We danced, coated in the scent of musky sweat,
Entranced by the nature of her husky voice and the way we met,
We locked eyes and I started to get wet,
From sweat and not that other liquid.
Her eyes still on me as she argued and bickered,
With some other dancer who was also a babysitter,
They argued over how to raise a child to be well behaved,
That argument led to the revelation of how her life was saved,
By dancing.

Quick and solemn movements with a little flexibility,
The way she moved had me questioning her mobility.
Was she a natural born or did she develop this ability?
Her hip sways as fluid like she was in a sea of tranquility,
But I couldn't help but think she is beyond my capability...

So I never asked her out.
It wasn't for a lack of confidence but possessing doubt,
But as our bodies moved together out and about,
I could see her eyes giving off an inaudible shout,
She finally spoke to me, a pouring rain after a drought,
"There's so many fish in the sea but I finally found my trout".

You have a shadow in the dark,
A lurking fiend that lasts forever,
But I was drawn to you like night,
And I knew our bond would never sever.

You are a glimpse of light in the dark,
A flickering candle,
That remains lit despite the climate,
Holding a warmth no one can handle

You are the stars in the dark,
You shine to give the night some light,
And although you don't see it,
You are the fragments that keeps everything bright.

You are the sounds of the sea in the dark,
The whooshing and splashing of waves,
The essence of life on Earth,
The echo of the water tampering against caves.

You are powerful in the dark.
I wonder what I would find out of the dark, in the light?

I ******* HATE MYSELF.

I'M ******* GARBAGE AND I DESERVE WHEN PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE ****

I ******* ****

My mother,
Seemed to be filled with wisdom,
Built her own little fort-
And us kids, served in this kingdom.
Although she is fair,
She says every parent always cares,
And she has shown this.
Around the house,
There aren't family photos,
Or portraits of a family,
Because I haven't exactly
Had a conventional family.
Mother once said to me,
'Family is not who's blood you carry,
It's who can hug you like a panda,
When you are sad'.

I have two cousins
Who are filled with vibrant energy
Set on appreciating and experiencing
Every moment of life.
Seeing things through kids eyes
Must be different,
Fighting over
Which my little pony is better.

I have a baby sister-
She doesn't do much.

I have me,
I have been told I should love me,
And I want to write this poem,
To show what life looks like to me.

I have a myriad friends,
Who raise interesting questions
And help me when I'm down.
One of my closest friend helped me
Move from my most recent heartbreak
Posing the question
'Do you live for now, do you live for the future
Or do you cloud your head and live in the past?'.

I had two best friends,
One male and one female,
My bestie ...left this world
In search for a different meaning to beauty,
And my male bestie,
Became too toxic for my search for stability.

That's all there is about me,
I expect no painting,
I expect nothing really.
Just airing who I am,
To a world of people
That I don't fully know yet.

I am me,
And I seek,
All the light,
That settles inside,
Everyone.
I also have all you poets
who ENCOURAGE me
To keep writing.

You are all beautiful,
And special people.

Lets ride the waves
Till we reach the shores.

Why is it that when I try to sleep, thoughts of you infiltrate my mind.
I think it's just so that when I dream, you are what I hope to find.
Dreams fade in and out and the memory is not retained,
But every dream I have had of you has always remained.

Your beautiful smile and your effervescent personality,
Your everlasting kindness and geniality.


Corinthians 13:4-8 says that
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

And I believe you are the embodiment of true love babe.

When the bell chimes,
The casket prepared,
Remember times,
When you cared.

Cry not for my soul,
Be glad for I am fine,
I will be perfectly whole,
When it comes time.

Don't remember me,
Erase me from your mind,
For you will eventually see,
That you will always be in mine.

Don't stand at my grave,
Memories eventually fade,
There's nothing left to save,
I will be bounded by palisades.

The palisades known as time.

Cute cuddly kid,
Silently suffered SID,
Kid casket comes,
Red roses run,
Mourning mornings missed,
Cute cuddly kid,
Nothing more than a baby...

