Don't become someone to hate.
Have a positive fate.
Cater your own plate.
A true heart never descrates.
A love that's holy.
Pure & whole.
With all my heart & soul.
Don't be twisted and diss.
Or your what & who I won't miss.
Go away & stay away is not my final wish.
I have to find my own bliss.
A new man to kiss.
It may be on my list.
I not okay when I'm ******.
Betrayed me.
Used me.
Fooled me.
Refused me.
You left me.
Never kept me.

My memories reopen.
To continue coping.
Us five went for a drive.
Just to survive.
The past from our lives.
Common sense unrelent Feelings get bent.
I don't have enough for rent.
To be revived is why we strive.
Too feel alive.
From our shattered lives.
I am so deprived.
No husband at my bedside.
No mutual attraction just a fraction of miscalculation.
Casual or true?
I need a clue.
A commitment is long over due.
Give me a sign.
Say what's on your mind.
I need someone solid.
Fabulous & splendid.
To be your woman was what I intended.

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What if I died?
What if you cried?
What if no one tried?
What if no one will hide.
What if we lied?
What if they drowned in the tide?
What will we confide?
What if you matched my stride?

A dark shadow.
A quiet meadow.
A depth that's shallow.
A log that's hollow.
A flower that's yellow.
A song that's mellow.
A fellow that says "hello".
A nice soft pillow.
A weeping willow.
A giggly piece of jell-o.

I was hoping your door would be open.
You blackmail & bribe.
But I do not hide.
I am aware of your obvious stare.
Do you care to make a wager?
That I can predict your nature.
You will make the first mistake.
A promise you will break.
A commitment you will fake.
A sin you will make.
You will go to a fire lake.
Die in a violent earthquake.
I can celebrate with cake.
For your sake a chance I won't take.
From a nightmare you won't wake.
I don't blame the rain.
I can't drain the pain.
I can't tame what remains. You are insane.

Talent should never go to waste.
Everyone who don't have success, wealth, & fame should get a taste.
No good person should remain a lifeless shell.
They can kiss & tell.
Scream & yell.
To cheat is to be cheated.
To beat is to be beated.
To express anger is to receive it.
Insanity has no boundaries.
Rages has no borders.
****'s have no power or order.
Self control is a whole.
Hermits shy away & shut-in's like moles.
Evil takes many forms.
They can look completely normal or hideously deformed.
Crazy minds aren't always seen on the outside.
No one can hide their true selfs.
Everything is discovered eventually.
Whether through fate, circumstance, karma, or consicous.

I do not know the cure for mortality of when, where, how, or why.
I do not know why sadness makes me cry.
I do not know why someday I will die.
I do not know why I have not met a marry me guy.
I do not know why love money can not buy.
I do not know why no one to me says hello or hi.
I do not know why lovers cheat & lie.
I do not know why I am ****** to exist & dwell in this sty.

Reside by my side or step aside.
Our lives sacred. Our souls naked.
All I know is locked in my soul.
My requests go unanswered.
They dissolve like a cancer.
Your lust appeals to my disgust.
You are no one I trust.
Your lack of compassion & empathy is rude.
How I feel is up for appeal.
I was misguided when to you I confided.
My room from you is where I hided.
The 7 deadly sins is what you decided.
Impatience is debating.
These circumstances is what I am hating.

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It is nothing like persistence.
Gone in an instant.
Your life I choose to haunt.
Daily at work you bully & taunt.
It's what you do mock & bully.
I understand fully.
A small desire.
One which does not require fire.
I am not your tavern *****.
Just because I am single doesn't mean I haven't got defense.
I ain't middle class with a picket fence.
You made me feel invisible.
A Family for us is not visible.

