( Haiku)
My existence is like a shadow
fades with the light.
An essence dimming bright.
Alone every night

Don't fear the unknown atomsphere.
Who birthed thee earth?
The devil or god's work?
A mental nervous breakdown of complete beserk.
A heart unwilling to be broken.
Refuse to get choken.
Second hand smoking.
Forever always hoping.
You were a scholar of wisdom.
Mom thought you were a ***.
Just because money you didn't have none.
She is stupid, blind, deaf, & dumb.
Dad your absence made me sad.
Each other's company we no longer had.
Her divorcing you was wrong & bad.
It made me angry & mad.
The old bitter hag is glad.
You were a good man.
You used to drive a white van.
The old crone kicked you out, & had you banned.
She still screams & shouts.
She is the one who should've been banished.
To disappear & vanish.
You didn't own your own land.
But you were always willing to lend a helping hand.
He never had many plans.
Arizona was where you ran.
I guess the she is both someone we couldn't stand.

Betrayal

Morning glories....boring stories.
Nightmares about strangers who stare.
Dreams of moonbeams, rivers, & streams.
Money I will never again lend.
That's the alternate end.
Not again your promises bend.
Your word is a lie.
Soon I hope you will die.
It's karma so don't wonder why.
The truth you wouldn't know if you tried.
Misery of being broke makes you cry.

- Haiku-
Hawaii, Ireland, and France, three places I would want to go.
*** belly piggies, chipmunks, & baby lambs I want to know.
Vacations & new pets, and working cars that don't get towed.
What will destiny, karma, trinity, infinity, & fate have bestowed?

Nothing is not something to be.
Broke & unemployed, for a year that was me.
Any friend who cares can see.
A mutual connection to give that part of me.
I envision a stable happiness of harmony.
A peace that is free.
A trusting love that's true that is he.
Big hearts & thoughtful minds that is we.
No secrets to find, no mysteries to untwine.
No regrets to rewind.
No promises to bind.
Nothing to hide.
Open book. Open wide.
A friend to confess & confide.
A journey & path to guide.
Prayers answered.
Whispered desires.
Untamed flames & passionate fires.
No untold lies.
Friends money can't buy.
No unanswered Questions of why.
No broken hearts that cry.
All that is true & fair.
Nothing pursued or dared.
Someone real to care.
A meaningful stare.
A loving heart, an honest feeling, a true passion.
A faithful promise.
A heart felt respect.
No one needs to correct.
An erased debt.
A winning bet. A reunion met. A commitment to get. A destiny & fate to let. A loving loyal pet. A plan to set.

He swaggers by with such confidence.
I stare in admiration of his brown hair & hat.
Nobody else sees what I see, I know he's all that.
His strong personality defends a lack of trust.
He shys away without interest a shell within himself
While I am left to ponder
if about me he will ever grow fonder.
We have nothing in common.
I like to Facebook, watch DVDs, & write poems.
He likes to drink, play video games, & who knows what else.
We are not friends he doesn't care about me.
My feelings he does not care to see.
I guess I am to old is how it is to be.
To be 20 to 17 years younger is impossible.
To be the same age is just not possible.
Our spirits have no age.
But our mortal bodies decline & fade.
I guess I am a person he would never get to know or miss.
Eternal Youth full grown is my personal wish.
To reverse my skin's aging & never decrease bone mass.
To maintain a beautiful face, firm *******, & a figure that's first class.

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
I am not dead.
I feel alive & new.
You forgot my birthday shame on you.
A regretful sin.
Envy begins.
Triangular webs have spinned.
Wars nobody will win.
Tragedy is what it has been.
Starved from within.
A hunger so thin.
Enemies who are twins.
Joy & Grace you should embrace.
A broken face you can't replace.
Wipe the tears from your face.
Utter disgrace how we left the vase.
The right time to leave this wrong place.
Please get out of my face!
Remember you wanted your space.
Loneliness has a bitter taste..
Our relationship needs to pick up the pace.
A memory gone to waste.
In time feelings fade & erase.
Ideas you can't express or trace.

Damnation is an evil creation.
A puzzling equation throughout the nation.
A crime of temptation.
A hateful sensation.
A fear when your near.
My words no one can hear.
Heartless and thoughtless.
No eternal bliss.
No One to miss. Hell is there granted wish.
A place to rot like an uneatten dish.
You never will go free.
Your confession will guarantee.

