This music
The drums
The beat
So much faster than anything
And my heart races to catch up
Left in the wake

I wish I could not speak.
Maybe then,
The things I wish to say would be more meaningful
And I would say so much more.

I wouldn't say
"I love you".
I would show it.

And I wouldn't recite poetry,
I would act it.

And I wouldn't tell jokes.

*I would be them.

The chill seeps in
Freezing my bones
Slurring my speech
Extinguishing the heat that fills
My body
Slowly removing me
From it

The cold is always reaching for
An embrace
But it only may embrace anything
Anyone
For a little while
Until clinging to something
Pushes the one being clung on to
Away
Forever.

Something is different in school.

But what?

It could be that everything that has happened wasn't here
And that affects things, but somehow that doesn't seem right.

I don't know.

But it's affecting me,
And my words are taking a turn for the worst.

I don't have to like someone and I don't have to beg for them to like me back and I don't have to prove anything to anyone and I don't have to lower my standards for anyone.

I believe that the right person will come when I least expect it and they will want me the way that I want them and they won't lead me on and they will make me feel like I'm worth something to them and not just some ordinary girl.

There is someone out there for me that meets my standards and someone is looking for someone that's me and you know what? I'm okay with that. I'm okay with waiting and I'm okay with what life has in store for me.

a.g (8:45pm)