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152 · Aug 2019
Violet Wedding
kain Aug 2019
Stones in your
Sunshine
Wildfires
On my palms
Burning up
The lines
Of times
I never did
All those clothes
Piling in
Breaking up
Our words with
Mint leaves
And moths
On the ceiling
You're my
Magic eight ball
My stained glass
With glitter
On the rim
My okay
See you
I'll wait
For you
My lovecraft
My darling death
Let me be
Your final
Destination
Your King
To your Queen
We're a
Horrifying
Rhapsody
It's not
All that funny
Let's get married
Inspired by Creek Blues.
151 · Apr 2023
Do You?
kain Apr 2023
You're my muse
I think
When all I can hear is the buzz of the AC
And the echo of my fingers on a keyboard
You're my muse
You fill my head with lovely things
And scary things
Kisses and fingertips
Brushing against my scalp
Your tears sinking into my t-shirt
My tears staining my pillows black
I'm scared sometimes
By how much I want you
I daydream of driving to Chicago
And seeing your old house
Looking at the flakes of crumbling paint
Looking at the forgotten or perhaps repressed parts of you
I crave knowing you like that
You're guarded
And I don't blame you
But I wish I could lick your wounds
The ones that still ache when it gets cold at night
Long closed up but never quite healed
You're guarded
I want you to let it down
Let me see the side of you I saw by the river that night
The side I see in your pictures online
Like the one of you laying on your back on a rock
I remember the story of that one
Is it so bad
To want to know you so well
I could crawl inside your skin
Walk around as you for a day
And no one would notice the difference
I don't think it's so bad
Do you?
kain Jan 2023
You were my teenage love story
The real one
You were my ride or die
My forever and ever
My messy pile of clothes
That drifted into yours
My old sweater
That came down to strings in the end

We were still children, really
Overgrown children still not quite big enough
To fit into these adult clothes
Trying on phrases like "I'll love you forever" and
"I promise I'll never leave"
So excited about the colors
And our feelings bursting forth
That fitting didn't matter

I'm sorry we bought that chair
I know it's burned by now
It went up in a blaze
In your best friend's grandma's backyard
I close my eyes and see the tears on your face
Reflecting the rising ashes and flames
I hope you cursed me

For me to become a distant memory
Some far away faded thing
A leftover pile of string
Is the best fate I can have for you

Our end was abrupt
In the way stories written by a child's hand can be
Trailing on and on and on
A fit of passion
Crazed and somehow beautiful
Trailing off
To
An incomplete ending
An unfinished sen
151 · Jul 2019
Halfway Survivors
kain Jul 2019
Breaking waves
Of wind against
The glass
Ocean tides
Marked by time
Marked by suicides
Of young dive bombers
Too scared to see
The sun
Too proud to take
The lower road
Too alive to face
Death
In any other way
This is based on some people I met once.
151 · Feb 2022
Supernova
kain Feb 2022
You're the one
I'd find at the other end of a wormhole
We could be torn apart by time and space
And that same cruel universe would bend us back together

So darling, let's go stargazing
Let's lay down in bed and astral project
Lose our physical forms
Brush fingertips through the sky
The material of space and time
And **** it all up
With a single touch

We can mind meld and lose our voices
But I guarantee I'd still be thinking of you
When all thoughts are gone
When Asimov's last question has been answered
You'll still be on my mind

And when we come to in our bed
Sweaty and wrapped in an embrace that is not fatal
But will see us to our deathbeds still
I'll pull apart to grab a marker
And draw nebulas on your arms

So baby, make me a galaxy
Connect the marks on my skin and make meaning of them
I'll trace out the words of scars
Saturated on your skin
Learn the code of your soul and find my name
Written in the stars
Written on your heart
Where I always will and always have belonged
This is a stereotypical gay poem about love and space. For you, my dove. <3
151 · Jul 2019
(I Like You)r Everything
kain Jul 2019
I like your shirt
You like my hat
I like your hair
You like my necklace
It's not mine
But you could be
Sorry
I'm cheesy
That happens sometimes
I'm not screaming you are.
150 · Dec 2022
Dawn
kain Dec 2022
We will both feel pride
On this day
Far, far in the future
Or maybe not too far at all