Electric socket.
Life insurance pay out in your pocket.
Primary benefactor.

Impossible miracle.
To bring the dead back to life.
To be a Saint.
A miracle worker.
To me you never talk.
People believe I only stalk.
There have been misconceptions.
Lies & rumors of deception.
People don't really know me.
You can change your mood.
Choose to conversate & not be rude.
The family I disowned continues to intrude.
They only see what they want to see.
Their habits conflict with my moral values.
I wasted my love on alot of mistakes.
I won't waste another minute while I am awake.
Spending my time being productive.
To be happy & loved everyday I live.
Insanity is not in my mind.
Nobody ever really looks for it to find.
Nobody ever devoted their time.
To a living commitment to be mine.
Just because I suffered ****** trauma.
Doesn't automatically mean I have psychological drama.

Anger of a stranger.
In my own bed room exists a nighty danger.
Hatred of who took what is sacred.
Tries to lie.
Attempts to buy.
Never explains why.
Makes little children cry.
Wishing for us to die.
Away from here I want to fly.
The kidnapper picked the wrong guy.
She should have never said "hi".
The victim was I.
She lives in a pig sty.
I hate guns.
The situation never made me run.
******, threats, & suicides are not fun.
Evil is never done.
A criminal I am not the one.
Miles are not enough distance between pedofiles.
The internet is not how they met.
I bet that is how their plan is set.
They never pay their debt.
Justice is what we never get.

Love that old fizzles out.
A new one sizzles on.
Extinguished dissolving to ashes.
My heart falls, a broken love, quit hoping.
Can't have it all.
Jealousy is only joking.
I'm coping.
Picking up the pieces.
When a lover's heart ceases.
People you love who matter deceases.
From unknown diseases.
Your will to live increases.
Made new with all you do.
Mutual admiration & respect.
Who pays the debt?
My marriage would have no regrets.
Or *** to want to forget.
Achieves the goals they set.
Wins no bets.
Glad of where & how they met.

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I hope I get picked at this hiring event.
So I can move out of here & pay my own rent.
A miracle would be heaven sent.
By a saint only a devil could taint.
Tomorrow i am giving my cat to the shelter.
His love is not as it were.
Because he scratched my nose.
It bleed like being pierced with a thorn from a rose.
The trust is gone.
To be adopted by someone who don't like to cuddle.
Abandonment is not subtle.
Cats don't like to be held against their will.
Or intentions to harm you they will.
They feel threatened by restraint.

No  more kisses.
Just growls & hisses.

I beckon thee to the limitless sky.
I ask myself not to tremble or cry.
You pass the time & take what's mine.
You have no remorse & live just fine.
Slaughter houses have no empathy for pain & misery.
For animals we need to unify justice & rights.
An equal species fight.
Keep Wilbur safe all day & every night.
Don't let the serpent strike & bite.
Repel the evil entity in flight.
A baby piglet to have & hold with delight.
Their lives hypnotize & captivate.
No more BBQ's & steakhouses.
Take a stand & save the ******.

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Gaze at the gigantic moon.
See how it illuminates the room.
The sky so foggy & dark casts shimmer of light,
The night grass soggy.
The dog still barks, moonlight glows bright.
A silloutte shadow of a black cat jumps a fence.
My heart beat intense.
Spooky images move.
My vision improves.
Owls are bad luck, being alone in the dark *****.

Watching & waiting,
my paranoia & fears debating.
My hopes & joys fastly fading.
My journey stops parading.
Endless nights limitless heights.
Living a nightmare,
With no one who really cares.
You’re the only one there.

Dishonest & Untrue.
Breaking hearts is what you do.
The right guy is so far & few.
Commitments is not something they knew.

Who is me?
A transparency & essence you can see.
Feel & touch me you will see I am real.
My voice chooses words.
None of which you really ever heard.
Our time for you of us together is blurred.
When your drunk your speech is slurred.
Flashbacks & nightmares.
*** with people that don't truly care.

A devotion with pure emotion of promise is unfamiliar.
Cheater's mistakes are so similar.
My eyes see who you really wish to be.
To be okay, if you sleep over & stay.
Yesterday, tomorrow, & after this day.

My ears hear, the truth has no fear.
Food for the hunger.
What is for dinner? I really wonder.

The joy of laughter, living happily everafter.
Our love assembled from above.
To quench my desire.
I lay by the fire.
Outside trees move & sway in the breeze.
You don't have to say "thanks" or "please."