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It's not bad what we had.
Waiting is a drag.
I'll be a decrepid old hag.
I look ok now,
But I don't want to brag.
Can you see the moon from this room?
Use your brain so I don't have to stress & strain. Just because you gave and gave,
don't make me your life long slave.
Be brave, with your money try to save.
Don't squander & misbehave.
Don't live life in a cave.
Choose a path to pave.
See this is my "good bye" wave.
Who's is this phone number?
It's not mine.........******.
They stole my thunder.
Makes me wonder...

Your body is lazy & your mind is hazy.
Forget we ever met.
Threats you deeply regret.
Never forgiven that is honest living.
You can bet I am still upset.
I require a mutual trust.
You kissed a tavern ***** in lust.
Promise to change my mind.
Am I the best woman you can find?

A number I no longer dial.
Only sobriety in society is worthwhile.
Never with you will I ever walk down the aisle.
Don't be shy & hide .......

I have always been a big talker.
You were just a creepy stalker.

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All the stars stay still & shine.
The solar system is there but it's not mine.
A vacation island in paradise.
No where you can afford to go once or twice.
Describe what's in your nature.
Capture a silhouette form enraptures.

Sunsets horizon brightness dims.
Moonlight rises through the clouds.
The neighbors get loud.
When they have stupid birthday parties.
For work I am never tardy.
My Chrysler gets me there on time.
When people are young they are in their prime.
I am almost forty it is true.
Everyone I know already knew.

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Your ears are closed.
Your mouth is closed.
Your eyes are closed.
My mind is closed.
The spirit unrose.
My soul froze.
Our hearts don't know.
Our senses doubt now.
The promises flow.
They're predictions contradict.
They're visions conflict.
They're priorities afflict.

The day continues.
The night ends.
Time decides to lend.
Weather is pending.
Messages are sending.
The universe is doomed.
Destiny will be over soon.
Our will to survive never dies.
Tired eyes cry & pity begs.
A powerful voice booms instructions down from the sky.
A rod of lightening strikes besides the unbeliever.
Fear gathers loneliness.
Willingness beckons thee to surround the discovery they found.
Unearthed courage to honor & admiration is proud.
Acknowledging the effort nodding with unspoken words.
Agreed & unseen.
Kind & not mean.
Intelligence is unyielding.
Confidence is rebuilding.
Compromise is dealing.
In touch with our feelings.
Agreements delivered with a sealing. Broken spirits continue healing. Old skins shed & are peeling.

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Never can I understand.
Why you never hold my hand.
I see the hole in your empty soul.
Anger can be controlled.
Will power & common sense.
Elements that tower & ignorance so dense.
My tired eyes close.
As my spirit rose.
I lay down & shiver, as I drift down the river.
The sky stares at me.
Showing me who I should be.
Killing the fire craves the desire.
My pain you can not obtain.
Happiness sustains, balance maintains.
Water on my skin luring me in.

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A need to feed a desire.
One of a higher power.
It's weak not to precede with speed.
Disagreed to heed my succeed.
Assume you believe in faith you achieve.
Sweet hearts never leave.
I refuse to be used.
Confused from Abuse?
Treason is not a good reason.
Receptive & perspective.
Heard a sound looked around.
Found them tied & bound.
Searched for them with blood hounds.
On the ground they were all around.
Careful not to drown.
A mess put to rest.
Plunder six feet under & left to wonder.

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Butterflies that wither & die.
Rainbows give us hope to try.
Bad memories make us cry.
Happiness allows us to soar & fly.
Confidence makes us feel high.
Secrets forbid telling lies.
Boredom regretful sighs.
Confusion asks...........why?
A future we all want to buy.
Let's celebrate with caramel apple pie!

Beaches with castles & beautiful shores.
A dream we would want more.
A past we grew up poor.
Never allowed out the front door.
I was sick of sleeping on the cold hard floor.

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I want to hold you.
You and I together are belonging.
That's right, you see the light.
You make my life bright.
Every night you make it alright.
You are my knight.
So charming & polite. Think of people to invite.
Be my guest.
To my invitation say "yes".
Excited & delighted.
Joy is ignited.
Ending the night we fighted.
Anger is always misguided.
The peanut brittle I bited.
You are out of sight.
Remember your rights.
Height can be a fright.
I need to write, review, revise, & recite.