Your song is on the radio
In the background of a show
The beat that people in glittering outfits
Let go of control to

You're holding your lover's hand
Or perhaps alone
That familiar bump of feeling
Bitter pride
Resentment
Melancholy regret
The ghost of hope
The ghost of the part of you
That wonders what would be different if I'd stayed
And I'm sitting
With my headphones in
Listening to your voice
That same bump of feeling
That same ghost, now brought to life

I spent so long hoping you'd never let go of me
Now I'm glad you're free
150 · Nov 2018
The Dead Zone
kain Nov 2018
Sunlight
Faint as ghost feet
Caress my brow
Hold my sleeping form
Dainty dust particles
Are the flies that fill my room

Dead dry earth
No snow, no birds
Just the click, click, click
Of keys and muffled screams
He's swearing now and
I leave
That room is dead to me

Each heart holds a song
The beat of life
Trapped in a vessel
Thump, thump, I sing alone
I am no one's song
I am no one's symphony

Feet move here
Wood cries out
We are alive but this house is not
No words, no love
Just a funeral song

Her eyes will not meet mine
My cold hands cannot touch her
We are all dead now
I wish I had left in November
Shouldn't winter be a happy time?
149 · Apr 2020
11:11
kain Apr 2020
I am not a special moment
I am not ground hog's day
I am not a solar eclipse
Or a sky full of shooting starts
I am not 11:11
I am something else

I am a quiet back street
In early afternoon
I'm pavement you've walked over
A thousand times
I'm an inner city courtyard
Behind some fast food joint
Rose brick walls and a cherry tree

I'm your daily commute
I'm the pattern of the tiles
On your childhood bathroom wall
I'm the scars you trace unconsciously
Scars from scabbed knees
I am rolling over in your sleep
I'm the goosebumps you get
From your second favourite movie
I'm frozen peas

I am a blank sky
I am old sheets
I am chapstick and spare house keys
I'm the little statue in your front yard
On a partly cloudy afternoon
I'm a moment with your head back
Chewing gum in your car
Sitting alone in a Target parking lot
I'm the days between seeing your friends
I'm the scent of your shampoo
The sound of rain outside your first lover's room
I'm your lukewarm nights, your easier goodbyes
I'm white lies

I'm 4:23 PM drinking soda
By the window, on your back porch
I'm the dreams you had when you were three years old
The things you don't even remember anymore
I'm crickets
On a late summer night
I'm the tick of lofi music
Humming over your headphones
I'm everything you stand for
what makes your life?
149 · Jul 2020
Falling Apart
kain Jul 2020
Falling apart
At the lightest touch
What happened to those bright eyes
To that midnight sky
That we laid under
Dew collecting around our bodies
As we stared upwards, unafraid
Of that endless scape of stars

But now you're falling apart
At the lightest touch
At the tap of a piano key
The brush of a snowflake
On my cheek
Why are you afraid?
Why are you crying?
Why are you dying?
147 · Jul 2020
Highschool Boyfriend
kain Jul 2020
Imagine having that perfect highschool boyfriend
Being one of those couples in the halls
Hugging before each class
Kissing after school
Wearing his hoodie
While he wears your scrunchie

Imagine staying up late facetiming
Falling asleep to his voice from your phone
Holding hands when you walk together
All your friends talking about how cute you are
Holding a special place in someone's heart
And being so open about it

Imagine being enough to have that
These aren't even relationships that only exist on tv. I knew couples who did the scrunchie thing in freshman year. I know couples who do all of this still.
I can't imagine what that must be like for them.
146 · Apr 2019
Dreams
kain Apr 2019
Dreaming of you
Awake at night
Bathed by the moon
Haunted by your complexion
Silver streams