Sunrays shine through trees of pine.
A foggy haze through this forest maze.
I caught my thoughts of you clouded in a daze.

My screams were only in nightmares & dreams. The mountain stood tall observing it all.
Lost in the trees I tripped & fell on my knees.
Just love is what we knew.
A feeling so true.
Never have I felt your kiss.
Something I know I would miss.

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Whisper in my ear all the things you know I Want to hear.
Stop drinking alcohol & beer.
Or your car you can't drive or steer.
I know we worked together for two years.
It is not true the rumor of you being queer.

I know I am a little older.
The rejection feels colder.
My persuasion gets bolder.
I write my poems & keep them in a folder.

You work the produce department.
In my heart I reserved a special compartment.
Together we should get an apartment.

Bored, neglected, & ignored.
Bitterness & conclusion is stored.
Show me who is boss.
Marry me no matter what the cost.
Make a promise about me you will forever care.
To stay in my life & always be there.

Everything about you I could know I already learned.
I have noticed your concern.
Too much sunshine my skin will burn.
You have become my sole attraction.
There is competition.
A minor distraction.
In the end I will get your reaction.

Good luck charms...
Wrap around me your arm.
My love is disarmed.
By your presence my senses are alarmed.
You are handsome, tall, & strong.
I am completely seduced by your charm.
I see trust in his eyes.
An intelligent mind that is wise.
His smile enchants & I am mesmerized.
An image like the light of the first sunrise.
Magical & sacred.
Blessed & without hatred.
You are absolutely the best.
You pass the test.
My mind relaxes & my fears put to rest.

She did nothing as he ***** us.
She did nothing as he murdered the neighbor's dog.
She did nothing as he whipped us.
He drugged us & knocked us out.
He ***** us & tried to **** us
The torture & torment.
He got away with it all is how that went.
The gun "mama' got him was for his own protection.
I still remember I have recoalition.

So he had it everytime someone called the cops.

It would be in his left hand behind the open door.

Law enforcement knew nothing & still don't.

It was 1988 to 1991.
The sick ******* had his fun.

Now "mother" just lays in a puddle of ****.
I am sure the past is not something anyone would want to live over or miss.
Everyday all day with no ambition or goals.

The filth & stench surround her.
Nothing beautiful or eye pleasing.
Just stale air & wheezing.

She is almost 80 & she doesn't care how she looks, smells, or feels.
The same with her house.

The only time she felt he had to go was when he threw a knive at "my brother".
After all that I no longer wanted her as a "mother",
I disowned then all by changing my name in 2008.
To control my own destiny & dictate my own fate.
Choose myself who I do or don't want to date.

He put alcohol in our drinks.
As minors so we could not be concisous to consent or think .

A disgust I could not stand.
He made me carry their dead bodies by the handful to the toilet to flush with my bare hands.
He kept dead fish in the freezer.

My clone so I am not alone.
We have yet to find our home.
Nobody messages me on my phone.
No where is where we roam.
Just lounge in a tub of water & foam.

If I was an actress.
I would be a success.
On screen I would never undress.
I don't do comedy.
I don't play scrabble, twister, dominos, or monopoly.
A pie in the face is a mess.
I don't do romance.
I want no one to touch or caress.

I don't do scary.
I don't like backs that are hairy.

I don't do violence or ****.
I don't do horror that would be rude.

Love letters, online predators.
Bill collectors & sicknesses that don't get better.
Snow, wind, & rain.
Rejection makes you insane.
Feelings of infatuation are lame.
All commitments are not the same.
The sweetest memories are not of a felony psychotic relationships wasted my life bit by bit.
My morals told me to quit.

Alone I sit & think.
My thoughts blink.
Connections link.
My wardrobe is mostly pink.
Someone has to care.
A person to be there.
To protect. & guide.
Never to be afraid or hide.

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My daughter was 3 states away.
With the court appointed I did not want to stay.

Holding on for you.
I did not tell nobody knew.

Devastate how you forsake.
A connection won't take.
My heart will break.
This body convulses and shakes.
To stay alive my breath can not make.
My spirit hovers above this realms gate.
My ex I truly hate.
He almost took me from this life.
I deserve to be a sane man's wife.

My favorite colors are pink & black.
You can see it in my makeup & wardrobe.
I post the images online around the globe.
I have no secrets.
My truth has no lies.
The past no longer makes me cry.
My tears dried up through the years.
I deserve to be someones wife.
I am proud of my life.
But disgusted by where I live.

