Things are changing
The waves are moving different directions in the ocean in my head
Sorry I expressed what I felt
What kind of care do you give?
I'm drowning and holding on to your hand
Watch me sink in my thoughts I would've told you
I can't open up because I get no reply

As long as I know I do

Then why should I pay the price of wanting something from somebody who is a wall when I talk

How do you sit while reaching out aboce your ocean of tears?
The water keeps overflowing, but you are not moving
The question is not why you cry
but why you sit criss-cross with your head down with not a will in the world to even think
I fear not seeing you on the other side
Don'y fall behind
You are by me, girl
In this world, the people hate and the animals listen
The eyes of millions fall in comfort when they lie
The eyes of millions cry when their lovers lie
This has no point
The moment called for this
I expressed and delivered, this way
I chose to type these words, letters...language....to explain how I see... how I feel

The format doesn't make sense

I'm trying, you should too

Barely

OD on L O V E... and try to see
We're meant to love
Meant to feel pain
To feel happiness
Love is just a word that makes every emotion into a list
Follow me through the distance between us two
Let's slither down our trust
Until it doesn't exist
Until the rules melt between our finger tips
A bed in the middle of the nothing
I don't try to not fit in with the ocean

Keep me

My emotions go crazy
Preaching the peace within me
But you know how make my craziness punch a hole on the wall when you upset me

Let's sail away from the factors
Suffocate me with your presence
Make me think I'm your only one
I know it's just for the next few experiences
We are only 19

How can she talk about a tomorrow that hasn't been written

But I'd live what I've created in my mind with you... only you

Tag me in the pictures you smile in

So that I have something meaningful (only perspectively) to smile at

I know this me drives me away from you

Just acccept this swing of words before they erode inside my head and into my memories

Just love this part of me

You can't pass by and sigh/
The water runs over waters like the *** /dripped down your face/

Haven't ate in 19 hours////

I love the sound of your mind/
Your wind never dies/
When do you not ******* away?/
I can't stay and no I cannot say why/
these eyes begin to cry when I realize what you are to I/
Just know that I am near, so is death/
And love doesn't begin, nor does it end/
We just **** and I put my hand on your face/

The people wonder why we ever came about

Time doesn't come with a why it happens
There's no book to find answers for the reasons we question

Shouldn't we be aware of this?/
That to love is not always bliss/
Sometimes your presence won't mean much to me/
My face aches whenever the vibe is dead/
But the experiences are worth listening to/

The moment fly out of our hands and merge within the books of our existence/
Distance is nothing you say, but I can't bare the idea that you are not there/
A 15 minute car ride is already too much/

And I love you too much

12:51 AM
Planet Earth I think

1/18/2017

Don't make me mad

I'll just repeat that again, like always

How do I seek truth when I can't see beyond the moon
How do I wonder so far when I can touch my head
Inside I wonder with no disguise
Because I don't fear what comes in my day
Accepted a wound to the heart, so I could accept pain everyday
Losing you, like vapor coming from the pax
There you lie, without the soul

Can't even blow

MUUUUst write

because the moment has letters that I can turn into delight  

I have 18 tabs open right now
But sometimes I want to get out and take 18 tabs

then say Hi to Terence Mckenna

I can't compare
But I will anyway
Individuality
To me
A state of being without anything afflicting the current "self"
I can't even say self without feeling wrong

But there is self all over my room

Self there self here

Self within

Self.... everywhere