Someday when the birds learn how to mock our cries of scrutiny
You will gravitate away from the floor that is magnitized with your mistakes
Will you change your polar relevancy and float away in such a manner that you can hear the birds screech about trivial actions that somehow became your reputation.

Jealousy is how you say my name
To show distain
Regret
Resentment
But underneath
To show pride
To show that you still believe you can get me back
That I made a mistake
And that we were in love
Despite that it was just lust
Laced with pretty words
To justify our intentions
Of banging the living daylight out of each other
And it was you that made me feel like I had to justify myself
Because *** is something beautiful, and meaningful
Was something lovely and inatmite
Until you made it shameful.
You say my name to brag about how
You were in love with a girl who was ***** and impure
A girl who confused lust and love
A girl who got lost in your intentions
A girl who was not in love with you.

I dare you to reclaim yourself as human of the year
don’t be scared
You have won.
You are so inconceivably right.
I am, a matter of fact a piece of property
And I can’t thank you enough,
For making people ask for your permission
To touch me in ways that you never could.
Thank god I have you to set some boundaries
Cause god knows if I didn't
I might actually become...
Happy?
Thats silly because you make me happy
With your ability to set expectations
For me, made by you
Thank god none of them surpass
Your abilities because I may find out ...
I can do better?
So reclaim yourself as human of the year
Everyone always hates the phoenix
And I'm sure
That I hate you.

Next two years, college, poetry, poetry,
You, me, ***, condoms, birthcontrol?
Mother, permission, cleaning room, cleaning life, windex, lemon scented windex.
Windows, escape, Ani Difranco, 32 flavors, 32 flavors and then some
I am 32 flavors and then some.
My grades are 1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds?
Atleast I vary. Colleges look for variation.
I can cross my eyes. Only one other person in my family can cross their eyes.
This was my last quarter to make an impression.
Impress. Smile. Eye contact. I have to meet your mother.
I have to go shopping
With your mother.
I lied to my mother
Mothers dont like lying
My parents asked me if something tragic happened to me
I used to wish that something tragic would happen to me
Nothing tragic has happened to me
Unless you call immense boredom with tiny people on a tiny state tragic
Which for a matter of fact I do.
You ask me whats going on
I’m a smart girl
Im flattered that you think so
But I doubt your surgeon parents will agree
How many AP classes am I taking...
0.
This is so out of character.
Youve never avoided your problems like this before
Silly parents
You’d avoid your problems too if they were
Life ambition, college, ***, condoms, birthcontrol?
1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds, cleaning room, cleaning life
Cleaning out my character
Because I have to impress your mother.
Should we get you a therapist?
We shouldve gotten you a therapist last year
Dealing with stress is hard for anyone
You just need help.
I do not want your help.
Dealing with stress is not hard
Put your head in the sand and listen to Ani Difranco
32 Flavors
32 flavors and then some
I am 32 flavors and then some

Atoms are 99.99% empty space.
And that is the only thing keeping me from losing myself
In the thought that we never actually held hands
We never touched
We never kissed
We were never in contact.
Except I'm still left with
Your smell
Your thought
Your vision
Your .001 of matter that happened to touch the most important .001 of me.

I've been looking for a life boat in your eyes
Looking for an fire escape through your hands
So please refrain from trying to comfort me
When you tell me that the last life boat is gone
And the escape ladder has already been burned away.