I bet you have the prettiest face
Silken hair
A body I'll love
All my life
If you let me

Words fall out
I'm a fountain now
You're my reservoir
Deep and clean
Still untapped

Sing for me
I don't care if it's bad
Dancing in the shower
Slipping in soap
You always end up in my arms

I'm not too comfortable
But I'd fall apart for you
To dream of nights with you
Night spent with
Wedding rings

Lovingly
A friend and I were talking about our future wives and now I can't stop thinking about it.
145 · Jul 2019
Quietly
kain Jul 2019
Sitting alone
Drowning in dark
Gaze fixed
On the glowing light
From behind that glass
I'm happy enough where I am
There's no need to go outside
Please love yourself.
144 · Sep 2019
Princess
kain Sep 2019
You come first
Forever and always
I come second
With feelings it tow
143 · Dec 2018
Thankyouforyourtime
kain Dec 2018
Look at me
I say
Sell me your smile
Take a penny for my thoughts
I have nowhere to go
But here

And you look at me
I haven't danced in so long
But you take my hand anyways
Why?
I don't smile
I have nothing to say to you

As fish swim, birds soar
Lifted up on drafts of hope
Dipping wingtips in sunsets
Clouds are butter
Sliced by talons
He is beautiful
And so is she

Answer the questions
That wallow in my mind
Struggling to raise up
Dead hands clawing through earth
Coming to the tears in my eyes
When you say

We like you
Write more often
Such emotion
I feel your pain
It's beautiful here
Because of you
I got such a response to the last poem, so I wrote this. I don't know why people have suddenly decided to notice me but I don't know how to handle it.
141 · Jul 2019
Take A Deep Breath
kain Jul 2019
Take a deep breath
Let it out
Look down at your hands
Turn over your palms
Trace those lines
They're real
And you're the only one with them
Whether you believe
In palm reading
Or simple idiosyncrasies
Or the monotonous diversity
Of humanity
You have your own lines
Your own life
And the way you see your friends
Beautiful and wonderful and
Lovely in their flaws
Is how someone sees you
You're astonishing
You're a ******* work of art
Maybe you can't see it yet but
Someday that veil will lift
And you'll see how much you are
You are enough
You are so much more than enough
There's a lifetime in those palms
And it isn't over yet
So take a deep breath
And open your eyes
Inspired by the song Forget the Lies by Quietdrive. Here's a link for my fellow Spotify users: https://open.spotify.com/track/06LZcxlNSBZmYQGdgKTfzQ?si=GfLYqFS6REKMemsURIbuSQ
141 · Nov 2021
Shut Me Up
kain Nov 2021
Just a month until I replace you forever
You have no place in my life anymore
I don't care that you don't want me
I never ******* loved you
It was infatuation and I got rid of you as soon as it was gone
I come back to you when I'm bored
Then discard you once I'm not
You answer every time
It's pathetic
I feel nothing for you
Title from the song by PRINCESSBRI.
141 · Aug 2019
Colours
kain Aug 2019
I'm so alive
With your face
Next to mine
I see you
In dreams
Feel your breath
Against my cheek
You're just so green
Exploding
Beside me
And I'll never see
Anything besides
Those colours
Stained inside
The back of
My eyes
Replaying
A thousand times
While a hundred
Springs fade
Into summer
Everglades
And a hundred leaves
Tumble down
Around me
You're so green
I'd give
Anything
To watch you
Burst alive
Into bloom
Music makes my dreams come alive.
141 · Jun 2019
11:31
kain Jun 2019
Where are you right now?
Halfway through
To glassy panels
Sitting alone
Might I find you
Lost in letters
Of things I never wrote

Does the same moon
Rise upon you?
Hoary in the night
Glistening alone
Is my face
Lost in craters
Miles away

