"watch your ego"

so I looked further within
only to find what everything has ever been
   (sub atomically)

reading a screen to avoid a scene in this reality I don't want to see

when I question myself I think of my hand digging down my throat until I feel my spleen

(wicked me)

but should I not voice internal imagery?

time is eroding my current self

(melting face)

laces I cannot lace
the shoe doesn't fit so this experience I can't embrace
accepting universal truths I can't even begin to trace in space

(out of here)
I miss you my dear

drunk and high so drag me by the ear... until it rips from my head so I know you didn't let go

(please don't let me go)

even if my body is cut in pieces

keep me in a box

(but I wasn't drunk and high)

naked on the edge of my bed

away from what makes me feel on the (edge)

but it's what helps me sleep
              (in the deep)

"I guess"
Brush the pain off with some sense
Drawing in blue...
Help myself look at what triggers my ego in past-tense

The air is dense, can barely walk through the present

             (let loose)
grabs ****

Nothing to do but to ******* to the image of you
Self-defeating, barely eating when you leave me with an empty seat

The emotions are dense

**** myself

                   for my expense
Can't make much from just existing

Walking down the street that deceits, finding less than what I'm worth
1 cent

To your god I don't repent, my mind I live to represent

Sad only for today

out here, within
catch a glimpse
(my tongue on your skin)
thinking of me or thinking of him?
as long as you're pleased, don't matter what you


          (think)

a boat in the empty sea

lonely and free

too many beliefs, but nothing to preach

creating what I seek

focusing on me, and they see me as bleak

but do understand, I have to be carefree

(sensitivity kills me)

in the dark

how do you want me to run for the light when it's within?

(help me find the noose)
(internal dialogue I will not express)

**** my ego, tactics from the monks

help me understand where my thoughts generate

from where? (can I gps myself there?)

hanging on to my life, gripping a string of hair

but I might just use my weight to rip it

300 mg's
(get me started with initiation)

the fire is burning within, I feel you