Life is but a dream.
A de ja vu.
You remember but aren't sure you knew.
A ghost haunted by their past, who can not stand the present, weighs heavy in silence dreaming of a hopeless future.
****** to relive & repeat a daily nightmare of solitude & neglect.
A person people forget.
Welcome to my life.
Whats in store?
But to restore a shattered & unsettling past.
Not to resurrect the bad times.
Never to press rewind.
Corruption is what you will find.
I guess it was before your time.
Maybe you can never be mine.
A curse still binds.

Who is your sire?
Rage burns like fire.
Gratitude and kindness.
In a trance that is mindless.
Who knew 18 years later a maybe.
I never had a daddy for my baby.
Another father, why bother?
A divorce it would force.
With no mercy or remorse.
Who would choose their career over a life together without fear?
A girl or a boy?
Both would bring joy. A baby with a carriage doesn't always lead to marriage.
A new house with another spouse.
In another citty, how clever & witty.
I bet los angeles would be pretty.
Saying it's not realistic,
Makes me go ballistic.
I need to memorize lines.
Be surrounded by pines.
Don't allow the past to rewind.

You have the nerve to say what I deserve.
My agenda, goals, ambitions, & moral beliefs you debate.
But as a person & a woman me you disrespect & hate.
I left you.
I was a love you knew.
You said I was your past.
I agree our love couldn't last.
You are no longer a part of me.
Together neither of us belonged.
Mentally & psychologically your wrong.
You can now forget all about me.
Like there was never a we.
Colorado was not ever a place for me to be.
You used to say I was your heart.
We met at a Circle K mini mart.
It didn't fit like a glove.
You said we had a lasting love.

I hear my name in the falling rain.
The sun shines on what is done.
His voice said I had no choice.
Approach my fears showing not tears.
Depression & disgust through the years.
No men to trust drinking beer.
I do not approve of my virginity at 12,
Which was unlawfully & criminally removed so awfully.
Sinning alluriity violating my purity.
Who is near me is what I fear to see.
Yearning hatred a desire to destroy.
I was just a sick toy for his insane joy.
Saturation absorbing irritation.
Ignorant complications across all nations. Abomination growing aggravation.
Hesistations of all infatuations.
Corrupted imaginations their cursed creation.
Erupted evil into a child's household. Unearthed a hex of disease like metaphoric killer bees.

She should wear a gown of shimmering velvet pink. She felt his eyes on set her, at her he winked.
Her whole heart she always gave.
When from this hellhole will she he saved?
Our ambitions & goals set the path we pave.
In a cottage by the pond is where we belong.
He chose an elegant rose.
Suppose we pose for a photo.
A picture time has froze.
A memory...........who knows.
Life is short & memories can not distort.
The truth doesn't lack through facts.
Let's backtrack to the abstract map the past attacked.
Dividing peace from grief.
No foreseen deception in my perception.

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Roses are red, violets are blue.
I can't get out of bed & I lost my shoe.
I feel like I'm dead.
WHAT SHOULD I do?

You were someone I didn't know that well.
But I always wanted to.

It's out of range for you to ever change.
That would be strange.
We wouldn't know what words to exchange.
Romance is not something you know how to arrange.
A man who is kind.
Who makes me whole.
The year's can't rewind.
Research my soul.
My paranoia drifts.
HAPPINESS I STILL find.
I lost my sacred gift.
Is all mankind deaf & blind?
An unplanned demise.
A big heart. I revised.
Loyal hearts....unspeakable harm can't reach I've got morals to teach.