Let's be here.
Give me a hot kiss.
Stay with me.
Talk with me.
Your handsome but mean.
I guess I am attracted to mean guys who don't want me.
People who want me I don't want.
Mutual attraction would be a miracle.
I believe I am beautiful.
I would be a perfect wife.
I am not sure I could think the same of you.
I don't cheat.
But I like to shop weekly.
I can't cook or clean.
But my first devotion is to my daughter.

I am in control of my own soul.
It is my goal to keep it whole.
Within the hour all my power will devour.
Turn the world sour.
I need to bathe & shower with flowers.
I strayed far away to a place that portrayed to betray today.
I don't pray to any gods.
Animals are who I obey.
Telepathically their wishes are conveyed.
Furry friends are holy vessels.
I like to hug, kiss, pet, & nestle.
Everyday to anyone's dismay.
My love & affection for animals is always on display.
Without delay.
Earth is where they should stay.
To be a mother & a father not sent to slaughter.
Not breeded.
Just food & water.
Until I am old & grey.
I got caught about forgetting a lot.
Yesterday I had nothing to say.
An old foaggie went too a buffet.
He was not okay his toupee fell on his tray.
He was not happy or gay.
Everyone said "hey"

Destiny is calling what is left of me.
An army is more than one, two, or three.
Honor is a part of me.
Morals you feel but can't see.
Heros don't always get fame on t.v.
Humanity is a morality.
Death is a tragedy.
Disperse this ambush.
The alliance was not first.
Delayed from before.
Bombed to the floor.
Echoed through the corridor.
Innocent souls to heaven soar.
From this life mortals need more.
Vital to survival.
Don't stall or idle.
Go the extra mile.
Be pleasant & don't forget to smile.

Gave him the boot.
No more free ride.
Now he is forced to commute.
No longer a thorn in my side.
Did you read about what I need?
Have you read the note by the bed?
I said the cat was fed.
My another cat dead.
The stench made my jaw clench.
" I am broke " I mumbled.
The will power,
To save a dollar crumbles.
Through my bag for change I fumble.
" I am starving " I grumbled.
To work & back daily I stumble.
My hungry stomach rumbles.
My paycheck wages are so humble.
Maybe study with a buddy.
It is rude in our room to just intrude.
Even though you had good food.
The teddy bear sat dusty in the chair.
The fat cat sat asleep on the floor mat.
Nobody called or texted to chat.
Loneliness was where it was at.
I sold my gold.
I had to fold.
The cost put us at a loss.
Feeling lost. Dare to care.
Not having a job is unfair

Once Upon a Time you could buy the world with a dime.
Who cares now there's always been crime.
That was your world not mine.
Your next victim where and when you find.
A sin to hell is what will bind.
The devil will send you to your end.
Broken hearts don't mend.
I guarantee your nightmares will haunt my face you will forever see.
You wish you could be in heaven like me.
Too bad you could never be my dad.
I'm glad I hope you're sad.
It made me mad.
Your time will come.
Go to the fire and have some.
This is not your kingdom.
Life with you was not fun.
We were a tool.
A broken rule.
My "mother" was a haggard mule.
My "sister" a fool.
My "brother" a duel.
My father a ghoul.
A home life you ruined.
You will get yours.
A sin you can't ignore.
You took advantage of us just because we were poor.
ILLegal **** you wanted more.
Like we were for sale at a store.
I'm not your *****.
Do not knock on my door.
Go to hell will you belong.
I hope it doesn't take too long.
Before I can hear a harmonious song.
A waste of space.
You parked in my spot.
Get out of the lot.
You are wrong.
You aren't right.
You want to fight.
I will bite.
Evil should die and never get to live with innocent souls.
Why did God let this happen to me?
Why am I a victim?
Why do I have to endure filthy, rotten, ******, evil to corrupt my life?
My innocence, my happiness, my joy, my will to live, & my confidence.
Why do I have to experience your disgusting, sick, unthinkable,nasty, hate and corruption?
If sinful deceit in my heart, my mind, my body, & my soul.
And my thoughts of insanity.
My damaged sanity caused by your sins.

She is divine, no one you will ever find.
She is sweet, innocent, & kind.
She is not yours or mine.
She can not rewind or stop time.
Not someone you can wine & dine.
Your M.O. is to dine & ditch.
Make someone your b*tch.
Seek out someone to sue who is rich.
Insurance fraud.
A philosophy that's odd.
Decisions & morals all switched.
You will never get hitched.
*** with no strings.
Corruption & hatred it what it brings.

