Wolf-pup, small and innocent
Loud noises make her jump
and whimper
Her teeth are barely sharp,
her growl high pitched and weak

Wolf-pup snuggles tightly against the members of the pack
scared and tired
and cold

Wolf stands tall, eyes dark
ready to pounce
teeth sharp, ready to tear through flesh
growl strong, loud and pulsates through the ground

the wolf-pup is the alpha now

I. The first of the many to be taken by him

II. The first one who was intoxicated by his touch and the venomous words tumbling out of his mouth

III. The first one. The first one.
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i­. A poor girl. Small and quiet. Shy eyes. Innocent. A dead girl. Small and calculating. Empty eyes. Hypnotising.

ii. A strong boy. Tall and loud. Joyful eyes. Perfect. A sad boy. Tall and hurt. Dark eyes. Broken.
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­1. The blood spilled

In Gothic architecture,                          light is considered
                       the most beautiful revelation of God;
                    Beauty is a characteristic of an animal,
                    an idea, object, person or place that provides
an experience of pleasure,                           or satisfaction;
                    Beauty is studied             as part of aesthetics,          [culture],
                    social psychology, philosophy & sociology;
An ideal beauty is an entity;
admired; possessing features
widely attributed                            to beauty in a particular culture;
       to perfection:

Ugliness [commonness],  [          ]  commonly                          co­nsidered to be the opposite
                  of beauty,
annihilated as an intellectual concept,
                                  no longer exists;

      The experience of beauty is     often
involved in     an interpretation of some
entity     [being in balance & harmony];
                  the experience of nature may                lead to feelings
of attraction                                               & emotional well-being;
                                    Because perception is a purely   subjective experience,
                                    it was once said that beauty
                                   is in the eye of the beholder;                  
                                    a­ sentiment long debunked;

There is evidence                               that hypothetical       perceptions
of beauty involve                               determining
aspects of                      things,                              peop­le & landscapes;
                            beauty is typically found
in situations likely to enhance the survival
of the perceiving collection
        [of chromosomes]

WINTER is holding hands
and warm breaths mixed together
Pink noses and cheeks

WINTER is muffled voices
sharing the same space

WINTER is brown eyes
that set alight with the fire at their feet
sparks travelling through their eyes,
across their skin, warming them to their bones

WINTER is light blue eyes
fading into the pale sky
soft pale skin icy to the touch
lips chapped and bright pink

Yesterday everything was fine
But it wasn't,
it just that you forget how you felt yesterday
because it was fine
and today the pain is back
and you don't remember if it is better or worse
because you started to get numb
and it helped you forget
the pain from yesterday

and sometimes you remember the pain from yesterday
and sometimes it isn't as bad
and sometimes it's worse

and I just need to escape
I need to leave
and stop and breathe
and stop shaking
and why can't I stop
why can't I breathe
why can I never breathe
why is my heart jumping in my chest
why
why
why
NO

my therapist always tells me that when I'm panicking
its because I'm worried about something and I just don't know what
but what if I think and think about what I'm worried about and there's just nothing there
I just can't stop panicking