A half filled Kool-aid filled water bottle
lays next to your pile of tangled emotions
that you've finally let pour out
Of your locked up body.
You claim that society has turned us all
Into casualties of greed and competition.
That people have been born into lives
that teach them to focus on being successful
rather than being happy.
So as you cry under your covers at night
struggling to breathe at a normal pace
please remember that you don't have to be society
to be happy.  
Learn to be your own world
refuse to be a casualty of society.

I only cry in the shower
Because you feel your eyes start to blur
But maybe it's from the steam
Not from the wrecking ball of emotions

I only cry in the shower
Because no one can come in
And see you falling apart
They can't even hear you

I only cry in the shower
Because you can't tell the difference
Between the water from the shower head
And your own tears
And for some reason I feel comfort in that

Why do we waste so much time on things that don't make us happy

Where do you want to go to college?  
Excuse me, while i go take advil to clear my head.
What do you want to be when you graduate?
One minute please, i just have to go have a quick panic attack.
Why did you drop spanish 4? Are you crazy?
Ill be right back, i just can't really breathe right now.
You know that if you don't get yourself together you'll be living at home?
Ill just be one second, i suddenly feel like i have to throw up.
Emma. Stop avoiding the problem, you won't get anywhere with that attitude.
Believe me i know. Maybe if i just go to slept for a bit...
If you work hard now, you'll be much happier later.
Thats what people say, but why can't i be happy now too?
Maybe you could get into Berkley, they look for special talents, you know.
Special talents like what? Im pretty good at memorizing lyrics to songs that no one knows.
What are you thinking, you need at least a 3.4 GPA to make it.
really though i can't breathe.
We aren't made of money, if we can't afford school and you don't get a scholarship...
Please stop, i really don't feel well.
Did you do well on the math test?
My stomach can't handle this.
My brain can't handle this.
I just can't handle this.

All people are created equal.
*******.
If you say that then you have no respect
No one is equal to another
because that would mean that
every one of us is replaceable.
You equal you, no one else.
No one is less and no one is more
but no one is equal.

Its funny how i expect you to talk to me
when every time i see you i duck in cover
and cross my fingers that i didn't look as bad
as i did in that picture someone took this morning.
Why do i think that if i don't have enough guts
to simply look up and smile, that'd you'd have the guts
to come over and converse with my high-pitched comments.
Maybe its because i don't want to smile in case you don't smile back
or maybe its because i don't want to be too available or then ill look desperate.
I really need to be more confident and move past my phase of seductively doing nothing

I need to learn how not to open my mouth
in desperation to fill the empty silence
that should've been words
if this were to work.
I need to understand that maybe
your not saying anything simply
because you have nothing to say
not because your angry or bored
but simply because you don't need to say anything
why do i need to say anything anyways
i always just blurt some
ignorant, high pitched statement
that honestly has nothing to do with us