In a world of wireless connection;
Sometimes it's hard to feel connected
This wasn't the situation with you,
You have turned grey skies blue
And made my heart pump joy
as though happiness was not another ploy.
I've bled the blood of broken hearts
But with you by my side;
I can fall asleep at night,
knowing that these thoughts won't exist.
With you, with me, with us
there are no broken hearts,
just us.

Till the end of time,
Remind me that you are mine,
Because my heart, my soul;
it's all for you.

While the shadows of the world formed ogres
Yours formed angel wings stabilising me
And my heart was all that you could see
Even when I thought that my world was over
Or when I saw periods of being non-sober
You stood by my side as rugged as a tree
Even when I was as buzzed as a bee
You'd only ever held me much closer.

I've been wondering so much,
      About when we will eventually lose touch,
But then I realised all it takes to mend a broken heart,
        Is one step forward and a new start.

The candle sat shimmering,
On a table,
A sturdy table, a table so stable,
That the candle never once flickered,
Even when parents bickered,
The candle showed us that,
No matter how dark things get,
As long as you have support,
There will always be light,
Because one candle ,
Can light up the whole world.

Never understood the power of subtlety,
Like a chicken is only a chicken outside its shells,
But I watched people encased themselves in shells,
Just to shield themselves in this living hell,
But I for one, could never really tell.
Confusing words like depression with swell,
But the only thing that was swollen,
Was the black coated hearts become sullen,
And out of everything I have gotten,
Is that humans will never show their weaker sides,
To afraid to leave a bad light,
When their inevitable time comes and they die.
Always never trusting the hearts they confide,
So they say 'I'm happy', but they simply lie.
Humans are in a way like unhatched chickens and turtles,
Holding onto their shells until they hang themselves and become purple,
As though listeners will only ever be hurtful.

We keep our hearts locked up and hidden,
To avoid disturbing or even troubling others,
As though an expressive heart is forbidden,
Even when we treat one another like brothers.

You use to leave me breathless once,
Now you just leave me.
It is only fair that I do the same.
Bye to the game of chasing love,
Bye to the constant attempt at your heart,
Bye to the hope that we might align once again,
Bye to any future I might have with you.
Simply short Bye.
I can't do this anymore.

I walked past her.
Silence.
I waved.
She waved.
I smiled.
She smiled.
We went on our ways
forever unknown
to one another until
one fateful day in the future.

Silent skies, seeping sunshine.
Birds chirping,butterflies fluttering.
No rain cloud nor storm in sight.
The serene sound of ambient traffic.

I finally am sure that this may,
I won't be feeling any dismay.
All thanks to you.

I resist the restraint
That society creates
I see people paint
Outside of lines
Outside of times.

Individuals invested in impromptu
To distinguish themselves old from new
To let out a little light for those with a dimmed view
Just to give chance to dreams and hopes people pursue.
We all face challenges and blockades we have to go through
It's part of being human.
I'm a human, and you are too,

They use to tell me that being a poet,
means being gifted and talented with words,
as though small simple words weren't heard,
We stray away from simple words that people know of,
To much more complex, intricate words like amorousness,
Because love can only be felt by overcomplicating the term,
As though love itself is an entity of no value can confirm.

You made me forget all of my past
And made me feel as though
Only the future ever really mattered
Until you became another photo
In a box of photos that will never
Once again see a single ray of
Daylight.

I sat across from you looking into your eyes
I have sat across you for a week now
And I know not what your words tell me
For I looked at your beautiful eyes and ask how.

How is it that you're so pretty?
How is it that your eyes glow?
How is that your teeth shines?
And how did I just now know?

The sound plays over and over
The little song of your heartbeat
I wonder how it is that I can
Keep that sound on repeat.

The volume of the sound lowers
The echoes starts to fade
And I wonder how such a heart
Could suddenly change shades.

This is a story about a sun
He had no friends, none
He'd seen his rays run
And the damage it's done
So he leapt the skies
Till he left the skies
With rented disguise
And lives to hide
As the night.

The first time always hurts the most darl
He whispers into her ear while slowly rubbing her back

I'm sure it wouldn't hurt as much as you say?
She says placing her open hands on her lap.

Falling in love for the first time always hurts the most
He mumbles holding his chest in his arms.

