you can take all, but not my will to experience my will to live

it's 6:08 am
the gym is a little empty today
old faces
young faces
mostly old
the women with no husbands are a little odd
they know the pain they went through
but did they handle it?
could their hearts be wandering while their body is still here? trying to fit in, in this gym of moving people?

it's usually loud in here, the radio isn't working today
gratefully
but i think people appreciate listening to their efforts, subconsciously

one can hope, one can dream, but we all can
but are we living these concepts?
i can't say i'm lost in thoughts, because i know how far i'll go down this road of questions and "answers"
1 question creates a thousand and one more

too many use of drugs i just want to see you girl
every second i gasp for your energy
breathing through my misery to catch some of your insight
melting with the thought of us together
how can i disconnect from what i truly need?
no kind of practice can enlighten the animal within
in the void i just capture myself in states of awe, my ego swells
amazement in my self, i need to stop that man
can't handle too much of me, i guess that's why there's a trinity
don't need that kind of comfort i'm one with fear and awkwardness
one with the insecurities that used to penetrate in my day to day
one with the negativity that used to hold me back
but i had to learn to push myself beyond my "self"
every single kiss i see through my mirror girl
every single glance my mind stop and spins around a pole that last's forever in rotation
trying to find the end but you left me with nothing but beginnings girl
a new approach i see myself going after the gun blow
everytime i see you, we're in the midst of blow
but why cry? i love you

we were in the city,
serving our prayers to the nobody that exists, loving with every centimeter of our bodies
embodying the reality that this love, is true
for I grow day by day, my love for you bypasses morals

haven't been inspired to write

to love is to die everyday, just a little

melt between her fingers

in her desire to see you beyond this moment

certainty in her eyes

i will hold you until my hands fall off

How do I love?
In the moment is where I cry
Sensitive to you
Sensitive to the idea of forever, but I have to let myself tingle
Beyond eachother, stop signs don't bother
We're going without a green light
Gliding through the wind we trust
Satan in the mirror
God behind my back
I kiss the mirror and turn around
Smile baby boy, I just kissed and faced ideas made by humans like you
The evil and good generates from them
So how do I love?
Do I just trust a human with a ***** because I see a future?
But when I see the future, I forget I can die right now
The risk is everything
Loving you

Is everything

My soul is split for you
Your hands carry my fortune that I wouldn't have without your grasp
I give you all
but you can;t give me answer
The effort is wasted when you leave without talking to me


the clock keeps going


I forget you even know how to talk

I'll be sorry about this, but it's what I "truly" feel right now

The truth lies in the seconds you can't count
The mind races, but you can't measure it in the track

I'm just typing what I feel, not what I am

but do my thoughts create me?

We control this moment, why can't you feel my effort?
I feel like you're testing my love

but you're only cutting the cord to our love

It hurts knowing you're capable, but thinking you're useless