Hope there is honor in love.
Designs you find may or may not be mine.
Drinking wine in the deck above can't freeze time.
Peace your mind left behind one day to find.
A new life with a caring wife.
A husband to understand.
When he takes your hand.
It is a silent command.
He leads you to his bedroom.
It was grand not like "village of the ******".
There were no demands or getting body slammed.
My spirit climbs.
Rewind time where everything was fine.
You weren't married to a mime.
You treated you like slime.
Where being a mom wasn't a crime.
Food costs more than a dime.
Do you hear a tune, a melody that chimes?

David is so attractive.
With him I would agree to be sexually active.
I bet he is rich.
We should hitched.
Brown eyes & brown hair.
At me anytime he could stare.
In my life I wish he was there.
Boreanaz looks so hot in casual wear.
Sunglasses make him look mysterious.
My fantasies about him are delirious.
He is my favorite actor.
So much talent is a successful factor.
He has a sweet personality.
So angelic anyone can see.
Looks good in a suit & tie.
I wish he was my husband or guy.

I don't understand why you can't hold my hand.
I can't see the hole in your empty soul.
Your anger can't be controlled.
Will power & common sense.
Ignorance so dense.
My tired eyes close.
As my spirit descended & rose.
I lay down & shiver as my body floats down the river.
The sky looks down at me.
Death craves no desire.
Pain is obtained.
Invisible fire.
Happiness sustains.
Balance maintains.
Well being my eyes aren't seeing.
Mental scars, a broken heart, & an old face.
I drive my car with all it's parts away from this place.

The parting clouds reveal your face.
The rising sun melts & captivates.

Moonlight washes & watches.
Sunshine follows & warms.

Special crisp in the air fresh to breathe.
Normal & free to feel & see.
Opens a part of me.

You don't have to talk to anyone or no one.
I don't see you, you can't see me.

Stop thinking.
Stop drinking.
Stop blinking.
Stop looking.

Open your eyes.

To feel happy & be alive.
Carefree & safe.
Intelligent & beautiful.

Wraps me in warm blankets.
Soft comfort shaded, all day waited.

I'll think of you when I see a rainbow.
I'll think of you when the sun glows.
I'll think of you when the sky snows.
I'll think of you even if no one knows.
I'll think of you when the rain flows.
I'll think of you when the wind blows.
I'll think of you when I am low.
I'll think of you when the lawn is mowed.
I'll think of you when boats are rowed.
I'll think of you when bitterness is stowed.
I'll think of you when my cars get towed.

You were gone for so long.
Where do you belong?
Our relationship was all wrong.
You said you don't like my song.
You know the rule.
I ain't no fool.
I oppose even if you say it with a rose.
I haven't told lies about my size.
Take your best guess.
Stop with the flirt.
No I don't want dessert.
It's what I chose.
Who knows.
Empathy you can abstract.
What you lost you must subtract.
I want my money back.
That is a fact.
I kept track.
Your word you lack.
The plan was mapped.
Everyone clapped.
It was easily adapt.
The attack was a single slap.

You can't put me in a cage.
For having anger & rage.
When you commit crimes you do hard time. Someone will find me.
Someone will be kind to me.
Someone will love me.
Someone won't get enough of me.
Someone will care about me.
Someone will dare to be with me.
Someone will kiss me.
Someone will miss me.
Someone will hug me.
Someone will bug me.
Someone will choose me.
Someone will lose me.
Someone might leave me.
Someone might need me.
Someone will respect me.
Someone will get me.

You used to walk me to school.
When you left us I felt like a fool.
I miss your hugs & kisses.
Nothing came true from my wishes.
I always thought you'd come back.
One day your things you'd pack.
I have a cat now.
I want to save all the chickens, pigs, & cows.
I haven't eatten meat for 20 years.
I never drink alcohol not even beer.
I don't do drugs or smoke.
All I've said is no joke .