Do phantom scents
Haunt your walls
As your breathing does
For me alone
Or am I
For you lost
To be found
Idk man.
141 · Jul 2019
Run
kain Jul 2019
Run
It's a dusty
Terrain
Sad to say
It's always the same
Breaking down
In the slightest of ways
Never not
Waiting for rain
Sharpened heels
Dig into my thighs
As everyone runs
And I am left behind
Smothered in the clouds
Abandoned sky
I am their's
They'll never be mine
Maybe this isn't my world after all.
Inspiried by Daughter's "Run".
140 · Mar 2020
Sweetheart
kain Mar 2020
I don't miss you anymore
I miss the daisies that popped up
Wherever we stood
Missing your hair
And all the pictures you sent me
Your gentle hands
In china white gloves
Carefully intertwined with mine
Like I was a piece of art
Like I was something to treasure
Not something to throw away

I miss your voice
Blitzing through that
Samsung cellphone
Timed, late at night
What would you think of me now
140 · Dec 2021
crash
kain Dec 2021
That day
You commented on me staring out at the snowflakes
There's so many things I can't forget
I hate you
I wish I could feel something for someone
Again
I want so bad
To say that you broke me
But you didn't break anything
Title from the song by EDEN.
138 · Jan 2020
Fingerbones
kain Jan 2020
Late morning
In a slush of wet snow
The early, indignant barks
Of neighborhood dogs
Fills in the spaces
Between soggy snowflakes

The warmth of the radiator
Settles over me like a wave
A warm wash of lethargy
Over my already tired blankets
Two hours left until my day begins.
138 · May 2019
Rain Chill
kain May 2019
Wishing
Wondering
On windy days
Hoping for rain
To pick up
The dirt
And the dust
To wash you clean
To whisk me away
This was originally going to be titled 69 Days Later, but I decided that might not be that great.
136 · Sep 2019
Time Traveler
kain Sep 2019
The year is 1945
And I exist outside of time
The year is 1989
And I have not a clue why
I feel ******* high.
136 · Jul 2019
Please Love Yourself
kain Jul 2019
I'm such a failure sometimes
I'm not even close
To perfect
I guess
I never will be
That's okay though
There's enough light inside me
To light up this dark room
And even if it's ugly
It'll have to be enough
For better
Or for worse
All these things
These flaws
These intricacies
Are only for me
I'm a mixing ***
Of all the usual things
In a way all my own
My life
Is a culmination
To the one I am now
To the one I was
To the one I will become
For better
Or for worse
I think I like the one
I am
Read this aloud.
135 · Feb 2020
Read
kain Feb 2020
I sometimes wish
I had left you with the snow
It's a joyful place
High up in frosted peaks
But strangely silent
Strangely empty
We don't stay long
Play around and stick to
Former's footsteps
Then pack up our car
And drive away
But I can't leave you
You're a timeless spring
I'm just going with things for now.
135 · Apr 2021
The Mannequin
kain Apr 2021
I must ask
Who poured lead in my bones
Who stitched up my throat
Closed up my old wound
And left it
Rotting and infected
To slowly eat me away
134 · Nov 2019
Crooked Teeth
kain Nov 2019
I always see them.

Laughing with their friends,
Head thrown back
Sunlight spilling down their throat
Lighting up their crooked teeth.

I want that to be me.
Don't really like this but ok.
133 · Apr 2019
Tick
kain Apr 2019
Waiting
I swear
There's a clock
In my head
All I can do
Is stare at my face
And wait
I have absolutely no idea what to with all this time.
133 · Sep 2019
Sidelines
kain Sep 2019
I don't mind people
From the back of the room
Everyone can talk
As long as I can be quiet
I don't mind noise
When I don't have to take part
Stranger's conversations
Heard from afar
Are the greatest things
I get to know people
Without saying a word
Sometimes I'll talk
For hours at a time
But talking leaves me drained
And for the most part
I'd rather just be quiet
I just want to sit and listen to people. That's all. I don't hate people, I just want to listen and watch the world turn.
133 · May 2021
Forever & Always
kain May 2021
Things are slowly falling apart

I have such good friends
A family who loves me to death
A house and a home and a heart that beats
But I'm so empty