So busy I feel dizzy.
What a fuss.
She already missed her school bus.
My distress was repressed.
I confess I tend to obsess.
I always have to express.
Her unaccurate progress with the wrong scores on the test.
What a mess.
For picture day she forgot to wear the pretty dress.
It was okay more or less.
I guess the school had the wrong address.
Her class room number was the wrong access.
By her gifted talents,
Nobody was impressed.
The thought transgressed.
I have had enough stress..not autistic..only artistic.
I went ballistic.
Nobody ever fixed it.
Her academic history falling through the cracks has been consistent.

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My tired eyes close.
As my body froze.
Light from the window reflects off the tears in my eye.
My sadness doesn't always have a why.

The purportions of my image in your eyes are distorted.
I appear fat, ugly, & old.
But to myself I look thin, young, & glow.

I release my sorrow & wash my face.
Mutual attraction does not exist.
The single life I will never miss.
Why can't my lips he just kiss.
He might love it.

Why is my happiness with a true love not possible.
Why is to say for him " I love you" so impossible?

The vision of my life is not how I envision.
I always assumed & imagined I would marry.
No one will ever ask.
In my twenties or thirties.
I give up hope.
At 37 I realize it will never happen for me.

I Forget to remember.
I don't trust my memory.
My biography in a summary.
A little piece of me.
A person to know & see.
My words are only half heard.
My face easily forgotten.
I hadn't deserved most of what I had gotten.
You don't message me daily.
You never arrange to see me.
We have no relationship.
We never kiss on the lips.

Cobwebs clinging to death.
Corpses it caresses.
Hideous messes.
Belonging in the crypt.
Demise you can't fix.
Solitary confinemint shelled in a coffin or casket.
Dark, cold, & underground.
No flowers in a basket.
Six feet under rumble.
Decayed & crumbled.
A headstone to remember.
A tragedy to wonder.
A restless sleep in slumber.
Without peace.
LIFE just cease.
Death is haunting.
Mortality is a curse that is taunting.

I Don't cheat. Who would I meet? Have a seat.
Your family banned me.
I say "yes" to only the best.
I confess I have the potential to obsess.
I possess undying loyalty & devotion.
With an attraction to success.
A prior notion ... out of distress
I gave out my address.
My emotions I could not serpress.
Falling in love with you before I expressed.
My feelings are & is alot to invest.
I want all his love.
My self worth has been a rebirth.
An exploding star of incredible brightness.
Slowly dimming over time.
Mythic righteousness being divine.
Not a crime.
I put myself first.
A super Nova.
Not Christ or Jehovah. A God?
That would be odd.

His brown hair uncut & fair.
He knows I am there.
Because at him I always stare.
I wonder if he ever imagines how I appear bare.
About my nakedness would he even care?
Someone to trust who I he would never try to scare.
To be bold enough to kiss me would he even dare?

A desire for his love burns so hot.
As sweet as a sugared gum drop.
A cursed rejection so real it rots.
A dream only a nightmare could stop.
An ending with snap, crackle. & pop.
The floor has flooded again, where is the mop?
In the workplace or after in the parking lot.
We deserve all that we got.
Food or presents to imagine he bought.
To visualize it by thinking the thought.
To share his bed & never again sleep on a cot.
A story to tell about with a twisted plot.

A composition so well crafted.
In it's first & second drafted.
A  Masterpiece of letters form words.
None of which you really read or heard.

Maybe someday in music or a song.
My poetry will be loved & belong.

A connection unfolds and is not lost.
My dignity would be all it would cost.

A collaboration with the entire nation.
What a musical sound creation.
Having my baby was never an if or a maybe.
That would have been crazy.
The one I have makes me glad.
Even though she never had a dad.
The pain was worth giving her birth.
Always needing feeding.
Never getting a wedding.
No engagement ring on my finger.
No ceremony singer.
The sky of stars are my diamonds,
pearls in the sea.
They would always mean something to me.
As the noise fades, animals leave the confinements of their caves.
Time goes on, the years get long.
Find a place or person to belong.
Birds chirp a daily song.
The sun keeps on burning.
Children are always learning.
The world keeps turning.
The fallen leaves get raked.
The earth quakes.
Hearts break.
Daylight can get too bright.
Rain sprinkles make the streets twinkle.
Foggy skies conceal distances.
Offering limited visablity resistance.
The chilly air I despise when it is there.
Warmer clothes I have to wear. To get sick I wouldn't dare.

