I'm wet and cold...
Watching rain fall down around me...
Hanging on to moments that are no longer here...
Thinking back to how we met, words you said, feelings burning....
This close separation gets me here...
Passing our places and thinking of you. ..the contemplation of butterflies ...
That glimmer in your eyes...
I don't get the whys and how's of us....
I don't understand the closeness of us. ..
The separation of us...
There isn't any us...
I'm in the Pouring rain. ..
Surrounded by the blackest sky...
With your heart on my mind....

E.J.M.

When I hear your voice it's like my stomach has no bottom. ..
This fluttering gutless feeling. ..
I still can't breathe. ..
This bottomless,  butterfly intensity. ..
No wonder I can't leave....

E.J.M.

We are fading and I can't stop it...
This isn't what I'd planned...
As helpless as I am to stop us. ..
I feel you waning...
I love you so much but have lost you somewhere. ..
Your pretty mouth with pretty words...
And it's fading. ..
I miss you in the worst of ways...
When in fact you are already gone...
These weeks without words I cannot do...

E.J.M.

We all pretend that we don't care...
I'm lying. ..
I hurt everyday...
Loving you hurts me....
Yet I lie to you...
I keep doing this. ..
Hoping for another outcome...
And I keep lying...
I Say I'm fine..
Yet I cry all the time. ..
You're not mine...
And who am I?
that I should be vying for your touch....
Tomorrow I'll lie to you again ...
While the weeks pass without a word..
Players only love you when their playing. ...
My heart breaks for you...
And I'm lying when I say I don't care...

E.J.M.

I'm not your plaything. ..
To be put on a shelf...
For a rainy day.
I breathe and I hurt...
I Miss and I long for you...
And you show up. .. when I'm almost gone. ..
I don't want to play anymore. ....
Because I keep crying and you keep leaving.....

E.J.M.

If this was love.... I'd wake up kissing your face....
I'd know throughout the day. ..
There wouldn't be this space. ...
This hole. ..
This heart wrench in my soul....
I sit here for weeks and weeks...
For what?
Waiting for you to love me?
Love me like you love her?
I need to go.......

E.J.M.

I rarely cry for you... for us...
But my heart is breaking. ..
And you aren't here....
And I'm sobbing. ... even after all these years. ..

E.J.M.