It starts with a click
Nails on my phone screen
Reading that text
Again and again
The beginning of the fall

My room starts getting messy
I start writing less
Lunches pile up on my desk
I get used to feeling hungry again
I still list my songs before bed
Falling asleep in my sweatpants
Clothes piled on a chair
So high it's practically an entity
A guardian of my depression
Watching me fall

I still talk to my friends
I still smile when I read
And laugh at old shows
But it's harder now
And I ache when it's over
Deeper than before

It's not my worst ever
But if I had a bottle of pills
I'd drink them down painfully
After much deliberation
Life is so painful and lonely
When you're failing ever so slowly
Withdrawing and crawling
Deeper in your hole
It's so dark down here
Yet I loathe the light
I take the perfect life I have
And flush it away
Watch it drain
Then scoop up the dregs
And mourn it
Like I wasn't the one who made me
Forever lonely
Forever and always
Title from the song by Zeph.
133 · Aug 2019
Day Twenty-Five
kain Aug 2019
Please write back.
I'm such a disaster. What is wrong with me?
133 · Aug 2019
Day Nineteen
kain Aug 2019
Darling
I'll do my best
To think a bit more
I'll stop by the
Post office again
I don't doubt you
Please don't doubt me
She's so lovely and I don't want to read our old texts because I might realize that I'm the only one who cares.
132 · Dec 2018
No Love Lost
kain Dec 2018
She was the loveliest woman
I could ever meet
But she changed
Slipped into a sea
Of bitter ecstasy and
Hazy schemes
She began to scream
Pound on the doors
Twist her head
Like an exorcist
Speaking little
Only to rear back
Teeth flared
What a snake she has become
I cry for her
At first
Cry for no man
For no God
Tears only last so long
She hides away
In that miserable hovel
Of a cave
The sympathy stops
All dried up
That ***** she screams
And screams
Slamming doors
Playing piano until
Three in the morning
Even in my dreams
She comes for me
Calls me down
Then drags me out
To ****
I couldn't love her anymore
Not if I tried
Eating her more scraps
Back to us
Facing away from
The only one
Who ever loved her
I am sure she cries
Still
In this late night
But I no longer care
Something has poisoned her veins
Nightshade, perhaps
Or a stray doctor
Whatever insanity has taken her
It has left is with nothing
But a rage with which
To burn her body
So... this is an edgy one for sure.
I just love when you care about someone who loses their mind.
131 · May 2020
Savior Complex
kain May 2020
I don't want to save you
I want what we never had
To sit and talk about music
Without all the awkward pauses
I'm sorry for this
Because I'll probably leave you in the end
131 · Oct 2019
Blackbirds
kain Oct 2019
I'm not in love.
Not yet, at least.
But someday, I will be.
With these covers
Pulled up to my chest,
I can feel my teeth move
When I breathe.
It's honestly bleak.
But there's a soft beat
That lights up my lungs.
Guitar strings strumming
Like blackbirds
Pecking.
131 · Aug 2020
You're Everything
kain Aug 2020
You're so much more than a matter of fact
You're sitting at a table
and I'm watching you drink juice
You're texts I get at two in the morning
that I only read when I wake up
You're holding up your hands
while looking at a starry sky
trying to catch the moon
and bring it down to you
You're a poet
and you're your own poetry
You're a mess
You're all the pinterest boards we made together
You're beautiful
You're laughing
as we play video games in your room
You're doing a cheerhold for my feet
so I don't fall down this slippery ***** we built for ourselves
You're an artist
You're art
You're taking mirror selfies with me
You're everything
to cc
130 · Apr 2019
Don't Let Me Be Lonely
kain Apr 2019
Don't let me be lonely
Or should I say
Do not let me become more lonely
Because in a house full of people
I am utterly alone
It doesn't matter if someone
Is two feet away
It doesn't matter if I can hear their laughter
Footsteps overhead
A glass breaking
Anything
I am alone