I am not good with persuasion.
Even though I was young & am beautiful, & caucasion.
She appeared at your door.
I swear she was there.
Ignore the creeps & ******.
We need groceries at the store.
I am so broke & poor.
Don't look in that drawer.
That is theirs not yours.
Who is keeping score?
Our love can't restore.
The one I adore.
Seduction soars.
My heart wants more.
Do you need proof?
See are window from the roof.

The sunshine can never be mine.
Maybe I will be okay & just fine.
My feelings I can not confine.
No current love spells bind.
Time of the past, present, & future.

Can not stop, pause, or rewind.
He does not want nickels, Pennies, or dimes.
No more love song dedications or hymns.
Uncomfortable & sour like lemons or limes.
Senseless words that rhyme.
Rejection like a creep of slime.
Maybe his feelings will change in time.

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Switch me for the b*tch to be.
My love wasn't fake.
You leaving me was a big mistake.
People who are cruel
think the world they could rule.
That is not a fact.
Caravores attack.
Your ego you subtract.
When I win it is like a sin.
My child is mine.
If she stays with me that will be just fine.
You can't rewind time.
Your path you will find.
Can you hear the bells that chime?
Read my words that rhyme.
Soon it will be the right time.
Is happiness a crime??
Got lost in trees of pine.
Never drink wine.
Only eat from the ripe grape vine.
Trees with lime under the slippery slime.
Smoking **** from a ****.
You know that is wrong.
Your willpower is not strong.
Have a little faith, I was pure.
You ruined me.
There is no cure.
I want us to be how we were?
Nearby evil lures.
Of that I am sure. My rank a prank. I don't have money in the bank

Green eyes & seductive stare.
Words which never lie.
Everyday about me he cares.
Buys me a latte of chai.
His arms around mine.
An endless love through time.
His kiss on my face.
A loving embrace.
In 1996, through the doorway his arms around my waist.
A memory time can't erase.
His greenish eyes see all the naked parts of me.
His only woman I want to be.
A true love set free.
A person to cherish.
A love never to perish.
Perfect lips, unbroken hips,
freckled hands, untraveled lands.
Seductive mouth, forbidden south,
a gentle caress,
love made best,
Faithfulness put to the test,
insecurities that never rest.
His thoughts that count.
Unpaid debts that mount,
Red hair that glows, a loving heart that knows.
A generous mind, in him I find.
Unlocked treasures.
Nobody else could measure.
My Best Friend
A smart man, his biggest fan.
His baby head asleep on my lap.
A face he would never slap.
He likes fishing.
Together forever is what I'm wishing.
Being alone I am not missing.
His face I want to be kissing.
Just being a friend.
Needs to end.
I want more.
Then to just be a *****.
He says I am a chore.
I grew up poor.
I used to sleep on a floor.
I hate to be ignored.
I don't know what's in store.
I haven't been given the grand tour.
I want to be his girl. I want to be his world. With him I fell in love. He was sent from heaven above. He is who I adore. He makes my spirit soar. He is part of what I live for. I feel it in my core. I just need stability & commitment more.

What will you find inside my mind?
My thoughts can never be bought.
My dreams are like moonbeams.
They glow really bright.
Being a mommy should'nt be a fight.
Taking a child from there mom isn't right.
My nightmares are not fair.
They can't care.
Images that haunt.
Bodies that flaunt.
My destiny is what is left of me.
A misery you see should not be.
Your thrills make me ill.
Promise not to laugh about anything from my past? It's unfortunate it didn't last.
A curse was cast.
My life was ruined fast.
The face had no mask.

Who was your first?
This is not going to work.
What is my temperature?
We don't feel like we were.
Are you qualified?
Have I already died?
Am I hideous?
Should I run & hide?
You don't understand,
from my own life I have been banned.
I can't stay here.
I don't trust you.
You are no one I knew.
It was me you were choking.
I am okay now not even broken.
To be with me still you were hoping.
Are you insane?
You have got to be joking.

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I like to concentrate on not having to wait. Romance should be an effortless dealing.
Not a heartless feeling.
My age is congealing.
My impatience is reeling.
Why is to love me so impossible?
A commitment improbable.
My heartbreak unstoppable.
A man for me is all I ask.
You act like it is an inconceivable task.
Over me you'd rather choose a Bourbon flask.