You'll be ok, you will find love again
She speaks the first thoughts in her mind.

I will always love you

My Queen is a metal in a volcano,
I hope I'm not being abrupt,
But I can feel it erupt,
Because she's a steel lava,
In other words I still love her.

I danced around the tables,
Sang songs in the steamy showers,
I told my reckless fables,
And I repeat it hour after hours.

I am finally hitting a stride of joy,
As though my sadness and concern,
Vanished to never return,
I am finally happy.

I can't see another body in a coffin
Waste down and away to nothing
I can't let that rest on my conscience
The way my best friend's did.

She was definitely a blessed soul
But as time ticks to it's toll
She decided to let everything go
But she is not forever gone.

I can't let guilt from someone's daughter,
Someone's son, someone's brother
Someone's sister, someone's father
and someone's mother, rest on my soul.

So I beg of all you poets to extend a hand
To those whose life aren't so grand
Or who believe they are against god's plan,
Extend them a hand and help them.

Even if you're not trained, a simple "hello,
You are wonderful" or "your poems are
beautiful", doesn't hurt anyone.
So please just be as nice as you can.

FOR ***** SAKES...

Never have I understood what it was
Like to be finally accepted for being
Myself.
I preach be yourself to others
While I disguise the emptiness
Of that sentiment.

Never have I not stopped being myself
The kid with the dreams of being an actor
The kid that lives inside the body of an
Adult.

Just go...
Doesn't matter where
Just know....
I'll always be there.
So show....
Me your pretty smile
And know
That's how to live a while.

Where my life became chaotic
Where I lost control of everything
Wheee I lost everything.

I don’t want to be your next broken toy.
To avert your every sadness and despair like a decoy.
It never seems to amuse me that I have been used
but in the sight of all that is right, **I am confused.

He
was destined
for something
that seemed
extremely unfortunate
Injustice

He
fell on
his own
blade.

Sometimes you unlock the right box,
You hear all that you had ever dreamed of hearing.
Sometimes you unlock the wrong box,
You hear your world start to crumble bits and pieces.

I hate heartbreaks.
I hate how it aches,
How I know I will miss you,
But I know you don't give a ****.

I Love you......and I don't know why.
WHY
WHY
WHY won't it work?

I promised to never give up
But I've grown tired.

Happy valentines day to those who found love,
I hope you have a great day.

And to those who don't have love right now,
it will be ok, we still have chocolate.

Chocolate is a different kind of sweet,
A different kind to love.

Happy valentines day to everyone

My secret was you.
      Your secret was him.
                              Worlds burn.

Memories fade in and out
It is without a doubt
There's just no way to forget
This deep feeling of regret
For not being better than I am
But you're as far as Uncle Sam
So when tales or two are told
There's always that lack of hold
That keeps a hole between two
The pain ever so true
Distance is a grudge harbouring mistress
And difference is a hateful princess.
So now that you're indifferent about me
My feelings haven't changed selflessly,
I must let you move on, no matter how much I want you back,
But if I could rewind time like a vinyl track,
I'll rewind it to where I first talked to you,
When I was coated in nothing but blue,
But you helped coloured me in rainbow,
I still love you but all I can do is say so...
Should have known to let you fly free,
Even when I felt stuck and lost at sea,
Should not have been the shackles holding you down,
Should not even make a sound....
But somehow I betray my conscience,
Because you were my drug of dependence,
And I can do nothing but say sorry,
For the chains, the shackles, the locks and lack of key.
Go fly free with your new lover dear,
And when it gets all dark, don't fear
For you found the light you deserved,
As for I, I'll make myself reserved.
One thing though, don't seal your mind with a lock,
No matter how dark,there are people willing to knock,
And try to understand you.
It'll all be somewhat new,
But don't shut yourself off.
You deserve the world.
But the world doesn't deserve you.

As though the pains of yesterday
Could tell us who we were.
We stood tall against tragedy,
We stood strong against pain.
But we will always ever be human.
One-fifth destined by fate,
Four-fifth by our own sheer will.
Only by standing should we know,
Who we are now opposed to,
Who we were

Will I get rid of this feeling,
Of missing you.