named holy
That nothing makes sense
And that I've been planting flowers for years in this hole with the hope something might grow
But it never has
Instead it remains destitute and putrid
It remains destitute and putrid

I know
That even as the rain swallows the ground whole
There are still those that still try to plant their feet somehow somewhere

My insanity was in your hands
And I expected you to crush it
But you let it float like a butterfly
just to watch me suffer..

Feeding off air
Living off nothing

Pain is immortal
not I

Love is a type of destruction
it destroys the soul
And builds a new one