Because your not willing to take a chance.
Why is a long term committed relationship such an impossible fantasy?
So together never we will be. Here is your true desire?
Disappointment peaks higher.
Misery & deceit conspires.

A tiny warm soft snuggly body.
Two sweet & kind beautiful green eyes.
With mortal bodies that die.
An innocent kitten or puppy.
Or a fluffy white or grey bunny.
Next to my head on my pillow.
Through the window you can see the meadow.
Not having family with to eat meals.
Low class poverty is a life that's real.
A paycheck of 9.00 an hour doesn't heal.
Cursed days time endlessly deals.
Pity is misery forever to feel.
Money has to be earned you can't steal.
I never had a chance to spin fortune on a wheel.
The music box plays a sleepy tune.
The ceiling had colorful balloons.
A nap with Bo Bo in the afternoon.
Silence & coldness throughout the room

I want to hold you.
You and I together are belonging.
That's right, you see the light.
You make my life bright.
Every night you make it alright.
You are my knight.
So charming & polite.
Think of people to invite.
Be my guest.
To my invitation say "yes".
Excited & delighted. Joy is ignited.
Ending the night we fighted.
Anger is always misguided.
The peanut brittle I bited.
You are out of sight.
Remember your rights.
Height can be a fright.
I need to write, review, revise, & recite.

Would you just listen?
See things from my position.
I get ****** when I realize how we don't kiss.
An unspoken wish.
Remenise in mutual bliss.
I always miss what does not exist.
A commitment is not that hard to resist.
Every year I get older, your shoulder feels colder.
Souls descend toward the clouds.
Watering skies when angels cry.
Raining snow a misery we all know.
The rain can't wash away your blame.
A storm of raindrops, relentless never stop.
Water that is chosen to be frozen.
Ocean waves crash & misbehave.
People drowning can't all be saved & sink to a watery grave.
Sea shells don't float to the surface.
Instead they sink to the bottom. In winter, spring, summer, or autumn.

The universe may not be a curse.
Remember when you said I was your heart?
Back when you met me working at the mini mart.
You said we had a lasting love.
One that fit perfect like a glove.
I'm sorry for my insensitive comments.
Your words weren't actually compliments.
I'm sorry your brother died.
I'm sorry for the tears you cried.
I'm sorry for the words I lied.
I'm sorry for trying to buy your love.
I'm sorry I don't know why.
I'm sorry I can't fly.
I'm sorry your not the guy.
I'm sorry you never wanted to say "hi".
I'm sorry your wedding won't be with I.
I'm sorry I live in a sty.
I'm sorry you can't see it wasn't meant to be.

The yearning to want him to be with me is burning.
My youth slowly fades through the years.
Dying an old maid is one of my greatest fears.
I am not going to cry endless tears.
My agony quakes to the depths of hell.
In my mind I silently yell.
I never get any compassion or empathy.
My future without him continues to remain empty.

A curse was cast.
But will it last?
A sacrifice lost.....
My happiness is what it cost.
My soul still feels lost.
My dreams are fake.
His absence makes my heartache.

A psychic warns of a coming storm.
It is essential to have your own home rental.
Negative thoughts don't diminish & rot.
Thankful for all that you got.
Perceive my life you will one say leave.
Like you got better things to achieve.
In my heart I know & believe...
The jealously & envy I don't relish & can a see.
A broken part of me.
No one you want me to be.
The doesn't fade fast.
But insanity lasts.
My mind set is permanent regret.
I can never forget.
A demonic entity,
stole my identity
sexually In hatred spirits transform.
Spells are performed.
Black hearts aren't warm.
Ice cold & evil soul's is out sold.
Consequences will be so much greater.
The traitor will pay for this later.
It will be front page news the paper.

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At the cross I stare. .....hello is anyone there?
It doesn't answer....it doesn't care.
Miracles would be rare.
I can't go to heaven I have nothing to wear.
Why was I chosen?
My existence is frozen.
A life I have none.
A marriage not even one.
Nothing it was it has & become
My youth is over & done.
I know you are real.
You can hear, speak, & feel.
I know a better way to get you to stay.
Do things your way.
Everything will be okay.
I will become what I should be.
Everything will revolve around me.
Watch you'll see!
I am no one's type.
I don't understand why people don't like me,
I don't bite.
I guess love is not something you can see.

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