Please don't let me be lonely
I'm sure that's foolish because
Ask anyone
They'll tell you that
I want to be alone
And I know
I know
That I push people away
And I do but
It's not because I want to be alone
I deserve to be alone
But I didn't ask to be lonely

Don't let me be lonely because
When no one else is there
I can't find a reason to do anything
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't do anything when I'm alone
And I know that
You can't do anything to help
But please
Don't leave me here
I'm not where I am because
I am lonely

Don't let me be lonely
I've always wanted to be
One of those beautiful people
On a screen
Those people who find peace
In empty space yet
I am not them
Maybe it's because even when
I am alone I am not really alone
I'm still here
And out of everyone
I am the one I hate the most

Please don't let me be lonely
This is something that I can't escape
And I don't know how to cope
I don't know how to deal with this because
There is no way to deal with this
This hatred of me
And I try to change
But the more I change the less I
Recognize my own reflection
Then I am not alone
There is someone else there with me
That is so much worse

Please
Don't let me be lonely
Wow that's depressing.
And redundant.
130 · Aug 2019
Lose It
kain Aug 2019
Softly set
Like the summer sun
Blinded
By your lights
That you're
Shining on me
So crush me
Under your tongue
Drink me down
The taste of summer
Berries
Don't like it. Anyways, meeting up with a friend today.
130 · Aug 2019
Day Thirty
kain Aug 2019
Alone again
With your hands
In my head

Try to see your face
But all that comes to mind
Is my old bed
And the hell it held

Am I losing you?

But then again
There's nothing to lose
You're that ethereal
Mistress of your mind
And I can't own you
Wouldn't if I could
Couldn't if I tried
Just thoughts.
129 · Jul 2019
All I Want
kain Jul 2019
I want a tattoo
And a bathroom
With nice towels
And some good drapes
The solid kind
You order online
Not the ones
You buy from IKEA
I want a wife
But only
If she wants me
And a beautiful
Dog with a big
Fuzzy tail and a
Heart full of love
I want a trampoline
I don't need a
Big family
Just someone to
Hold me up and
To hold up
In return
I want to shave my head
And pierce my nose
And go to college
Where I want to go
I want to garden
Grow my own food
I want to learn
A lot
I guess
How to dye hair
How to sew
I would have a
Full closet of
Victorian clothes
If I could sew
I'd like to travel
A lot of places
Germany, Russia
Japan, Maine
There's so many things
I want right now
And that's okay
Don't feel bad for knowing what you want. It's worse not to. That's why people **** themselves.
129 · Nov 2019
Letting Go
kain Nov 2019
In another world, I picked up.
In another world, I still feel you all around me.
And when we look at the moon, we are side by side, laying in a bed, somehow, somewhere.
In another world, I’ve felt your breath on my neck. I know what it’s like when you touch me. I probably memorized the trails that your fingertips trace.
In another world, I know your kiss. We stretched out and intertwined our fingers, held hands instead of holding back. We knew each other.
In another world, we were more than passing glances. We were fireworks, tangled in the sheets, my hand wrapped around your length, your fingers tumbling over me. We were sunlit, in the grass, with your dog licking our faces and the places that our bodies met. We were so much more.
In another world, I got to hear your breathing, not muffled by a wall. Harsh breaths, before your ******, and softer, longer breaths after you came, levelling out into a smooth rhythm that I feel under the head that I laid on your chest. The breath of your laughter, choking and unbound, no longer limited to the small smile that you used to save only for me. Maybe that’s all I’ll ever get to see in this life, but somewhere else… I see more.
We were comfortable in a way that I never knew. In another world, we’re still comfortable, safe in each other’s arms, soothed by the words we exchange through the phone.
In another world, maybe we got married.
I feel it, the choking in my chest. It’s the feeling of constriction that comes when you meet the one that could’ve been your soulmate. And you are my soulmate, in another world.
I wish I was her. I wish I was in another world. I want your touch, your kiss, the feeling of your heartbeat fluttering under my lips. I want you. Almost.
Goodbye.
"I see it" // "I see the colour that they all saw"
From "Colour" by The Dangerous Summer.
129 · Aug 2019
Day Eighteen
kain Aug 2019
I need to say this
I know I've stuck
To the funny stuff
But it's not enough
So please don't feel
Like you owe me
Literally anything
As much as I care
For you my dear
I would do this
For anyone
I couldn't turn
You down even
If I wanted
And I don't want to
Trust me I'd love you
But it isn't you
Well
Not true
It doesn't have to be you
It could be but love
You live hours
Away from me
And I think I'm more
For your idea
Than I am for you
So please
When you read
My soliloquy
Know that I
Am not asking
For anything
128 · Nov 2021
My Heart Hurts
kain Nov 2021
My heart hurts
Because it remembers you
But it doesn't recognize you
It's been over six months
And your demeanor has changed
You were so hopeful about life then
Now you're a husk
Dry and overworked and empty
Drained of everything you used to be