You were a talented artist.
At 13 I had a tumor.
It wasn't just a rumor.
A part of my childhood you missed.
My forehead you used to kiss.
I'll remember your laugh.
Without you I wasn't whole just a half.
When you were gone that's what I hated.
My life was degraded.
I wish you had been there.
I wish you could care.
I never had a real home.
I always feel alone.
Even though I am now grown.
Everything feels done & over.
Where does your ghost hover?
I'm sorry your dead.
All your letters I read.
Not enough was said.
Nobody made sure you got fed.
ed. Neither of us had our
own bed.

Fat brother mama's boy

Don't use my mouthwash. Buy your own & pay the cost. Why do u lie when I asked if you used it? Because you know I will throw a fit.

My Precious Angel

Ariel I'm sorry I left your side. An evil forced us separate & divide. A distance that's long & wide. I wish we could run away & hide.

The devil was there.
Touching my hair.
Whispering in my ear.
Unforgiving words I fear.
Sitting on my shoulder.
Every year I get older.
I make my own choice.
I use my own voice.
This is my life.
I would make the best wife.
I can't hear angels sing.
I want to fell the happiness it brings.
I have a telephone.
I want to be on my own.
My daughter's birth happened on this earth.
Every night there is a moon.
Death is another day soon.
Life is short.
The unborn should never abort.

My maker draws me closer.
I hate feeling helpless when the selfish & insane entity chokes me to death.
Evil echos & no one questions why.
Uncontrollable crying.
The fear of dying.
I searched my mind.
For what was to blame.
You can never hide from shame.
A glowing light too bright.
Dims fast when your mortality doesn't last.
There is a grey void when your air way is crushed.
Nothing I could unconsciously avoid.
Death is not what I want.
A sole desire.
To inspire a little higher.
Joy transpires but it is to late.

Dinosaurs
Fragmented fossils scattered & tousled.
Destroyed uncontrollable elements.
Unfortunate Tragedy was sent.
Replicated skeletons displayed.
Fragile & frayed.
An unearthed discovery.
Arranged for everyone to see.
Hell beast creatures?
Museums main feature.

Will it be a cold day in hell?
Before I hear my own wedding bells?
When pigs fly?
Children might ask why.
As sure as mortals all die.
When justice isn't even tried.
When bribes are buyed.
When victims cry.
When nobody ever says "hi".
Who's child was taken?
It was I.
Everyone has their own lie.
They all want a piece of my birthday pie.
Never is forever.
Phone calls & even letters.
A stubborn end, to no beginning.
Evil sin, & selfish greed winning.
They wish innocence to cry & just die.
An end of joy for every girl & boy.
An end to happiness & love.
Hell below & heaven above

Yourself is all you can see.
You can't have any part of me.
Your a mama's boy.
Her pride & joy.
When are you moving out of your parents house?
Your 28 & I'm 32.
You have to ask yourself who are you?
Get it together & get a home.
It has been time for us to be on our own.
Are you even going to try?
Why not, why?
Before it is too late & we are old & die.
What is wrong with you?
Why do you do what you do?
This doesn't make any sense.
Your reasons are completely dense.
I hate your excuse it is no use.
Get a life marry a wife.

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To fight is not right.
I don't like to go out at night.
I am too heavy & fat.
I don't want to be like that.
I want to feel attractive & be sexually active.
I want to be someone to marry.
Before I die & get buried.

In the day I play with my cat,
I don't feel the need to chat.
Remember the time when you moved away?
Together I wanted us to stay.
18 years later finally came that day.
It was in June the month after May.
You were working at Campland by the Bay.

Now. You got a job at Denny's.
That is good because I know there is not many.

Earning money is good.
Something everybody has to do & should.
I would get a job if only I could. It is ghetto in my neighborhood.

Give him some space, get your hair out of his face.
There will be a day you'd want me to stay.
Where I won't go away.
I want his arm around me.
I want him to surround me.
In the snow we had a love no one did know.
Only you could ****** a trance.
One we could dance.
I am under your spell.
You rescued me from hell.
Your secret I won't tell.