2 minutes
breathless

spastic
and in tears

let it rain
down on my shoulders
its
as close to a hug
I can get

one day
I will fall
into limbo
forget corners exist
and be thankful
I can't see

When I was little,
I only felt the pain
when I saw the blood

yet somehow,

when you melted
my dreams
and distracted me from
satisfaction

It hurt
more than blood
had prepared me to

I saw butterflies today
they were beautiful

I spread my arms wide
like in cliche stock images
and welcomed
any sunshine

You told me I should write
Give the world a piece of my mind
And find my inner peace

Looking at happiness
with gloomy eyes
is never truthful

Looking at it now,
everything I remember you said
sounds like human sacrifice

I swear
you took more pieces
than I knew I had

I think
you did it
by breaking me

You told me to write
but ever since
I've been writing in riddles

trying to save myself
any last piece

The lights no longer dim
The weeks no longer long
They built a building
That blocked our view

I still try to remember
What it looked like before you

On the days
You hurt me
I chose to forgive you

I still know
That was the best thing to do

When I was afraid of change
My mind would trick me
Into submission
By forgetting
My favorite quote

"the way I loved you was consuming"

"I hope you heal all the wounds you want to heal"