But maybe it's just me
Maybe I don't see the side of you
That still cares if you live or die
The part that loves video games
Hiking
The sound of my voice

I miss your soul
I feel such loss for you
It's a melancholy malaise that has settled over you
My heart hurts for you
I recognize some of him. The foolish aspects. The parts that make him work himself too hard and do too much for other people. I feel like crying because I miss the person he was.
128 · Aug 2020
Suicidal Thoughts
kain Aug 2020
Thinking about unblocking his number
Is suicidal thoughts
He's my death wish
My reaper's kiss
Can't believe he was once my everything

Manipulative, darkened and deceiving
I fell for every trick he fed me
And always woke up from nightmares
That left me screaming
They were dreams of him
And a rooftop
And giant claws
They're suicidal thoughts

I see his face
In every scar on my arm
Every shriveled patch of skin
Is something like him
So twisted and deceived
Well, that's more like me
But I still miss him sometimes
Wonder what I looked like in his eyes

A fool, I suppose
Just a foolish girl
Lost in his fantasy world
A world where he might actually love me
Pure fantasy
Where the rope around my neck
Is a daisy chain
And this suicidal thoughts
Are pure bliss to me
127 · Sep 2019
This Hour, This Eve
kain Sep 2019
Life is good
With them in tow
Tonight was one of
The best times of my life
I don't regret a thing
I'll never regret a thing
This poem is great other than the fact that it's absolute *******.
126 · Sep 2019
Hello
kain Sep 2019
I still don't exist to you
Do I?
125 · Sep 2019
Please, Never Stop Raining
kain Sep 2019
My love
I only think of you when it rains
I remember your face
In the light of my fish tank
Your silhouette is still painted
Against the outline of my window
I will not break
Until that fades

Because I can still feel your eyes
Locked on mine
You captured me
I'm still trapped in your cage
Existing in a moment
That no longer exists
Back when it was just you and I
Sitting alone
At this table for two
In the back of the school
Laying on the grass
When I got so close to kissing you

I'm still there
Locked in our nest that we built
In the woods behind my house
I can feel the sticks
Poking through our mossy bed
Just like I can still feel your arm
On my side
The first time we fell asleep
You right next to me
Laying on the floor
Of our best friend's house

I can still sense your heartbeat
And stickiness of my thighs
As we cuddled up in my loft
As you held me tight
You fell asleep in my bedroom
And all the soft sounds you'd make
Still echo in my ears
Holding me for days

Oh, love
Please never stop raining
When the sky clears
And the ground dries up
I might forget you
And where would that leave me?
125 · Aug 2019
Crushed
kain Aug 2019
I'm crushed
By the weight
Of my own
Imperfections
I'm not
Sure what
I really
Expected
But it wasn't
This
I didn't
Want to
Come back
I didn't
Want to
Be here
Choking down
Compliments
That I know
Aren't true
Trying not
To cry alone
In the corner
Of my room
If nothing
Around me
Will break
Or bend
Then I
Suppose
I will
This is trash but it's fine.
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