I visited that site today,
where all our memories are laid
I don't know why but I miss it somehow
I guess I just can't forget
I guess you never taught me how
Sometimes I wish we never met
But all is well now, I suppose
All is good for me and you
We have adapted to all our losses
I hope you have beautiful days, too
I am okay, if you really care
That was how you left me
Those were your last words
You said your soul is torn
You said I was a horcrux of yours
You told me you hated that you still think of me,
You still cry for your forever
You keep all my letters,
all the stuffed toys and little things
It smells like me
You remember my touch,
and all of it still lingers
It reminds you of innocence
and all the bad days
It reminds you of me,
your longest fling.
You used to remember my lips when you kissed hers
I pitied her at some point
She didn't deserve a love like that
But who am I to care about you two
You didn't even care when you inflicted pain on me
I guess our doors are closed
You say we are in good terms like we had a negotiation
It was nice until it lasted
Lately I found out that
God made another one of you
to love me better than you ever will

All is well now, I suppose
All too well, I guarantee.

burn for me, let's be reckless
turn every path in flames
break for me, let's run away
and in return, i will stay

You say it's just my mood swings,
When tears can't stop from falling
and yes, the reason is nothing
But I feel this -
these annoying emotions
and troubled thoughts

It is not because I am a girl
having another day of sadness
It is because I am empty
having another day of worthlessness.

Three years, three years
And I never asked the reason
behind those crying and tears

Forever, forever
But whatever it is,
you will never lose me, not ever

Christina, Christina*
I love you today and everyday
I love you when you're breaking
I loved you (from a distance)
I love you when you're crying
I love you when you're happy
I love you when you're clingy
I love you when you're shy
I love our inside jokes
I'll love your fake smiles
If you want me to provoke
I love you when you're sad
I'll keep you when you're mad
I loved you from afar
I love you when you're mine
I love you when you're not

Know that these spaces
cannot intervene
with all the faults we have
because I have found the reason
to love you all the time.

I snapped you out of your dreamland,
Hey, wake up
It seemed to be getting out of my hands
Aloof and distant, wake up

Make me your inspiration,
I strongly said
No, you're a distraction
And maybe I was the one who woke up

I snapped.

Yes, a nuisance
A worthless piece of annoyance
Ready to ruin a life so young,
so fragile.
Prepared to break a perfectly whole heart,
to cut the wings of a freely floating angel.

*A distraction, a distraction, a distraction

and maybe i waited for this time,
i looked down on a wishing well,
i kneeled for hours and begged,
whispered words only i can tell

*who am i to ask for your stay
what did i do to have you this way
who am i to ask for redemption
when did i start hurting you this way

i still wonder why there should be faults when it would not be worth it in the end.